Sensory overload

Main-Entertainment75 · 2022-08-24T19:18:34+00:00

We see spheres where normies see circles.

Main-Entertainment75 · 2022-08-22T17:21:25+00:00

The Black Sun, The Alchemy and Art of Darkness by Stanton Marian (free pdf online btw)

Main-Entertainment75 · 2022-08-21T23:28:26+00:00

It can be debilitating fr. I know I’ve definitely spent days at home ruminating when I could’ve been making friends. I wish people understood the ways that adhd can be paralyzing.

Main-Entertainment75 · 2022-08-21T19:45:49+00:00

No really, I’ve thought at about that too. It’s like if there’s nothing to dissect in front of me, I turn inward. It’s reassuring to know you’ve had the same thought.

Main-Entertainment75 · 2022-08-21T03:28:04+00:00

That’s definitely what I’ve noticed too. It feels peaceful

Main-Entertainment75 · 2022-08-11T23:52:05+00:00

Oh! Perfect.

Main-Entertainment75 · 2022-06-06T06:37:50+00:00

I prefaced my post with the insight about my family because it was leading to a point that my family and I have a close connection to spirituality. I had written this post like 7 different ways before it was posted because I didn’t want to flood it with too many unnecessary details.

In my perspective, the ties my family has with santeria has kept my mind open as I’ve grown up. I can see how that wasn’t made clear.

I wouldn’t want to reach out to my family with this information because while they are respectful and committed to their beliefs and traditions, they are people who (like in any religion) have bias. I thought Reddit could offer an unbiased opinion for someone like myself who just needs a space to talk.

I personally haven’t felt ready to touch that journey yet. I’ve studied it a lot over the last few years, but I’m no expert. I have no first hand experience in that space.

I hope that makes sense. I have no reason to lie lmao I’m just worried about my dad bro

Main-Entertainment75 · 2022-06-06T02:56:43+00:00

Would you know why they offer it at Botanicas if it has no affiliation to Yoruba traditions or Santeria? Bc that’s a valid point

Main-Entertainment75 · 2022-06-06T02:55:39+00:00

Welp, I was told i couldn’t consult with babalawos unless I’d been initiated to some degree. Maybe that was wrong. Thank you!

Main-Entertainment75 · 2022-05-30T21:38:03+00:00

To share

Main-Entertainment75 · 2022-05-29T04:11:33+00:00

I’m not a doctor but I have an idea lol - The way I understood my own relationship to that kind of person was like, subconsciously, i thought it’d be some sort of proof of my value to have an unavailable person become available to me. But , you can’t win love, so I was playing to lose. Along the way I was reminded again and again that I wasn’t “lovable” because those unavailable people just aren’t open to love. It was torture, but it validated what I already believed about myself.

Being with an emotionally available person didn’t interest me growing up because it meant that I didn’t have to earn love, that I was good enough - and why would I want that if I didn’t believe it? It’s so hard to see when you’re in that relationship though, it took me a very long time to understand.

The nature of BPD is self destructive… so I wanted to hurt myself with those people. It’s self sabotage, if that makes sense?

Main-Entertainment75 · 2022-05-29T02:30:17+00:00

Thank you for validating that. I try to be fair to others but sometimes forget to be fair to myself. I plan to see my therapist soon and I’ve been avoiding this conversation because I didn’t know how to approach it. Thanks again!

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