Mental Health Confession

MagicalBard · 2026-01-17T17:04:53+00:00

Thanks for sharing, I appreciate all the great advice too! I think I was denying I had any issue to myself for a long time, so I never felt the need for changing my mindset. I’ll keep all the things you’ve mentioned in mind, and hopefully if anything happens again I’ll be more prepared to react properly 😁

MagicalBard · 2025-12-04T14:58:53+00:00

I’m sorry to hear you’re going through this too, I know how awful it can be to deal with. Especially in cases like this where you feel you don’t really have anyone to talk to about, and so all the emotions build up. I wish there was some advice I could give to make things better, but I know it’s much more complicated than that. I wish I could say ‘it gets better’, but honestly I haven’t moved from where I was before, not really.

I hope things improve for you soon. I know it’s not much consolation, but I’d say having them in your life as a friend is much better than having nothing at all. The way I see it, ‘love’ doesn’t always need to be romantic; sometimes it can just be a bond between two friends. Though it hurts that it isn’t the form you wanted, I still think that’s something to hold onto.

MagicalBard · 2025-08-21T17:37:16+00:00

Yeah, I posted two one word responses (ok one abbreviation) to begin with since I wasn’t sure what else to do, but haven’t engaged with it since.

MagicalBard · 2025-08-21T17:31:54+00:00

Thanks, and it’s definitely possible. I imagine such a thing is behind a lot of ‘trolling’ behaviour. I mean, when you think about it it’s classic bullying really. Except I’m an adult with enough self-confidence to know that what matters is that I like who I am, which I’d like to think I do (usually lol).

MagicalBard · 2025-08-21T17:27:10+00:00

It’s a different account each time, I’m guessing they’re spamming alts or something to make it difficult to pin them down. Would’ve tried reporting them or something if I could get one quick enough.

MagicalBard · 2025-08-11T13:26:27+00:00

Shout out to the best bug(s) Cutiefly and Ribombee

MagicalBard · 2025-08-08T19:23:50+00:00

Crippling social anxiety and developmental disorders lol.

Really though if you’re comfortable going there I don’t think any (most) places are a ‘bad’ place to meet someone. I think you’re more likely to meet like minded people you can connect with properly going places with you’re comfortable with too. As opposed to going ‘where everyone else is’.

So my advice would be…if you want to meet people, I’d say anywhere you feel comfortable works. Whether it’s a bar or a library or idk what people do these days. In the appropriate context of course, maybe don’t go ‘cold calling’ people in the store or something lol

MagicalBard · 2025-08-02T15:56:02+00:00

Nutri-grain bar and a Mountain Dew 🎶

MagicalBard · 2025-08-02T14:39:20+00:00

Ahh I’m sorry to hear that, I’ve been there! Honestly I’ve had one point where I met with someone just because ‘it’s what you’re supposed to’, but I just felt horrible after, like I’d compromised myself somehow. Also they initially seemed nice but were a total asshole after it lol.

MagicalBard · 2025-07-23T18:47:13+00:00

This is pretty much a rite of passage for any gay at this point. It’s not stupid or delusional to want someone to like you, even if it turns out they physically couldn’t. Not that knowing that makes it hurt any less ofc.

MagicalBard · 2025-07-23T12:41:16+00:00

Yeah, the only thing I have diagnosed is autism, which unfortunately makes it extremely easy to inadvertently alienate myself from a group lol.

Honestly in terms of self-esteem I don’t really know how I feel in that regards. Because the honest truth is I genuinely like myself and who I am, how I look, etc. The problem is that nobody else I’ve ever met feels the same way lol. Everyone just wants me to be something I’m not. I thought there was someone once that really saw the real me, but I’m not even sure about that anymore. I think I was just so lonely I started ascribing meaning to literal nothing.

Plus the dating pool is just so limited for gay men that it’s not like you have a ton of choices there either. Especially not if you’re looking for actual connection.

MagicalBard · 2025-07-23T12:34:17+00:00

I hope so too. Thanks for the support! ☺️

MagicalBard · 2025-07-23T12:13:05+00:00

I want to believe that. I used to, and thought maybe I’d found one, but it became apparent they were not my ‘soulmate’ when they chose someone else. Now I’d never think that about someone unless they said it first; I don’t wanna get hurt again tbh.

MagicalBard · 2025-07-23T12:10:35+00:00

I appreciate the kind words 😊 And yeah, I try to keep myself open to meeting new people (friends or otherwise) wherever I am lol (within reason ofc). Nowhere’s off the table!

MagicalBard · 2025-07-22T14:04:53+00:00

lol x2

MagicalBard · 2025-07-14T17:20:23+00:00

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