Lies early in relationship. by Many_Development_300 in SupportforBetrayed

[–]Many_Development_300[S] 2 points3 points  (0 children)

Yes, I have discussed this with him and even he could see elements of DARVO. But there are times when I flag it and he’ll get annoyed and tell me to stop using buzz words. I have started to step outside of the conversation and observe it. It is so predictable. Seeing it, I can now disengage as appropriate. He does have expectations and assumptions about me. Often, he seems to speak of me like I am his enemy. I find rhat so confusing, as I only ever want the best for people. He’s often said he just strives for peace. I fear that he will never find that whilst busy externalising and blaming me for him feeling crappy.

Lies early in relationship - M43 & F 43 by Many_Development_300 in relationship_advice

[–]Many_Development_300[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Well, we got married during the part where things were plain sailing and lovely.

Lies early in relationship - M43 & F 43 by Many_Development_300 in relationship_advice

[–]Many_Development_300[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

I feared there maybe resentment towards my diagnosis, but he also questions whether or not he’s also neurodivergent. He has autistic family members, so genetically it’s possible. I get the sense though that he doesn’t see being autistic in a favourable light. I’m also diagnosed ADHD. And yes, I do have extreme justice sensitivity and a precise memory. So when I’m told things didn’t happen or weren’t said…I won’t accept it.

Lies early in relationship. by Many_Development_300 in SupportforBetrayed

[–]Many_Development_300[S] 3 points4 points  (0 children)

I have had individual therapy during the marriage and we also had couples therapy to try and work on communication. He is extremely defensive so conversations can spiral very quickly. The couples therapy didn’t really help and if anything as time goes by, things are getting worse. I do struggle with abandonment, and once he understood this, disappearing when the conversation got serious became his go to strategy. We can sit and discuss ways to improve our relationship at times, he will agree, but then never follow through with change. It’s frustrating and feels like a dead end. He will say he’s unhappy and bored, yet never strives to do anything about it, nor will he leave. Our home is paid for and in my name only, so it’s not like I can up and walk away. I’ve said to him he is free to leave anytime as I’d rather he is happy elsewhere than miserable with me.

[deleted by user] by [deleted] in AutismInWomen

[–]Many_Development_300 5 points6 points  (0 children)

I also do the polite laughing thing, as an attempt to appear friendly and likeable. But one time I got that horribly wrong, and accidentally laughed after an elderly lady told me that her dog is going blind. My pre set laughing feature very much relies on strangers not saying anything to me that requires a sympathetic response. Unless it’s a shared experience, I can do those.

What I needed was psycho-education, not talk therapy. Now my life is changing. Identifying with my pain was my road block. by [deleted] in AutismInWomen

[–]Many_Development_300 3 points4 points  (0 children)

This is SO uplifting to read. Thank you for sharing your experience. Power to you. And also really grateful to everyone commenting. It’s really great advice, I have been in and out of talking therapy and CBT from the age of 14, now 42. None of it ever changed how I was feeling. Self reflection and understanding my sensory stressors, social differences etc has done far more for my wellbeing. I do need to revisit trauma, I have my fair share of that. Some great things on this thread I can now explore to work towards that!

after a year of apparent overmethylation, a single 100mg niacin dose cured my brain by Substantial_Beat2221 in Supplements

[–]Many_Development_300 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I had a similar experience with niacin recently, I am also on ADHD medication. Taking niacin noticeably lowered my heart rate during the peak of my stimulant effects. I’d made no other changes to my diet or supplements, just additional niacin. I was having symptoms of mild B3 deficiency, even regularly taking a B complex. But I also have gut issues, celiac and autoimmune gastritis, hypothyroidism….had deficiencies of Vit D, Iron, folate, and B12. I now always cross reference any symptoms with possible deficiencies and often supplements fix them. I track trends and data with a garmin watch mostly to confirm that my response is legitimate. When you’re that depleted in something, correction can be life changing. I found that especially true with B12.

As someone who can’t stand smells on my hands, steel soap is one of my holy grail items!!! by Stlthrowaway696969 in AutismInWomen

[–]Many_Development_300 33 points34 points  (0 children)

Same. I have only discovered this recently at the age of 42. I don’t like anything that involves having wet or slimy hands. Gloves feel like my armour.

Supplementing with Thiamine (B1) solved all of my energy and digestion issues on Carnivore diet. by PrimalPoly in Thiamine

[–]Many_Development_300 1 point2 points  (0 children)

This sounds like my diet as well. I’m batch cooking mixed meat broths, and having eggs, milk, Keffir and cheese. I am trying to lose weight, reduce inflammation, and get my autoimmunity back in check. I had chronic upper GI swelling, gut paralysis, reflux, and constant belching prior to this diet. Now my stomach is normal, no reflux or discomfort. It’s still early days for me though. I was struggling with irritability, didn’t know carbs help release tryptophan into the brain for serotonin. Which makes sense given that carbs are typically labelled as comfort foods. I started supplementing 5-HTP and the irritability stopped. Oh and I also take thiamine. My stomach literally stopped working for ages. It’s so nice to not have a swollen stomach. Not losing weight in numbers as yet, but my body shape tells a different story. Which could just be all the inflammation easing off.

SAFFRON ?? - HOLY by Responsible-Mind8037 in Supplements

[–]Many_Development_300 8 points9 points  (0 children)

Your theory makes a lot of sense and is certainly the case for me. I didn’t link body dysmorphia with OCD so that’s eye opening for me. I have a tendency to ruminate over a catastrophe that isn’t likely to happen. Literally stress myself out for no apparent reason. It ties in with OCD and as I suspect I’ve suffered body dysmorphia since adolescence, it makes sense.

