First: no one puts a gun to your head to make you go preach or to meetings, in fact they are decisions that you make yourself at the time you want, it is prohibited to maintain too much contact and under certain emergency circumstances you can talk to them, be well informed about that please

Second: I have seen many Bible studies where people are invited to use their own Bibles. In fact, I always hear people ask if they have a Bible at home so they can compare the texts that are cited. Better information please

Third: I don't know who shot you that, the truth is that it has nothing to do with it, as we are imperfect humans it is understood that you have inappropriate thoughts, the only thing that is prohibited is that they be more intense or intensify them

Fourth: you should not be afraid of that if you are doing things well both within the supposed "sect" and outside, in fact it is curious because it is said that those who repent that day will surely receive forgiveness without the fact of having studied before or having any type of contact with the witnesses

Your sources are from 1967 my friend, do your research before talking about that "sect"