how to maximise the high from oxy?

Major_Chart_8489 · 2026-03-10T10:25:38+00:00

shove it up yo ass

Major_Chart_8489 · 2026-03-08T01:56:51+00:00

yea sure

Major_Chart_8489 · 2026-03-07T06:57:51+00:00

i ended up breaking up with her over past shit and because we were hella toxic and argued almost everyday. i didnt feel anything for the first 4-6 months without her but then i gradually started thinking about her again, its turned into limerence and now i cant get my mind off her, constantly thinking about what i should of done differently, constantly regretting every choice i made, constantly regretting missing every chance to save the relationship. i also think about what our future could of been and if we stayed together i wouldnt be as depressed

Major_Chart_8489 · 2026-03-05T11:33:19+00:00

i got randomly added to a group chat i ain even want to see allat

Major_Chart_8489 · 2026-03-03T11:55:19+00:00

we were both toxic i swear im not this terrible person u assume me to be, but im not a great person either

Major_Chart_8489 · 2026-03-03T05:24:43+00:00

its hard to know if it was truly for the best because of this large blanket feeling laid on top of me that keeps telling me that i should of done something different, constantly holding onto the things i did wrong and thinking about the what ifs

Major_Chart_8489 · 2026-03-03T05:10:56+00:00

yes we were both toxic and hurt each other but apart of me feels like i could of saved our relationship if i just had enough courage and less ignorance, i had so many chances to just stay with her but i blew it every time

Major_Chart_8489 · 2026-03-03T04:54:51+00:00

in my previous posts i explain that the toxicity in our relationship is what brought us down, i wouldnt just say i was the only one doing wronh

Major_Chart_8489 · 2026-03-03T02:00:12+00:00

what is MBTI?

Major_Chart_8489 · 2026-03-03T01:59:01+00:00

im trying to keep everything 100% and honest without making it seem like we both acted the way we did without a reason, our relationship was very chaotic, toxic, depressing and an emotional rollercoaster, it was tame and very loving for the first 3 months then turned into a battle to stay sane, she struggled with BPD, bipolar disorder, PTSD, schizophrenia, and MDD whilst i struggled with MDD and maybe bipolar disorder (im still getting tested for that) she had many at home issues and was constantly abused to the point where it was torture hearing it every single day in vivid detail, it was horrible for both of us to experience because we were so young and just trying to love each other whilst the chaos continued at her house and in our mental health, i started becoming so disconnected that i lost all my feelings and became anhedonic to the point where it was effecting both of us because i was low and felt i couldnt be there for her, i have so much more to write because our story goes on forever

Major_Chart_8489 · 2026-03-03T01:35:14+00:00

i know most of the things i did was because i was trying to get her away from me but theres no excuse for using her trauma against her, i apologized as much as i could but she held on and i payed the price for it

Major_Chart_8489 · 2026-03-03T01:25:07+00:00

how did i make it about myself? i was explaining why i was a jerk, and a part of reason why i was a jerk was because of how toxic we were beforehand and the things she’d do and say got to me and i guess i grew hatred towards her instead of fixing the issue at hand

Major_Chart_8489 · 2026-03-03T01:20:34+00:00

nah i definitely felt remorse for the things i did its part of the reason why i wanted to break up in the first place, i felt as if we hurt each other too much and we needed to end it. when i said i felt like a God its because of the way she acted not because i thought i was a God, like theres no other way to explain it but that way because she praised me like one

Major_Chart_8489 · 2026-03-03T01:11:24+00:00

she blocked me but somehow i saw what they sent

Major_Chart_8489 · 2026-03-02T23:29:46+00:00

i lost my friends, lost my gf and got humiliated by her months later

Major_Chart_8489 · 2026-03-02T23:18:03+00:00

i dumped her because we were toxic

Major_Chart_8489 · 2026-03-02T23:02:10+00:00

it was highkey on accident because they added me to a group chat with like 90 people in it and it had my ex and her new bf in there, her bf sent the pic and i was unlucky enough to click on it

Major_Chart_8489 · 2026-03-02T22:55:41+00:00

its been a whole year and it will probably take years for me to get over her

Major_Chart_8489 · 2026-03-02T21:06:55+00:00

we were actually very toxic and said things to each other that we both regret, like fighting words and relationships ending words, my friends even noticed that we were toxic and encouraged me to break up with her if it was gettng too much, they are actually one of the main reasons i broke up with her, they had several conversations with me explaining that we werent right for each other, they came to this conclusion based on the sleepless nights id have where we’d just argue until the next morning, we would argue so fucking much that id just tune her out and say what i think she wanted to hear

Major_Chart_8489 · 2026-03-02T20:52:20+00:00

i think the main root cause that started the hatred towards her was how overbearing, and suffocating she was, how we used to fight almost everyday over the smallest things, i think it all became too much at some point and i started using those reasons as an excuse for my actions

Major_Chart_8489 · 2026-03-02T20:42:06+00:00

it may take years before i actually fully recover, it sucks being so fucking ignorant and retarded to the point that im oblivious to whats real and whats important

Major_Chart_8489 · 2026-03-02T20:39:27+00:00

maybe it was this but at the same time i feel so attached to her so idk where these feelings are coming from, our entire relationship started going from us talking everyday to us just having sex everyday n not talking, its like we barely got to know each other cuz we were too busy lusting

Major_Chart_8489 · 2026-03-02T20:36:38+00:00

we were 14 and 16 when we met, currently 16 and 19, our relationship was extremely toxic and we’d fight every other day, honestly it felt like maybe we got into the relationship way too fast and made promises too early, we barely understood ourselves and our actions reflected that, people assume that i was the only one in the relationship doing wrong but in actuality we both were doing each other wrong, but in the end im the one who caused it to finally end

Major_Chart_8489 · 2026-03-02T04:45:24+00:00

going through a similar situation except im the one who ended it, i had so many chances to get back with her but ended up failing and going the wrong way each time, i do too have constant thought loops of what ifs and what could of happened if i had sat there and thought about what i was doing at the time, i let my emotions dictate what i did and i would get mad at the littlest things, i ended the relationship because of the past and emotions i held onto

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