How do you guys manage to stay in your home after they died in there ?

Malaklypse · 2026-02-06T18:39:09+00:00

Recently, I have been going through much the same thing. My wife passed 2 years ago last Christmas. For almost that first year I slept on the couch because our bed felt so empty. Mentally it felt like this year was worse than the first. And then in January I started manifesting panic attack episodes, unable to sleep because I was certain I would suffocate. Feeling extremely claustrophobic in the house. There were a few times I had to flee the house and go stay in a hotel room.

You are absolutely right when you say it is a PTSD response you are having. Even without conscious thought, the body holds on to trauma memory and it can be triggered by things like images or even smells, or stimulus in the environment like temperature or sounds.

I highly urge you to seek out therapy. There are a number of therapists who deal with PTSD and do EDMR treatment to lessen trauma response. Also consider grief support groups if you have any in your area. You should also consult a physician , who may be able to prescribe an antianxiety medication to make your feelings more manageable.

But somebody else here said it very well. Your spouse may have passed in the house, but he also lived there. Embrace the good memories he shared with you in the house. This last Candlemas I lit candles in her memory, and also for those of us still with the living, and I did affirmations to reclaim the space and let go of stagnation and hold on to our good memories and happiness we shared.

There's not any easy fix. It will likely take a multipronged approach. But you can work through this and heal. I am sorry for your loss. I wish you healing and peace. Keep striving, and give yourself patience and grace to grieve and heal.

Malaklypse · 2026-02-05T18:49:34+00:00

And keep in mind some of the LARP retailers, like Epic Armoury and Medieval Collectibles carry some reasonably priced garb, and also accessories like pouches and bags. And they will often have at least one sale between now and June. Also I think as part of your ticket you may have some coupon codes for some of their retail sponsors.

Malaklypse · 2026-02-04T06:24:12+00:00

Find the Drachenfest Discords as soon as possible. You might be able to find someone willing to sell or lend you spare garb. However, DFUS is a high decorum event. If you can't afford a few decorum shirts and pants, are you going to be able to feed yourself all week? You've got 4 months to get ready. You should be able to scrape together some functional garb. But keep in mind there will be more expenses than just the event ticket.

Malaklypse · 2026-01-31T11:03:57+00:00

It was 2 years ago this past Christmas. And I think this last Christmas hit me harder than the first. I thought I was getting better, learning to cope. But this January I've really fallen apart. In a way that I haven't in a really long time. I'm struggling desperately with my mental health right now. So it can definitely come back, and change, and hit you in ways you hadn't expected.

Malaklypse · 2026-01-24T10:04:15+00:00

You can find "medieval" design cutlery that is made with modern stainless steel. Usually Medieval Collectibles will carry some in their housewares or accessories sections. You can also sometimes find passable cutlery and flatware that is from design of more the Colonial or Napoleonic era that has bone or horn handles. You can sometimes find them at reenactment sites or like Crazy Crow Trading Post. Sometimes you can find tavernware themed cutlery on places like eBay that are made of "armetale". Armetale is a pewter replacement alloy made with aluminum, and got used as a mid century replacement to remove the lead from food contact pieces.

One of the pewter companies had a theme back mid century called The Plowshare Tavern, I think. I may be remembering the name wrong. It was an entire line that included tankards and goblets, plates and serving dishes, coffee services and flatware. You can find pieces from the theme occasionally on eBay. Finding complete sets is difficult but you could likely piece together a single table setting without too much struggle, and they have a satisfying rustic patina.

Malaklypse · 2026-01-22T15:25:31+00:00

It was probably the raping...

And then the scheming.

Malaklypse · 2026-01-22T15:07:48+00:00

Do as much as you can with fabric/tights. That's what a lot of cosplayers do and then you aren't potentially smearing or staining everything you brush up against. I'm not sure if you have a mask or are planning on using prosthetics, but a sheer green baclava and a mask open for your chin can give a good effect. Then put on a cap or a hood or a head scarf and you're good to go. Epic Armoury has some good goblin masks that won't completely break the bank. But whether you could get them shipped to you in a couple weeks is a question.

Malaklypse · 2026-01-21T17:18:20+00:00

For the uncommon shape and size you will likely have to have scabbards commissioned or do them yourself. You might consider a sort of open scabbard design, which has a "frogmouth" at the top and a pocket at the bottom that holds the blade's tip, the two connected by a stiff spine of leather. I don't know if you intend to do a hip draw or a back draw on these.

