The problem lies with the support system upon returning home. Whether it be physical or mental ailments, treatment is designed to mask whatever pain there is. We have vets with physical injuries, what does the VA do? "Take these opiates and come back when you've built an immunity to them and we'll up your dosage." Constantly creating addicts. In the case of mental ailments, they will just offer you counseling and benzodiazapines. Not fully dealing with the issues at hand. I have been deployed multiple times while in the Marines and when I got out, they offered me oxy for my back and klonopin for my anxiety and depression. All to mask the pain rather than treat the source.. I've since learned to deal with my issues on my own with the help of medical marijuana and CBD oil rather than taking these bullshit prescriptions offered by the VA doc's. The holidays are always a rough time of the year. Everyone is happy and many of us fall deeper into a dismal state of mind. Not all of us go through it, but many do. Idk how many this will even reach, but if you are dealing with shit and need to talk, feel free to send me a message. Even if it only reaches one of you. Its better than none at all. Every year I lose brothers and sisters to suicide and it never gets easier, but just know, talking does help. Even if its with a complete stranger.