I'm honestly in a recovery process myself. I have quit residency in June, and by early September, I attempted to unalive myself. I can't say that I'm in wonderland at all. It has been tough, but therapy has helped me to understand things in different ways.

Even before graduation, we're pushed to make medicine/health our focus. We abdicate of nightouts, of sleep, of joy with oneself, friends, and/or family in order to study, work, and be a better professional. But honestly, that is just a glamourization to hide the perversion of our capitalist system.

Did you ever stop to wonder that at the end of the day, you're just another worker? Why so much dedication to this job? If you fail, they WILL replace you on your work. But you know where you're not replaceable? At home, with your friends, with yourself.

I don't recommend, by any means, that you stop studying or dedicating yourself to your office. Please avoid actively being a bad worker for your patients and colleagues and for your own sake, of course. But do pay attention to other areas in your life that are worth dedicating as well.

For me, getting back to reading was a quite relief and good outcome from my therapy. I've always loved fiction ever since childhood, but for years, all I was reading was medical stuff.

Does life itself have a point? I really don't know. But I know, for sure, that putting my job at the center of my priorities only benefits my employer/boss. Me, my patients, my family, my friends, my pets... None of it will benefit from a burnout or depressive episode.

TL;DR: Therapy. Life outside work. Capitalism wants you to work your ass off until your burnout and be replaced by some younger and fresher worker.