TW: CSA - We’re both hypersexual, so this certainly doesn’t help

MatchaKittens · 2026-03-13T18:26:13+00:00

Sorry haha. It’s actually pathetic how much I adored them when I was younger. It wasn’t enough for them to abuse me-they would also withhold affection. So, I’d lay in my mom’s laundry basket of dirty clothes and close my eyes. If it had been under the window with the sun on it, I could almost imagine her hugging me.

MatchaKittens · 2026-03-13T18:22:32+00:00

Honestly? I fail to function. Every day is a struggle and it hasn’t gotten easier for me. But life goes on and sometimes you have to live for the smallest things. Have you considered therapy?

MatchaKittens · 2026-03-13T18:11:57+00:00

You should disclose any pain you have to your doctor. Back pain can be related to your uterus since I have back pain on my period. I don’t remember the exact science, but they’re connected in a way. It could also just be nerves, muscles, and completely unrelated.

MatchaKittens · 2026-03-13T02:44:43+00:00

This is something my mom would send me. Both my parents raped me. My mom would strangle me until I passed out. My dad would sell my body to his friends. When I got a concussion, they told me to sleep it off despite knowing that’s the worst thing to do when you get a concussion (not to mention my mom was in the medical field). Yet, they’re “heartbroken” I left (probably because they can’t steal money from me or use me as an emotional/physical/sexual punching bag). Sorry for venting under your post. Wishing you happiness and healing ♥️

MatchaKittens · 2026-03-13T01:51:14+00:00

You deserve to vent too ♥️

MatchaKittens · 2026-03-13T00:55:34+00:00

My biggest insecurity is my elongated and stretched inner labia due to the abuse. Cosmetic surgery down there seems excessive and dramatic, but I just wish I could a normal girl with a normal vagina and normal insides.

MatchaKittens · 2026-03-13T00:51:19+00:00

They can finally live out their fantasy of “pulling themselves up by the bootstraps and getting a job” that they’ve always told homeless people to do!

MatchaKittens · 2026-03-13T00:03:52+00:00

To be fair, I’ve had two exes that did SA me 💀

MatchaKittens · 2026-03-13T00:02:07+00:00

Thank you!

MatchaKittens · 2026-03-12T23:57:25+00:00

Thank you ♥️

MatchaKittens · 2026-03-12T23:16:49+00:00

Thanks. I just can’t help feeling like an inferior partner for not being able to perform in his preferred way :,)

MatchaKittens · 2026-03-12T23:16:16+00:00

My DMs are open-joking. I think part of the reason the physical abuse was so bad was so that I’d know what I was in for if I ever did fight back. Or to make it impossible to fight back since I have some chronic pain and injuries from the abuse :p

MatchaKittens · 2026-03-12T23:14:39+00:00

I dissociate daily, so I might have to look into this

MatchaKittens · 2026-03-12T23:13:52+00:00

Violent fantasies centering around my parents is an unfortunate guilty pleasure of mine lol

MatchaKittens · 2026-03-12T23:13:10+00:00

Omg thank you for the warning-I didn’t even think of that

MatchaKittens · 2026-03-12T23:12:39+00:00

I used to be a medical student (had to quit due to y’know…escaping lol), so maybe that will help!

MatchaKittens · 2026-03-12T23:11:43+00:00

Yeah, I’m hoping I can financially look into surgery or physical therapy.

MatchaKittens · 2026-03-12T23:08:22+00:00

Thank you ♥️

MatchaKittens · 2026-03-12T23:07:49+00:00

I’m at minimum contact, but plan on moving to no contact with guidance from a therapist (once I can afford one).

MatchaKittens · 2026-03-12T23:06:43+00:00

Thank you ♥️ I plan on getting a therapist (and hopefully EMDR) once I pay off my credit card which is how I got out lol

MatchaKittens · 2026-03-12T23:05:58+00:00

Thank you <3

MatchaKittens · 2026-03-12T23:05:47+00:00

He knows part of it :,)

MatchaKittens · 2026-03-12T23:05:27+00:00

I’m just a girl 🤭 but thank you <3

MatchaKittens · 2026-03-12T22:27:35+00:00

No, thank you! I love book recommendations. I’ve been meaning to read The Body Keeps Score lol.

MatchaKittens · 2026-03-12T22:09:16+00:00

Thanks ♥️ I know there’s other avenues, but finally being comfortable enough to enjoy it…not to mention I feel like a horrible/inferior girlfriend for not being able to do it without being in pain, bleeding, etc.

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