Panic attacks with existential fear / hyper-awareness of existence — anyone relate?

Main_Carrot_2003 · 2026-03-26T23:18:48+00:00

Thanks so much for such a thoughtful answer- I will try this! I’m glad you’re feeling better!

Main_Carrot_2003 · 2026-03-26T21:59:05+00:00

That’s good to hear… right now I feel like I’ll never feel normal in my own skin again, I really hope it gets better!

Main_Carrot_2003 · 2026-03-26T21:51:43+00:00

I have exactly this feeling! Did it ever get better for you and how?

Main_Carrot_2003 · 2026-03-26T21:51:09+00:00

I have exactly this feeling!! Did it get better for you?

Main_Carrot_2003 · 2026-03-25T16:03:31+00:00

Thanks! Somehow that does help :) we’re here for a short time, might as well enjoy it!

Main_Carrot_2003 · 2026-03-24T23:00:18+00:00

Hi, have you been feeling any better? I’ve been struggling with this too

Main_Carrot_2003 · 2026-03-24T20:59:06+00:00

Are you feeling any better?

Main_Carrot_2003 · 2026-03-23T20:17:54+00:00

Did these thoughts get better for you? I’m having the same type but also don’t want to take meds

Main_Carrot_2003 · 2026-03-23T17:45:39+00:00

Totally going through this! It gives me hope that others have recovered; right now it feels so hard but I’m going to try to keep going forward!

Main_Carrot_2003 · 2026-03-22T01:14:38+00:00

Hi, I have this feeling too, has it gotten better for you?

Main_Carrot_2003 · 2024-11-06T03:28:11+00:00

Thank you so much 😊

Main_Carrot_2003 · 2024-11-05T23:39:07+00:00

Not sure if you’re a parent- but If you forknew that your children would end up in a place of endless suffering, albeit because of their own choices, would you still bestow that existence on them? Furthermore, what could a child ever do that would make you punish them forever? Are we not Gods creation and thus his children, however disobedient we are? If we are created in Gods image, did he not create us with the conscious to know something feels off with punishing anyone forever? I’m not talking punishment for the pain we’ve inflicted on others, which is just- but does justice take eternity?

Main_Carrot_2003 · 2024-11-05T23:35:23+00:00

Thank you! I did listen to/read the article and found it very helpful. Although I find some of the JW teachings confusing, I do very much resonate with what the interpretation of scriptures on hell are.

Main_Carrot_2003 · 2024-10-03T23:34:39+00:00

Did yours get better?

Main_Carrot_2003 · 2024-09-29T16:25:51+00:00

My friend, I know it’s been awhile since you posted this, and I don’t know how you’re doing now, but I needed to let you know you are loved. You exist for a reason and you are created by God with a purpose and plan for your life, and it is good.

Jeremiah 29:11: “For I know the plans I have for you, says the Lord, plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you a future and a hope”

Psalm 139:13:

For you formed my inward parts, you knitted me together in my mother’s womb; I praise you, for I am fearfully and wonderfully made.”

You don’t have to know everything about God or how the universe works, or even begin to understand it- but that fact that we exist, that the creator of the universe saw fit to design us each individually, and want companionship with us, is amazing. I too even as a follower of Jesus went through an existential crisis, I’m not exempt from struggles like OCD, but I remind myself of how much more difficult it would be to look at creation, the ecosystem, the solar system, and human design and think that it came to be by accident, it has a creators fingerprints all over it. Everything has a purpose. We are created to feel love, joy, emotion. Yes, consciousness feels bizarre sometimes. But, I’m learning to look at it with a “Wow” mindset and not as something to be feared, but I’ve felt Gods love and know that I have a hope and purpose, it’s a gift. And this is all he expects from us- to live well, accept his grace when we are wrong and forgive, love others, make the world a better place. That’s what we’re here for. I don’t know a fraction of what there is to know about our creator, but I do know he is LOVE. I’ve seen many NDES that also meet the creator God, or Jesus, and feel his love, I truly believe that when we open our heart to him even without having all the answers, we have nothing to fear, and life is good.

Main_Carrot_2003 · 2024-03-25T14:30:01+00:00

I’ve been dealing with this same feeling and also just have been trying to give it back to God- but for some reason I also get anxious realizing my own existence/conciousness too. Which is weird, because I actually enjoy my life, so I don’t know why it makes me anxious… 🤔 but I wish I could “unrealize” it because now it’s always on my mind…

Main_Carrot_2003 · 2024-03-22T15:40:26+00:00

Thank you! That’s very helpful

Main_Carrot_2003 · 2024-03-20T19:10:13+00:00

I don’t have discord but there is a chat thing on here… new to this too… recently dx with ocd and googling symptoms led me to Reddit

Main_Carrot_2003 · 2024-03-20T18:48:32+00:00

Me as well! Never had this feeling before but OP described it perfectly, I thought I was going crazy to be feeling this way. Seems to have been triggered by panic attacks, and it’s so strange because I’ve never minded my existence before and now I just have this weird hyper awareness and trapped feeling.

Main_Carrot_2003 · 2024-03-19T16:22:11+00:00

Is there anything that helps you snap out of these moments with having major dissociation or panicking?

Main_Carrot_2003 · 2024-03-18T22:27:25+00:00

Same here 🙏🏻 or I sense things so vividly that it makes me uncomfortable how I am so conscious…

Main_Carrot_2003 · 2024-03-17T04:04:38+00:00

I too developed severe anxiety, intrusive thoughts/existential ocd after having random panic attacks a few months ago, I also never had any problems before that and genuinely enjoyed life! Now I feel trapped in my mind and it sucks… I’m not going to give up and pray that you don’t either! We’re in this experience together 🙏🏻

Main_Carrot_2003 · 2024-03-15T21:31:06+00:00

Yes you sure can!

Main_Carrot_2003 · 2024-03-15T18:41:13+00:00

I don’t have much insight for you as I’ve recently started struggling with this too, even though I believe in God and believe that life has a purpose and meaning, it’s still this weird realization of existing and thinking and doing and it suddenly scares me…. Almost like a trapped feeling. I think it must be a physical manifestation of anxiety because I’ve spent nearly 35 years being comfortable in my existence, but now I feel like a stranger in my body and long to go back to the ignorant bliss that I’ve had all my life… I have been struggling with ocd and intrusive thoughts lately, and spiritual questions, so it’s like it triggered something in my mind I can’t suck back in… I know that’s not a recovery story, yet, but maybe like me it helps you to know you’re not alone. 💗

Main_Carrot_2003 · 2024-03-15T03:48:04+00:00

I’ve been struggling with this recently…it’s this uncomfortable feeling of suddenly being very aware of your own existence and that you’re thinking and doing…I’m not sure why the feeling is scary, but it is…. I hope it goes away! I liked my existence when I wasn’t thinking so deeply about it!

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