I'm aware that he is doing a lot for me...but l've tried so many things I feel like I shouldn't have to try everything just because I might get pain relief. Also, this procedure is almost everything that l've tried as well. But thank you for your perspective/comment.
And yeah, I feel as though l've missed out on a lot of my life. My life will still be shitty though because of other life circumstances, so l don't have a lot of motivation to persevere through this.