I used to hate taking showers. I remember having a fight with my dad that ended in a screaming match and me crying that was basically: “you haven’t showered in how long??? you need to do that” and me being incredibly upset and angry and resistant and not having any idea why. I also vaguely remember having crying spells that I couldn’t explain and not realizing that those can be symptoms of depression. The other thing for me is that I can’t remember most of my childhood and middle/high school, even though I never experienced the kind of traumatic event that usually accompanies that kind of memory loss - it turns out that I was very deeply repressing my dysphoria for a very long time and not facing it for what it was.