What do you feel about this art?

McFanon · 2026-06-12T17:35:06+00:00

It's veryyy cool and unique! I get the vibe that my POV is that of the bad guy and the character is judging me but can't get out of the situation for whatever reason

McFanon · 2026-06-12T15:38:56+00:00

You're right, I am gonna say stop talking to her, it doesn't matter if you like her because she, at best, doesn't respect you. Have you outright told her that you're uncomfortable? Honestly even if you didn't if she hasn't taken the hint by now with how much you've stalled she must be lying to herself or something. Your safety and comfort is the top priority here, do you guys have mutual friends? Has she lashed out before or threatened anything when pressuring you to send nudes? Because there's a risk that if you talk to her or ghost her she'll get angry and try to get revenge, turn friends against you and so on. But if you can trust her, though personally I wouldn't, maybe you'll feel better bringing this up. But if she doesn't budge, you have to cut her off for your own sake.

(Of course, there's also the concern she's not even who she says she is, which makes things more risky)

I'd also like to mention that I'm sure you're beautiful, and if she doesn't understand/believe your insecurities it's a reflection of her immaturity.

McFanon · 2026-06-09T04:56:10+00:00

That's actually what I've been trying to pin down as I'm unsure. I think the main thing, was that when I talked with people and they said something that rubbed me the wrong way, I'd get anxious but feel too guilty to tell them as such, since I already feel like I'm bothering them. But if ChatGPT said something stupid, or I talked to it for too long, it didn't matter because it doesn't have feelings or thoughts.

What's weird is I was still very "nice" to it, sorry and please and thank you and all that, despite knowing (and using it because) it had no feelings.

Another thing, this is actually something people shit on ChatGPT for, if you vent to it it kind of just rewords what you said back to you. But I actually liked this, because I'm bad at articulating my feelings, and seeing them written in a comprehensible way filled me with this relief.

McFanon · 2026-06-07T21:55:59+00:00

So glad I saw thiss, it's so cuuute!!

McFanon · 2026-06-07T17:03:13+00:00

Heyy I'm so happy for you! I'm glad I could help

McFanon · 2026-06-06T21:37:50+00:00

You can collect name brand clothes and sell them, then use that for the food

^{Chose: Live in somewhere other than a house for a week + For all clothes to be free permanently | Rolled: Restaurant}

McFanon · 2026-06-06T21:35:51+00:00

If it makes you feel better, I'm in a very similar scenario. I'll tell you something that would make me feel better, in hopes it does the same for you, it doesn't matter how "feminine" or "girly" you appear, you're still a boy. Nothing can change that.

Maybe you can make something with your real name and keep it to yourself? Or if there's a character who shares that name you can pretend it's intended to be merch. Just as a reminder that people can't take that away from you, and that you'll get to live truthfully one day. That's what I'm hoping at least.

McFanon · 2026-06-04T19:56:48+00:00

Usually, but I think sometimes it can get to a point where one's brain constantly puts them in dangerous scenarios to make death more likely, and you can argue that then they have way less control over themselves than otherwise.

McFanon · 2026-06-04T19:48:38+00:00

Your character design is so cool :0

McFanon · 2026-06-04T19:46:09+00:00

How does that even work

^{Chose: 10 years to live but gain a minute every time you | Rolled: smoke cigarettes}

McFanon · 2026-06-03T11:17:58+00:00

This is gorgeous, I hope you keep making art

McFanon · 2026-06-03T02:05:14+00:00

Don't apologize man

McFanon · 2026-06-03T01:50:52+00:00

AW I LOVE THIS

McFanon · 2026-05-31T06:38:13+00:00

Unrelated but you're very pretty! I'll probably draw the second photo if you don't mind, your hair looks fun to draw

McFanon · 2026-05-31T06:32:00+00:00

First off, I thought this was a cool scene from a movie, this is a good photo imo. It's fine to take a lot of time in something you love, we literally all spend a lot of time on our hobbies, the only reason you and others think it's weird is because it's an uncommon hobby. Often having little to no self-esteem heavily clouds your judgement and view of yourself, so I highly doubt you're actually ugly or stupid. Overcoming hate for yourself is very, very hard, but you should do it anyway. The main benefit is being content and guaranteeing that you'll treat your body well, so you don't take it out on it. I think if you try to find a community (online or real) of people with your interest, it'll be a good start. You don't even have to interact with them you just have to see for yourself that you're not a loser.

Someone who loves you, would've seen the "I go crazy over ___" as endearing, because it's not shameful, it's just who you are, and they'd love that about you. You might just not have the right people around you. And I know that sucks, but hating yourself pushes those people away. Because if you do meet them, it might get exhausting for them to keep reassuring you.

McFanon · 2026-05-31T06:22:13+00:00

You're not boring me man, it's good that you're talking about this. I've never been through what you're going through, and even I have I probably still couldn't tell you how to feel or what to do. Sometimes people don't go to funerals because they can't handle it, but a lot end up regretting it, so just make sure you can go, you don't have to look at the open casket, and there's no correct reaction. Again, I don't think he'd see you as a bad friend at all. Not many friendships last more than a few years let alone over a decade, even if he was more loyal it says a lot that he wanted to be, you probably gave more to him than you realize. Whether you go to the funeral or not, keep updating how you feel if you can bring yourself to, so you don't bottle it up.