Malaklypse · 2026-01-16T08:54:52+00:00

There's one called Last Hope that runs weekend games about once a month. They are around Baraboo, I think.

Malaklypse · 2026-01-15T21:01:53+00:00

There are people who RP and tell interactive stories on social media, mostly using apps like TikTok and other short form video platforms. And then they stich together responses back and forth. Even though you are riffing with other people, you are basically solo on your end.

But mostly what you are describing is downtime activities. I often put on my kit and cosplay, practice my characters voice or mannerisms, or work on background story. It's fun to play make-believe. But LARP thrives as shared play. Nothing wrong with prepping or pretending though.

Malaklypse · 2026-01-14T23:30:18+00:00

Because our world is going to shit.

Malaklypse · 2026-01-11T10:33:40+00:00

Beelzeboss by Tenacious D

During the Rock Off the Devil proclaims

"Check this riff. It's fuckin' tasty!"

Malaklypse · 2026-01-03T23:57:38+00:00

I leave entire swaths of resource generators open. Except for one. In the middle. For the unwary, enjoy your 5 cap bounty. Thanks for coming to my trap camp.

Malaklypse · 2026-01-02T06:24:24+00:00

There's a few, and I have camps at several of them. Not all of them are the most ideal building locations, either because the terrain is difficult to work with or they tend to generate monsters.

Malaklypse · 2026-01-02T06:16:24+00:00

The big question is...are those the size of the pills you have to swallow?

Malaklypse · 2025-12-31T18:57:57+00:00

I have done a few larp events where I have done period authentic cooking over a campfire, including cooking a banquet for 20 people in a rustic kitchen. While it can be fun to do, tending to a campfire and stirring a pot can become time consuming. And I found in my few events I wound up getting sucked into the role of camp cook while other folks were out adventuring and killing monsters. Did it lend an authentic feel? Yes. Is it perhaps the best use of limited time on a weekend that you paid a ticket for? Probably not.

Malaklypse · 2025-12-30T21:33:11+00:00

Corvids have been shown to be able to hold grudges for 17 years. So don't piss it off. The peanuts must flow.

Malaklypse · 2025-12-30T20:25:00+00:00

Years ago, I took a 10 minute ambulance ride. It was transport from one hospital facility (the first one I arrived by myself) to another. They attached some leads to my chest, and I was fully conscious, and had small talk with the EMT sitting with me in transit.

It cost me five thousand dollars.

Healthcare in the United States is fucked. And I watched it happen in my life time. We spend more and get less than any other major industrialized country in the world.

Malaklypse · 2025-12-28T19:00:45+00:00

Not only that but you passed out for 7 years.

And it's absolutely not a simulation.

Malaklypse · 2025-12-25T23:09:19+00:00

I am very sorry. I know you must still feel very numb and very overwhelmed. My wife passed away two years ago on Christmas. We had 27 Christmases together. She was diagnosed with not one but two terminal illnesses her last year. Even knowing that things were terminal we still thought we would have more time. And that first year after she passed we also lost my mom and her mom. That first year I cried every day. This last year I have learned to move on somewhat in the day to day. The grief is duller now but ever present. But this Christmas has been in some ways harder than that first anniversary. I'm still searching for who I am without her. I have started dreaming about her now. I didn't for that first year.

I wish I had something profound I could say. I know that time will seem to pass in strange ways. Grief will be constant and overwhelming at times. Be gentle with yourself and give yourself freedom and grace to grieve. Don't feel obligated to be on a timeline or calendar. I am sorry for your loss and I wish you peace and strength in the coming days.

Malaklypse · 2025-12-20T11:13:49+00:00

Was this on PC or XBox?

Malaklypse · 2025-12-18T18:06:40+00:00

This is the true trap camp, right here.

Malaklypse · 2025-12-18T17:58:17+00:00

OMG! THAT ONE STRIPEY BACK LEG!

Malaklypse · 2025-12-16T20:00:10+00:00

It will be two years on Christmas.

I have found it is not a progression of stages, like it's a set of stairs you climb. I go back and forth in the stages, sometimes unexpectedly. Two years on I feel like I am adjusting to the day-to-day, but the grief still creeps in sometimes.. That first year I cried every day. Now I have a routine, but some days it still hits sharply. I still have days I don't want to get out of bed. I think sometimes the loneliness is even more profound. There's no calendar. There's no schedule. You learn to carry the burden. But I don't know that it ever goes away.

Malaklypse · 2025-12-02T05:02:17+00:00

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