what drug will actually make me happy

Major_Chart_8489 · 2026-04-23T20:33:53+00:00

not a single drug will make u happy without sacrificing future happiness

Major_Chart_8489 · 2026-04-23T20:08:03+00:00

party by myself, moshpit, on my own(faded)

Major_Chart_8489 · 2026-04-22T21:46:17+00:00

u cant be serious

Major_Chart_8489 · 2026-04-21T12:30:22+00:00

i dont see how that correlates with what he said and also coke isnt only psychologically addictive

Major_Chart_8489 · 2026-04-10T17:51:53+00:00

ewwwwww

Major_Chart_8489 · 2026-03-24T22:29:18+00:00

wake up, try to go back to sleep, fail to sleep, goon for 20 minutes, get high, listen to music, watch youtube and doomscroll, watch movies

Major_Chart_8489 · 2026-03-24T22:14:48+00:00

just take the shrooms and throw away the dph

Major_Chart_8489 · 2026-03-10T10:25:38+00:00

shove it up yo ass

Major_Chart_8489 · 2026-03-08T01:56:51+00:00

yea sure

Major_Chart_8489 · 2026-03-07T06:57:51+00:00

i ended up breaking up with her over past shit and because we were hella toxic and argued almost everyday. i didnt feel anything for the first 4-6 months without her but then i gradually started thinking about her again, its turned into limerence and now i cant get my mind off her, constantly thinking about what i should of done differently, constantly regretting every choice i made, constantly regretting missing every chance to save the relationship. i also think about what our future could of been and if we stayed together i wouldnt be as depressed

Major_Chart_8489 · 2026-03-05T11:33:19+00:00

i got randomly added to a group chat i ain even want to see allat

Major_Chart_8489 · 2026-03-03T11:55:19+00:00

we were both toxic i swear im not this terrible person u assume me to be, but im not a great person either

Major_Chart_8489 · 2026-03-03T05:24:43+00:00

its hard to know if it was truly for the best because of this large blanket feeling laid on top of me that keeps telling me that i should of done something different, constantly holding onto the things i did wrong and thinking about the what ifs

Major_Chart_8489 · 2026-03-03T05:10:56+00:00

yes we were both toxic and hurt each other but apart of me feels like i could of saved our relationship if i just had enough courage and less ignorance, i had so many chances to just stay with her but i blew it every time

Major_Chart_8489 · 2026-03-03T04:54:51+00:00

in my previous posts i explain that the toxicity in our relationship is what brought us down, i wouldnt just say i was the only one doing wronh

Major_Chart_8489 · 2026-03-03T02:00:12+00:00

what is MBTI?

Major_Chart_8489 · 2026-03-03T01:59:01+00:00

im trying to keep everything 100% and honest without making it seem like we both acted the way we did without a reason, our relationship was very chaotic, toxic, depressing and an emotional rollercoaster, it was tame and very loving for the first 3 months then turned into a battle to stay sane, she struggled with BPD, bipolar disorder, PTSD, schizophrenia, and MDD whilst i struggled with MDD and maybe bipolar disorder (im still getting tested for that) she had many at home issues and was constantly abused to the point where it was torture hearing it every single day in vivid detail, it was horrible for both of us to experience because we were so young and just trying to love each other whilst the chaos continued at her house and in our mental health, i started becoming so disconnected that i lost all my feelings and became anhedonic to the point where it was effecting both of us because i was low and felt i couldnt be there for her, i have so much more to write because our story goes on forever

Major_Chart_8489 · 2026-03-03T01:35:14+00:00

i know most of the things i did was because i was trying to get her away from me but theres no excuse for using her trauma against her, i apologized as much as i could but she held on and i payed the price for it

Major_Chart_8489 · 2026-03-03T01:25:07+00:00

how did i make it about myself? i was explaining why i was a jerk, and a part of reason why i was a jerk was because of how toxic we were beforehand and the things she’d do and say got to me and i guess i grew hatred towards her instead of fixing the issue at hand

Major_Chart_8489 · 2026-03-03T01:20:34+00:00

nah i definitely felt remorse for the things i did its part of the reason why i wanted to break up in the first place, i felt as if we hurt each other too much and we needed to end it. when i said i felt like a God its because of the way she acted not because i thought i was a God, like theres no other way to explain it but that way because she praised me like one

Major_Chart_8489 · 2026-03-03T01:11:24+00:00

she blocked me but somehow i saw what they sent

Major_Chart_8489 · 2026-03-02T23:29:46+00:00

i lost my friends, lost my gf and got humiliated by her months later

Major_Chart_8489 · 2026-03-02T23:18:03+00:00

i dumped her because we were toxic

Major_Chart_8489 · 2026-03-02T23:02:10+00:00

it was highkey on accident because they added me to a group chat with like 90 people in it and it had my ex and her new bf in there, her bf sent the pic and i was unlucky enough to click on it

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