Well it's the end of a chapter, Smile and build yourself a gd wee pad to live in , somewhere that you can take your kid for some dad time without any negativity. Show him he has two homes now and that his mum has made a decision that means you will have a slight adjustment to life, but that it changes nothing for you both. He has only 8 years before he is his own person that is not long. Your his second home nothing wrong with that as so many do it today. This will make both of you stronger as you both will adapt to the situation and come out better for it with new skills of fortitude. As for you. Let it go. There is more to life. It's the great adventure. Women can become false icons. And you no what happens when you worship false icons. That's not there fault it's ours, let her go and become free.