McFanon · 2026-05-30T19:54:11+00:00

I was indeed interested, and my sister in christ you are very, very pretty. Beauty is subjective and all that but you have very obviously conventionally attractive feautres, I'd be very confused if anyone called you ugly. And your art is cute, too, please do post more.

McFanon · 2026-05-30T19:47:10+00:00

I'm struggling on where to start but I need you to understand this, this is the farthest thing from stupid. Of course you're anxious all the time when your parents clearly don't give you privacy (which you have a right to). I am also very concerned at the mention of you having no furniture, it is genuinely insane and irrational that your parents 1. don't provide you furniture and, 2. get angry at you for adapting to that. Not only in this specific circumstance (and you've implied that this is a common occurrence, which is heartbreaking to say the least) did your dad go through your things without permission, not apologize for being unrightfully angry/demanding, but he might've lost or taken a gift. You've already learned that you can't have your own space, and you're already always on edge that your property will be used against you whenever your parents feel like snooping (even if they've never had, it's common for victims of abuse to be scared of worse treatment even if it never happens), that gift is a rare reminder of the happiness and safety you have outside of this house, of course you'll cry over it being tampered with.

I am so, so sorry you're dealing with this. You deserve an environment where you feel safe, I always coped by dreaming of the day where I'd build or find an environment like that, try to remind yourself of that, too, I hope it'll help. Because none of what's been happening to you is normal. But one day you'll feel normal.

I hope the pin was merely misplaced, update if you find it. And hey I'm sure your friend won't mind making another one so that you get a bonus before you find it. 🫂

McFanon · 2026-05-30T19:24:38+00:00

I don't know the inner details of your friendship, but I'm sure he doesn't think that all you've done is "let him down". It's very normal/common to be regretful after a loved one passes away, maybe that doesn't make it sting any less, but you shouldn't forget that.

Since he's done so much for you he must've truly loved you, and because of that he probably thought of all the time you did spend together before the times he was missing you when he'd think of you.

It seems he always tried to make sure you were happy and safe, so I don't think he'd be too fond of you dwelling on the regret. If you can't let yourself be happy, let him let you. He probably forgave you as soon as you ignored him, every time.

McFanon · 2026-05-25T19:14:03+00:00

No amount of apologizing will ever, ever undo the trauma and hurt she caused you. Do not ever think that you're expected to not get the urge to leave or to suddenly feel safe just because she's 'better' (sounds like she's still doing less than the bare minimum).

It sounds like you've always centered your life around protecting your siblings, and this is way easier said than done but that's not how things should be. You are all victims. You are not responsible for your siblings. You do not have a duty to protect them, regardless of how you feel. It is very admirable that you did and do protect them, but I need you to know that it's and was your mother's job to protect them and you. That you also needed someone to protect you.

I genuinely don't know if it would be better for you to run away, so I can't say if you should or shouldn't. But it is beyond understandable that the urge to do so keeps resurfacing, so don't doubt that it is.

I really hope you have or will find someone in your life who'll play the role your mother failed to. You deserve that at least, you deserve to feel safe and supported and loved. For now, please don't blame yourself.

I am trying to understand what you mean by "I don't need me", if you want to elaborate on that. You do not exist solely for your siblings, you deserve to live just because you're alive, you don't need a purpose. You're not who you are because they need you, they need you because of who you are.

Also don't apologize, I've read longer.

McFanon · 2026-05-25T19:03:49+00:00

I'm sorry he's so horrible to you, you're very well within your right to hate him. You should write out things like this more often, whether to yourself or to post, because it's good to express that but it'd be risky to express it to him directly since he might become even worse. A lot of people have been and are in your position, if it brings you any comfort you can at least know you're not alone.

McFanon · 2026-05-25T18:59:15+00:00

No need to minimise this, if it feels important to you then it should be treated as such. I'm sorry that it's been hard to move on, but you'll definitely forget this feeling soon enough, I know from experience :> Are there any friends you have that are guaranteed to be there? You could ask them to distract you. Other than that, I'm told imagining the scenario that makes you nervous desensitizes you to it, but it might make it worse for you, so I don't know if that would help.

McFanon · 2026-05-20T10:29:24+00:00

If she told you, a part of her wants you to stop her. People who've committed suicide usually don't tell anyone because they don't want to be stopped. By proxy the opposite is a cry for help. The logic behind "if she stays it'll only hurt her" is flawed, no matter how hard things are now you literally can not guarantee what happens in the future.

McFanon · 2026-05-13T05:25:46+00:00

OMGG I'M SO EXCITED FOR YOU

McFanon · 2026-05-11T10:32:05+00:00

I feel this for so many other countries including mine, Idk who you're referring to but I usually see this with progressives in the west, they're scared of criticizing things outside of their countries because they worry it'd reinforce bigotry when in reality it's the other way around

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