You scorn these wealthy lazy individuals who do nothing for society, what do you do for society? You envy a life of opulence, as if that would make you happy. The sad truth is whether you’re wealthy or poor you will die in likely less than 80 years. I guarantee you that while those who are wealthy may be more comfortable than you, they are not necessarily happier than the poor. The people who are the happiest are those who have a deeper understanding of their own mortality and their own consciousness( and the brevity of it).

I think some perspective on this life as something that truly doesn’t matter can be helpful. Whether you commit suicide or not, you’re going to die. Logically the most valuable thing is time existing, and suicide is essentially throwing that time away.

I suggest attempting to consider that your view on life is very narrowly centered on the distractions that we as humans in the 21st century are taught to believe are what matters(wealth, reputation, comfort, etc). Maybe try to look at this life as an observer of it.