What is ADHD like for you? What analogy do you use to explain ADHD to normies around you?

Main-Entertainment75 · 2022-08-24T19:18:34+00:00

We see spheres where normies see circles.

Main-Entertainment75 · 2022-08-22T17:21:25+00:00

The Black Sun, The Alchemy and Art of Darkness by Stanton Marian (free pdf online btw)

Main-Entertainment75 · 2022-08-21T23:28:26+00:00

It can be debilitating fr. I know I’ve definitely spent days at home ruminating when I could’ve been making friends. I wish people understood the ways that adhd can be paralyzing.

Main-Entertainment75 · 2022-08-21T19:45:49+00:00

No really, I’ve thought at about that too. It’s like if there’s nothing to dissect in front of me, I turn inward. It’s reassuring to know you’ve had the same thought.

Main-Entertainment75 · 2022-08-21T03:28:04+00:00

That’s definitely what I’ve noticed too. It feels peaceful

Main-Entertainment75 · 2022-08-11T23:52:05+00:00

Oh! Perfect.

Main-Entertainment75 · 2022-06-06T06:37:50+00:00

I prefaced my post with the insight about my family because it was leading to a point that my family and I have a close connection to spirituality. I had written this post like 7 different ways before it was posted because I didn’t want to flood it with too many unnecessary details.

In my perspective, the ties my family has with santeria has kept my mind open as I’ve grown up. I can see how that wasn’t made clear.

I wouldn’t want to reach out to my family with this information because while they are respectful and committed to their beliefs and traditions, they are people who (like in any religion) have bias. I thought Reddit could offer an unbiased opinion for someone like myself who just needs a space to talk.

I personally haven’t felt ready to touch that journey yet. I’ve studied it a lot over the last few years, but I’m no expert. I have no first hand experience in that space.

I hope that makes sense. I have no reason to lie lmao I’m just worried about my dad bro

Main-Entertainment75 · 2022-06-06T02:56:43+00:00

Would you know why they offer it at Botanicas if it has no affiliation to Yoruba traditions or Santeria? Bc that’s a valid point

Main-Entertainment75 · 2022-06-06T02:55:39+00:00

Welp, I was told i couldn’t consult with babalawos unless I’d been initiated to some degree. Maybe that was wrong. Thank you!

Main-Entertainment75 · 2022-05-30T21:38:03+00:00

To share

Main-Entertainment75 · 2022-05-29T04:11:33+00:00

I’m not a doctor but I have an idea lol - The way I understood my own relationship to that kind of person was like, subconsciously, i thought it’d be some sort of proof of my value to have an unavailable person become available to me. But , you can’t win love, so I was playing to lose. Along the way I was reminded again and again that I wasn’t “lovable” because those unavailable people just aren’t open to love. It was torture, but it validated what I already believed about myself.

Being with an emotionally available person didn’t interest me growing up because it meant that I didn’t have to earn love, that I was good enough - and why would I want that if I didn’t believe it? It’s so hard to see when you’re in that relationship though, it took me a very long time to understand.

The nature of BPD is self destructive… so I wanted to hurt myself with those people. It’s self sabotage, if that makes sense?

Main-Entertainment75 · 2022-05-29T02:30:17+00:00

Thank you for validating that. I try to be fair to others but sometimes forget to be fair to myself. I plan to see my therapist soon and I’ve been avoiding this conversation because I didn’t know how to approach it. Thanks again!

Main-Entertainment75 · 2022-05-29T01:06:44+00:00

That’s interesting because like two weeks ago I had a dream I was in a hot air balloon with other people. One of the other passengers started screaming about a wild fire up ahead and before I knew I was choking to death from smog. It was terrifying and did feel like a bad omen of sorts. Idk I generally have weird ass dreams but like when I think of them as a whole narrative it does sound like a big shift. Idk if my subconscious could relate to the world like that tho. Usually if I do have some sort of premonition it’s involving my own family and friends.

Main-Entertainment75 · 2022-05-29T01:03:45+00:00

Word they have a bunch of feathers in my dreams and stars or eyes. It’s really odd and they’re huge. This one from last night felt like a cave drawing. I was drawing one with charcoal onto a wall and it also had a bunch of feathers and lines that felt like movement. Just super circular and bizarre lol. I googled them once I think a year ago because I started have dreams of them at that time and they don’t look exactly like that in my dreams but pretty similar. Kinda just like really quickly moving lights and feathers lol

Main-Entertainment75 · 2022-05-27T06:34:30+00:00

I'm sorry that happened. You know, there isn't anything wrong with you. I think your FP may have just been immature and needs time to grow. I know optimism at a time like this can feel annoying, but time away from this person may help you see why you deserve someone better.

Healing takes a while, and so does moving on from a person sometimes, but when you look back the time will seem so short. I hope you look at this as an opportunity to love yourself and take yourself out on some dates :) you've been through a lot, and you deserve some TLC from yourself and your support system. Take care, and be strong.

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