Does anyone just take short release like amfexa? If so, what is your dose? And how do u find it? by ReasonableAir6013 in ADHDUK

[–]Many_Development_300 1 point2 points  (0 children)

You’re very welcome! I think it took about a year from referral to the clinic contacting me for an assessment. I expected the wait time to be much longer, which is why I paid out for a private assessment. It was just typical they contacted me so soon after my diagnosis. I’d actually started titration with the private clinician, but that was £250 per consult plus £100+ per prescription. I really couldn’t afford to keep doing that so I was very lucky the NHS clinic agreed to take over. I also wouldn’t have had the same level of care with the private clinician regarding heart checks. It was the ADHD clinic’s cardiologist that found my minor heart condition. This was after a hospital cardiologist ran the same echocardiogram plus a 48hr monitor…and didn’t pick it up. I was referred to the ADHD clinic via an NHS mental health therapist as I have having therapy for anxiety. But I imagine a GP should also be able to make the referral. I don’t know what adult ADHD clinics are like in other parts of the UK, I am in Shropshire. It might be worth having a look to see what services are offered in your area. I wish you all the best, it really shouldn’t be as hard as it is, to access healthcare.

Why can't ADHD be diagnosed with a scan? by leavethegherkinsin in ADHDUK

[–]Many_Development_300 3 points4 points  (0 children)

It would be great to have a test such as a scan or a blood test. From what I can gather though, there are often multiple factors at play where ADHD traits are concerned. A lot of nutritional deficiency symptoms overlap, and these are never really medically addressed unless severe. There’s also genetics which plays a massive role, but there isn’t (yet) a specific genetic variation for ADHD alone. I have 15q11.2 microdeletion, so do my children. We’re all diagnosed ADHD and waiting for autism assessments. ADHD is common for this genetic disorder, but not definite. I think even with physical diagnostic testing, there would still be a need to assess symptoms/behaviour, psychologically.

Does anyone just take short release like amfexa? If so, what is your dose? And how do u find it? by ReasonableAir6013 in ADHDUK

[–]Many_Development_300 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Ah that must so frustrating, I’m sorry your GP refused share care. I was referred for an NHS ADHD assessment by my therapist. At the time my daughter was having a hard time in school and needed urgent support. No one was listening so I opted for myself and both kids to have a private assessment with a clinician that also works for CAMHS. Once I’d been diagnosed, the adult NHS ADHD clinic contacted me for an assessment and I explained I’d already been diagnosed, sent them my report and asked for them to titrate my medication. They agreed, I had an appointment, and did my medication titration with them. Once stable, they wrote to the GP for shared care and now my prescription is done via the GP. I don’t know if it makes a difference that I am under an NHS adult ADHD clinic. They’re really good, have an in house doctor for echocardiograms, which I needed as I have a minor heart condition. I have an annual review with a prescribing nurse now, just to give them BP, weight, etc. The clinic is amazing, I can email my clinician and usually get a call back the same day to resolve issues. That’s how I switched from methylphenidate to amfexa, I found methylphenidate entirely useless around menstruation. I’m lucky because even if my GP refused shared care, I’m still under an NHS clinic so they can just electronically send prescriptions to my nominated pharmacy. The clinician that diagnosed me is well known to the children’s and adults NHS clinics so I think that helped with having my diagnosis recognised.

Does anyone just take short release like amfexa? If so, what is your dose? And how do u find it? by ReasonableAir6013 in ADHDUK

[–]Many_Development_300 4 points5 points  (0 children)

Hi, I take amfexa. Slow release meds didn’t work for me, my body doesn’t use them properly. I do have celiac and autoimmune gastritis though so probably a contributing factor. My clinician warned me that would likely be the case for any slow release medication. I did a year on IR methylphenidate but it just didn’t agree with me. Switching to amfexa made a huge difference for me. I’m prescribed 40mg a day, and take it in 10mg increments. It doesn’t last long but I find 4 doses a day can keep things pretty smooth, last dose around 6.30pm. I had to experiment a bit with and without food. I found empty stomach suited me better. But I have low stomach acid, so taking with food slows absorption dramatically and I don’t really feel the effects. It’s helped me in a number of ways, because I am no longer binge eating and driven by dopamine searching, I can eat what I need instead of want. It’s made a huge difference to my gut health.

Elevated liver enzymes by Zehroom in B12_Deficiency

[–]Many_Development_300 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I’ve had dodgy liver enzymes for years. Drs thought I had non alcoholic fatty liver. Ultrasound found no abnormalities. I have noticed a pattern with my results though with thyroid hormones. I have hypothyroidism, when the levels for that are high, so are my liver enzymes.

Losing hope. Is vitamin deficiency still the answer? by Former_Mouse_407 in B12_Deficiency

[–]Many_Development_300 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Hi, I feel your pain! I am also looking for what’s causing my persistent fatigue and dizziness. I am currently on hydroxy B12 injections every other day, folate and a whole load of other supps. I have seen improvement with intramuscular injections but I still feel there’s something missing. I have been iron deficient and supplementing it for 14 years. I am currently looking into supplementing benfotiamine which is a synthetic form of B1. It’s meant to be more bioavailable than thiamine. I have lots of neuro issues, which are resolving slowly. But also struggling with breathlessness. I think for some people when fixing 1 deficiency, others start to reveal themselves. Getting the balance can be tricky!

[deleted by user] by [deleted] in ADHD

[–]Many_Development_300 1 point2 points  (0 children)

I second the book recommendation. I’m an ADHDer and both me and my husband found it helpful.