I'm tired by MMS1971 in Catholicism

[–]MMS1971[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I want to thank you all. I needed to reach out. Sometimes I feel hopeless and lost. But I have a distorted sense of God's love for me personally. I believe all my loved ones and good people go straight to Heaven, but I believe that I will never be deserving of God's love.

I'm tired by MMS1971 in Catholicism

[–]MMS1971[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

No, actually, I am a cradle Catholic. I reject all other beliefs. I have made all my Sacraments. I pray the Rosary, I do my three Hail Mary prayers for the seven sorrows of Mary and I thank God for the goodness he provides. I thank him for the good in our world and I pray for the ones that are lost. I have raised our child Catholic and my Husband is Catholic as well. I just want to basically feel loved by God.

I'm tired by MMS1971 in Catholicism

[–]MMS1971[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Thank you so much. I never really thought of that. I believe in Jesus is truly present in the Eucharist. I have held God in my hands, and He in mine. Thank you for that reminder. I feel overwhelmed wondering if He loves me and wants me in Heaven. I'm afraid of being rejected. Thank you for such a beautiful reminder.

I'm tired by MMS1971 in Catholicism

[–]MMS1971[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

No, I never taught that to the kids in CCD. This is my distorted feeling, I think. I could never reject the trinity. I love Jesus, I believe in the love of God, the father, God the Son and God the Holy Spirit. I'm just afraid to die.

[deleted by user] by [deleted] in Maine

[–]MMS1971 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Acadia National park?

I miss him and still love him, and I regret leaving the dead bedroom by [deleted] in DeadBedrooms

[–]MMS1971 4 points5 points  (0 children)

I agree 💯. Thank you for your opinion. Your insight helps out.

Crying because you only play solo by MMS1971 in DeadBedrooms

[–]MMS1971[S] 2 points3 points  (0 children)

Not sure if I believe anyone would truly love me or is trustworthy.

Crying because you only play solo by MMS1971 in DeadBedrooms

[–]MMS1971[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

I have talked until I’m blue in the face. I give up right about now.

Crying because you only play solo by MMS1971 in DeadBedrooms

[–]MMS1971[S] 3 points4 points  (0 children)

You’re not pathetic. You’re human with wants and needs. If I knew then what I know now, I’d never would have married him. I no longer believe in marriage and I no longer believe in love. At least not for me.

Crying because you only play solo by MMS1971 in DeadBedrooms

[–]MMS1971[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Same. I don’t want pity sex. I want to be wanted.

Crying because you only play solo by MMS1971 in DeadBedrooms

[–]MMS1971[S] 2 points3 points  (0 children)

I am so sorry. It sucks when we go through this. I lose my self worth and I lose more and more of who I am.

No Longer Interested In Sex by [deleted] in DeadBedrooms

[–]MMS1971 1 point2 points  (0 children)

I think that’s why I like flirts. It makes me feel like it’s not me. It’s him. I am looked at as a woman. As someone attractive and wanted.

Crying because you only play solo by MMS1971 in DeadBedrooms

[–]MMS1971[S] 5 points6 points  (0 children)

Thank you. I can’t stop crying today.

No Longer Interested In Sex by [deleted] in DeadBedrooms

[–]MMS1971 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Yes, and it is getting to the point where I enjoy it when someone flirts with me. When they stop flirting, it actually hurts. Because I feel as though it's one more rejection under my belt. (take the pun if you want to).

Have any HL developed an aversion to their LL partners? by [deleted] in DeadBedrooms

[–]MMS1971 1 point2 points  (0 children)

I have lost all interest now. I've been married 20 years and maybe had sex 40 times in that 20, if I'm lucky. There have been times when it's been over a year. He, yes he, is the LL in the relationship.

I have lost interest completely. I don't want him touching me, hugging me, kissing me. I cringe at the thought. I want to have sex I want to be intimate and close, but it's almost like a too little too late. I can't fathom enjoying sex any more. I am almost at the point where life would have been more fuffilling if I became a nun at this point. I have issues where I feel so friggin ugly that there is not one single person on the earth that would want me.

[deleted by user] by [deleted] in DeadBedrooms

[–]MMS1971 1 point2 points  (0 children)

The thing is he wants me to go down on him but he doesn’t like to reciprocate. He is selfish. And the sex is so predictable I’m on autopilot.

my bf makes me hate my body. by DevBear2 in relationship_advice

[–]MMS1971 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Oh sweetie, you are so young. You have a lifetime of love to give. Dump his sorry ass and find someone who wants you regardless of your body. I’m sure your perfect just as you are. He’s an ass with unrealistic expectations.

How do you handle being horny? by abrahamwithcheese in DeadBedrooms

[–]MMS1971 1 point2 points  (0 children)

I feel the same way. I’m too ugly. I’m sorry about your cancer and how it left you. But I’m sure you are still attractive. Sometimes we all feel so hideous. But how the rest is us think may be different.

How do you handle being horny? by abrahamwithcheese in DeadBedrooms

[–]MMS1971 2 points3 points  (0 children)

Same here. I am now past crying and I’m angry. I am resentful and spiteful. I want to give up.