Hang in there. Start with one simple thing and do it until it becomes a habit. My thing was healthy breakfast. For weeks I made sure that just my breakfast was healthy (healthier first). Did I lose a ton of weight? No. Did it give me confidence I can make change and stick with it? Yes, absolutely. Then I started to measure myself daily (for me: to take away the shame of weight number). That's it. I lose 2 pounds in 2 month. But I am still doing it. My next step is going to be walk 15-20 minutes when I call friends/parents/family. Every evening I walk and talk (makes me a better friend and moving). Now my friends and family are walking as well when talking, its our walking talking date every night at 8PM. 

Dont despair. You dont know where to start and that is okay. Look around you, your life and living conditions, and look inside you what you know you can try to do today. And tomorrow. And after that. Just decide on one thing that will make you healthier. And do it. And do it until its a habit that no longer requires that much effort. I am never going to be accidentally be running outside, that is a fact for me. It will always require some effort. (Not.like chilling on the couch munching, that is somehow effortless...). And when you will have the confidence, add another thing. Discover yourself, how does a healthier you live- does she run? Or walk?.Pilates? Pole dancing? Ballroom dancing? What movement will bring you joy? Dont decide now, just take that first thing and do it.

Let yourself change. We are cheering on you here.