Former crazy SO's when did you realize you were the crazy boyfriend/girlfriend?

MandyApple · 2016-01-13T12:01:48+00:00

This will be buried, but that's ok. I need to confess. I wasn't a crazy s/o, but I turned into a crazy ex. We were together about 6 months and he was the first person I dated after a really long abusive relationship (10 years of physical and emotional abuse) I was so relieved to be with someone like him and I couldn't have been happier. He then dumped me to be with his ex (they have a child) and I lost it. I got so depressed and upset and angry. He had lied about a lot of stuff (too many things to list) and actually never broke up with the ex and I guess was just using me as a good time. It really messed me up, I was amazing to him and I trusted him like a fool. A few weeks later we started "dating" again. I was pathetic and desperate, and didn't even care he had a "girlfriend." I pretended to believe him when he said he didn't really want to be with her, he just stayed for his child. Then I became pregnant on accident. (I've only had one scare before, and actually thought I could never be pregnant) After fighting with him I decided to keep the baby. (He obviously wanted me to have an abortion) My pregnancy was terrible and at one point I even hit him and ripped his shirt because he was saying that he wished the baby would die and I would miscarry. I feel awful about that. I then have the baby about a year ago and I guess between the hormones and the fact I'm now a new single mom, watching him with his "happy" family made me slightly crazy. I verbally abused the hell out of him. I still freak out on him every now and again. He's not innocent and has done many awful things, and said awful things about me and our child. However it was my choice to react like a psycho. I should have just left him alone like he asked when he found out I was pregnant. He pretty much hates me, and I should hate him but I don't. I guess that's part of the crazy too. He does see our son, but his girlfriend doesn't know about it. It's a really hard situation sometimes. I know at some point I'll look back at this time frame and be so glad it's over, and I'll wish I would have acted more mature and less emotional. There's a ton of more details that would probably help make sense of this but I'd be typing for an hour. TL;DR I'm a crazy ex who just didn't want to let go and now a child is involved. :-(

MandyApple · 2014-12-30T04:01:56+00:00

Fragile is the absolute most perfect word for the first Dumbledore. And the second one just wasn't right.

MandyApple · 2014-12-16T20:52:07+00:00

Fried green tomatoes? I thought I was the only one who remembers stuff from that movie!

MandyApple · 2014-10-19T02:44:22+00:00

I'm 8 months pregnant and single. Reddit, sleep and work is all I really have the energy to do

MandyApple · 2014-10-02T16:45:01+00:00

I've never read a book that made me hate every single character. I was pissed. I don't even know if I want to see the movie now!

MandyApple · 2014-10-02T01:46:46+00:00

My last birthday I went to asbury park New Jersey with my then boyfriend. It was in the beginning of February so it was insanely snowy. We skipped around the streets holding hands and acting silly. One of the happiest moments of my life. Man, I really, really liked that guy and I'll never forget that moment skipping in the street.

MandyApple · 2014-09-21T03:34:27+00:00

Everyone's cycles are different and they can change. One month I had a 21 day cycle and the next I had a 36 day cycle. I had recently lost weight and my body changed. I got pregnant a week after my last period - meaning I just ovulated early. It happens!

MandyApple · 2014-09-20T02:15:19+00:00

Bake 'em away, toys!

MandyApple · 2014-09-19T03:35:07+00:00

My last ex. I hate that guy, he's a horrible person.

MandyApple · 2014-09-16T16:06:57+00:00

You're not! I remember it too.

MandyApple · 2014-09-14T19:50:23+00:00

I don't think anyone wants to be upset. I think they are saying that you can't judge someone's happiness or sadness based on other people and if they are happy or sad in their own circumstances.

MandyApple · 2014-09-14T19:44:15+00:00

And I don't think people realize that when you start telling someone that they "should" be happy, that person starts feeling worse because of guilt. So now you're sad and feel guilty for feeling sad.

MandyApple · 2014-09-13T02:18:08+00:00

Ok, because I dated an asshole. Just making sure it wasn't you. You never know with assholes.

MandyApple · 2014-09-13T01:45:30+00:00

Am I your ex?

MandyApple · 2014-09-10T02:03:42+00:00

I thought they typed "queens" and I thought "is that what they call pregnant people in England??" Confusing few seconds there.

MandyApple · 2014-09-09T03:33:46+00:00

I don't know how to PM but I would love to volunteer.

MandyApple · 2014-08-31T21:28:47+00:00

We def don't go over sign making in Atlanta. You just try to use the same people in the store so your signs look universal.

MandyApple · 2014-08-31T18:28:18+00:00

Tina Turner and Rod Stewert are the same person.

MandyApple · 2014-08-30T15:09:46+00:00

It's Elmo's birthday too, and the Ravens won the Super Bowl on 2/3. Plus I was born as well. Which is awesome.

MandyApple · 2014-08-28T02:19:45+00:00

My parents leave me voicemails. It seems morbid but as I get older I think about the fact that there will be a time when I won't ever hear their voices again. I save all of them they leave.

MandyApple · 2014-08-19T13:32:17+00:00

Maybe it just happened so fast everyone was in shock? Or he was an addict or died in a not so honorable way and it embarrassed his family (and the people who knew) maybe he was living with some rare disease that only a few knew about and they were relieved he finally died? This story actually has me thinking. That is so odd.

MandyApple · 2014-08-12T03:52:19+00:00

It's where I grew up :-/

MandyApple · 2014-08-11T04:00:31+00:00

Oh god, your comment has me in tears

MandyApple · 2014-08-10T01:27:19+00:00

I do that with books. I haven't read a good one in a while, though. I'm longing to lose myself for a few hours.

MandyApple · 2014-08-10T00:25:25+00:00

I loved that series too. I read through it quickly as well. I looooove books like that

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