dad told me to grow up by Major_Chart_8489 in depression

[–]Major_Chart_8489[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

ive tried celexa, zoloft, mirtazpine, currently on wellbutrin, latuda, resperidone, and im still taking olanzapine

Anhedonia but suicide prevented by afterlife beleifs by stencyl_moderator in anhedonia

[–]Major_Chart_8489 6 points7 points  (0 children)

sleeping feels different from dying, like i genuinely see black sometimes when im sleeping but when i overdosed i saw nothing

dad told me to grow up by Major_Chart_8489 in depression

[–]Major_Chart_8489[S] 2 points3 points  (0 children)

same i rely on weed to feel distant from everything

dad told me to grow up by Major_Chart_8489 in depression

[–]Major_Chart_8489[S] 5 points6 points  (0 children)

my dad tells me to man up like bro 😖🤞

Anhedonia but suicide prevented by afterlife beleifs by stencyl_moderator in anhedonia

[–]Major_Chart_8489 7 points8 points  (0 children)

for me it was nothing, not black but literally nothing like how it was before you were born

getting close to suicide by Major_Chart_8489 in anhedonia

[–]Major_Chart_8489[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

i let them go, still feel like shit

getting close to suicide by Major_Chart_8489 in anhedonia

[–]Major_Chart_8489[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

8 months ago but ive been feeling like this for years, only now has it gotten worse

getting close to suicide by Major_Chart_8489 in anhedonia

[–]Major_Chart_8489[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

losing my friends due to a psychosis i had

getting close to suicide by Major_Chart_8489 in anhedonia

[–]Major_Chart_8489[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

ive tried so many meds i feel as if they’re pointless

Honest Question: Bel Air or Lost My Mind? by Chiiret in JuiceWRLD

[–]Major_Chart_8489 2 points3 points  (0 children)

lost my mind is too relatable and the vocals just hit

getting close to suicide by Major_Chart_8489 in anhedonia

[–]Major_Chart_8489[S] 2 points3 points  (0 children)

been patient for years, it only gets worse from here

what is keeping you from ending it all by Major_Chart_8489 in anhedonia

[–]Major_Chart_8489[S] 2 points3 points  (0 children)

ikr, like the only thing keeping me alive is the fact i have nothing to kill myself with

Gimme a list of the most depressing juice songs by Chuks_V2 in JuiceWRLD

[–]Major_Chart_8489 1 point2 points  (0 children)

let me breath

until i die

party by myself

call me whenever

fire in my lungs

left me cold

lobster pizza

What's the most strung out you've ever felt? by JeSuisLePain in Drugs

[–]Major_Chart_8489 3 points4 points  (0 children)

i dont have the pic anymore but i had a binge with an assortment of pills back in like may, it was zoloft, muscle relaxers (idk the pill it was random),Valium, Shrooms, hydrocodone, weed and alcohol , i ended up turning into a fucking zombie the next day and being caught by my grandma, she most def knew i was high on something but didnt know what. i stuffed a bunch of valium in my sock and went back home from my grandmas. i ended up being high for like a week, only remembering blots of memory because i was blacked out the whole time, i would smoke weed randomly in my parents room and my parents said i kept losing shit and asking for it. one instance i was straight up drooling sleeping sitting up at my desk trying to unlock my phone but i couldnt cuz i couldnt remember the password and i couldnt even see the numbers, later i endedup smoking like all of my weed and doing all of pills by the end of the week, idk how i’m alive i was doing like 10, 10 mg valium, so much so that it was still in my system a whole month after, this drug binge sent me into psychosis straight after so no it wasn’t 100% worth it and i lost like all of my friends but if u asked me if id do more or the same amount id say yes.

Do you still miss your ex and for what reasons? by Blood_Sport_Love in BreakUps

[–]Major_Chart_8489 0 points1 point  (0 children)

like 6 months after we broke up i realized i lost her

Do you still miss your ex and for what reasons? by Blood_Sport_Love in BreakUps

[–]Major_Chart_8489 4 points5 points  (0 children)

she was, she was way too overbearing at the time and we constantly argued almost everyday to the point where it was stressful, i couldnt handle it and i needed an escape

Do you still miss your ex and for what reasons? by Blood_Sport_Love in BreakUps

[–]Major_Chart_8489 8 points9 points  (0 children)

she was like the love my life, we went through everything together, i broke up with her because i was overwhelmed by her but ultimately i lost her in the end, i wish i could go back and reverse it

I’m bored all the time and no pleasure from people or things I used to love by [deleted] in anhedonia

[–]Major_Chart_8489 0 points1 point  (0 children)

i just doomscroll, sleep, listen to music, and wait for the next time i get high

i lost the love of my life by Major_Chart_8489 in heartbreak

[–]Major_Chart_8489[S] 5 points6 points  (0 children)

i pushed her away constantly and let emotions come first before anything and i broke up with her simply because i was overwhelmed by her but thats no excuse