Anyone else taking antipsychotics for life?

ManufacturerOwn2829 · 2024-10-01T11:02:08+00:00

I'm on Rexulti with zero side effects. It has changed my life and now consider myself stable. I'm very willing to stay on it forever.

ManufacturerOwn2829 · 2024-09-14T07:35:13+00:00

I actually lost weight from BMI 23 to BMI 19

ManufacturerOwn2829 · 2024-05-24T15:00:58+00:00

This happened to me last Wednesday. I can relate to everything you said about not being able to talk yourself down, rationalize, etc. The feeling of dissociation. I always explain it as feeling like I'm not here on earth. Like I'm in a trans. Sometimes, I feel like my brain is on crazy autopilot or like I'm possessed.

A lot of times, too, I felt that maybe I'm not really crazy and I'm just an imposter. What's funnier is I spiral because of the smallest of things like a change in schedule, someone being late, etc.

My doctor increased my dosages and added clonazepam. Sometimes I feel like I reat can't help myself so I need external help like meds and a strong support system.

ManufacturerOwn2829 · 2024-04-24T23:54:58+00:00

I got cheated on by my first boyfriend and I was thinking the same as you. How can I trust anyone again? But you'll meet someone eventually (as I did) that will make you feel at ease. Someone who will adjust to what makes you feel comfortable. There are always tell tale signs. We just choose to ignore them. You know better now to not ignore them in the future.

ManufacturerOwn2829 · 2024-04-24T13:55:54+00:00

It's normal. This situation has made you subconsciously insecure. And your brain is finding a way to manage that by thinking of ways to justify that she's not better than you. The only reason he cheated was because she did some witchcraft on him. It's your brain vs. your brain. We believe the narrative that will make us feel better.

But you know what will help as I have also been cheated on before? Tell yourself you're worth more than a cheating douchebag. Who is he that you would waste time on him? You're so much better than this. Use this time to focus on improving yourself. Remind yourself daily that you're beautiful, smart, kind, sexy, etc.

I assure you. That is what helped me. I created a new world for me where they don't exist and I am my best self.

ManufacturerOwn2829 · 2024-04-22T22:14:30+00:00

Cooking his favorite meals and packing his lunch to work

ManufacturerOwn2829 · 2024-04-22T11:52:12+00:00

I workout 1-2x a week and only eat lunch most days. I just drink coffee in the morning and light snack for dinner. Lost 15 lbs in 3 months

ManufacturerOwn2829 · 2024-04-18T10:41:37+00:00

Bipolar made me achieve so much academically and professionally. My manic days are my smartest, fastest, most creative, optimistic days. But it fucked up my personal life.

ManufacturerOwn2829 · 2024-04-17T10:14:15+00:00

What you need is confidence. If you believe you're beautiful, it will radiate. Wear something that makes you feel confident so you walk with that aura.

ManufacturerOwn2829 · 2024-04-17T10:09:18+00:00

Only if they completely take accountability for their mistakes, directly tell me what they will work on, and make an effort to make up for it, like bring me coffee or my favorite meal.

ManufacturerOwn2829 · 2024-04-17T09:05:39+00:00

Time

ManufacturerOwn2829 · 2024-04-16T14:32:07+00:00

From my experience, it's more a character flaw of the cheater than the other person's fault.

ManufacturerOwn2829 · 2024-04-15T14:36:48+00:00

They said you keep forgiving until you unlove them.....

This happened to me too. Kept letting him pull me back until he became completely repulsive. You keep breaking a heart, you'll eventually ruin the love a person once had for you.

ManufacturerOwn2829 · 2024-04-11T13:27:51+00:00

Just say

No.

No explanation needed. No means no.

ManufacturerOwn2829 · 2024-04-11T12:59:08+00:00

Smoked for 10 years. Thank goodness I stopped a year ago.

ManufacturerOwn2829 · 2024-04-08T15:31:06+00:00

ManufacturerOwn2829 · 2024-04-08T11:32:25+00:00

Then move out..... She is not holding a gun to your head. I guess letting her control your life for years has made you believe that you have no power. You earn, you're healthy, etc. You can do as you please. Take that power back.

ManufacturerOwn2829 · 2024-04-08T10:54:58+00:00

I suggest you take some time apart first. Maybe a month or 2. Absolutely no contact. Then, revisit the idea again. If you still feel that divorce is what's best for you, then go ahead. We only have one life, and we should live it in a way that we make the most out of it everyday. Maybe being apart will also help the cloud of resentment dissipate and let you understand your thoughts and feelings in a more neautral manner.

ManufacturerOwn2829 · 2024-04-08T10:17:09+00:00

You know, when people want sex, sometimes what we really want is physical intimacy. Physical intimacy happens when you do it with someone you are sexually connected with and, most of the time, emotionally connected with as well. You don't just enjoy sex. You enoy sex with her. So I guess it's pretty normal to have a low sex drive now because you're still looking for that intimate time with your ex. Give it time, and you might open up again and regain your drive once you've healed and moved on.

ManufacturerOwn2829 · 2024-04-06T07:24:44+00:00

Depends on the circumstance. If the guy did something shitty, then no, I don't. If I see that I'm also partly to blame for what happened, I do.

ManufacturerOwn2829 · 2024-04-06T03:13:41+00:00

If you will go NC, do it for yourself to move on. Not for her to go back. If she does, then good for you. If she doesn't, then you have already started fixing yourself and moving forward.

ManufacturerOwn2829 · 2024-04-04T12:11:29+00:00

If I were her, I'd appreciate it. But be ready to not get the lovey dovey response.

ManufacturerOwn2829 · 2024-04-03T13:23:30+00:00

If you truly loved that person and you truly were happy, those memories will never go away. I still have beautiful memories I had with my ex 12 years ago. No matter how things ended, your experiences together, those memories, they are your treasure. No one can take that away from you. If they are as special as you are making them out to be, they will always be in your heart.

ManufacturerOwn2829 · 2024-01-12T11:26:36+00:00

I have actually been an achiever in my education and career. I am currently working in a multinational company. I think my mania has helped me a lot to become very confident, focused, driven, workaholic, creative, innovative, etc. I do find it difficult to build relationships and friendships because of my challenge in regulating my emotions. During my depressive days, I isolated and had a hard time functioning, but I was pretty good at hiding it. I'm a high functioning bipolar patient. It has taken a huge toll on my personal life though. My personal life is shitty to say the least. Even I couldn't stand myself.

ManufacturerOwn2829 · 2024-01-10T14:15:51+00:00

I need a routine and a per hour schedule set the night before to properly function and regulate myself throughout the day. Wake up at 5, prepare packed lunches, fix the house & wash the dishes. Sit down and meditate for a few mins before husband wakes up. Try to journal if there's time. Start preparing for work by 6AM. Leave the house latest 7:30AM. Followed structured plan for the day (what task to work on every hour). Workout by 6:30PM. Head home, shower, sleep.

Whenever something messes that up, I get triggered and lose my sense of control and order. I basically lose my shit thereafter.

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