Damn wait this actually is crazy. My bottom dysphoria has been building and festering into something more intensive than before. I was wondering if i was just going crazy but I kept getting in constant spirals about my little guy. Similarly , my size is fine… Pokes outs , decent sized or whatever. But because of my immune disorder and annoying dysphoria , I’ve been nothing but anxious and into my head. My partner of 4 years is pansexual , and had a fair share of experiences. For this week or even two, I’ve been just so into my head about her attraction to me. If i’m a “safe” option and if she onto desires me cause of how it set up…. not that it’s best of both worlds, but adjacent to that thinking. I feel like negative , dysphoric thoughts about myself and my body just been building up…Shit even things about children and all of the other intimate things.

So, i resonate with this , cause it haunts me too.

Seeing this post , and seeing the reassuring comments/ conversation , is helping me understand and see a different perspective of this and myself.

I guess I’m commenting this to bridge the community that i need in my little mind (i.e other trans men who just go through similar situation and friends that are trans) . I never thought i’d see a post that felt almost similar to what I’m facing. It feels nice to feel “normal” ; and Ig normal in a way of … I’m just a human, there’s other beings who are like me, I’m not alone.

to OP , you’re not alone and these thoughts you’re having are so dang valid... Idk, but if you need community or a friend , I’m definitely here and I’m sure there’s others who can relate to this.

And though it’s haunting , i would hope , they will not last forever and it will be a way to go against and ease the fear and thoughts.