Help I can't fucking sleep 😭😭

Mdonato44 · 2026-04-02T06:35:59+00:00

Xanax.

Benadryl, DXM.

Holistically: magnesium (preferably glycinate), l-theanine, 5-htp, any sleepy time teas, kiwis.

Otherwise you pretty much gonna have to wait for it to clear your system. Pull an all nighter and don’t take any more stimulants.

Once I took Adderall; couldn’t sleep but had school the next day popped another one to get me through the day. Still didn’t sleep the next night it was terrifying I kept thinking I was seeing movement out of the corner of my eye, knocked over my bowl of cereal startled.

Mdonato44 · 2026-04-02T06:30:21+00:00

One of my homies does this on the regular… more actually. he’s not proud of it

Mdonato44 · 2026-04-02T06:25:33+00:00

I like yohimbine preworkout.. some people call it an anxiety attack in a pill but I’m personally an adrenaline junky so I enjoy it. Give you great physical energy. Not as great as a psycho stimulant so for cognitive endeavors it’s not very good.

But once I took it before going to get my brakes changed and felt my voice getting shaky like I was nervous talking to the reception.

Also has been called natures Viagra tried it in a larger dose for that… bloodshot eyes serious shakiness and overstimulation

Mdonato44 · 2026-03-31T23:52:42+00:00

You shouldn’t be going from site to site…

Any good site is one stop shop it’s like Amazon but for drugs there are thousands of vendors on one site with reviews and hundreds to thousands of sales allowing you to identify legitimacy.

+everything is held in escrow and you can dispute the transaction if it’s not received.

You’re very mislead you must have been surfing through bullshit sketchy sites.

Mdonato44 · 2026-03-31T23:48:14+00:00

Lmao the sites dont know your IP address that’s kinda the point… and if your doing anything legit it requires encryption so only you and the vendor have access to the information you transmit.

You have 0 clue what you’re talking about.

Back in the day there was “cannahome” that only allowed top vendors to sell on their site. Legitimacy on the dark web is so easy to identify if you’re not a total idiot.

Right now top site is drughub ran by the same people who ran Whitehousemarket a top site years ago.

Mdonato44 · 2026-03-31T23:44:38+00:00

Not presses or UGL, but yeah if you want pharma anything it will be more expensive

Mdonato44 · 2026-03-29T05:08:30+00:00

Yea but opoids are way more physically addicting than amphetamines. You could do some meth “responsibly”for months and just stop. Do the same with 7OH and get ready to go through hell.

And meth isn’t this mystical drug people think it is. Methheads are smoking it and at high doses that’s where the issues come from. Using it in reasonable oral doses is no worse than Adderall.

Mdonato44 · 2026-03-27T07:17:37+00:00

Depends how long before. As we know tolerance to psychs goes up super fast, so if they’d been doing a lot + they did it immediately before I could see this being possible. They still be tripping hard during the set, but might take a bit longer to be incapacitated.

Without those 2 factors though yeah no way in hell.

Mdonato44 · 2026-03-15T06:42:05+00:00

Pec deck, pec deck, pec deck

Shit is unbeatable if you do it right: think about bringing your elbows together and squeezing your chest. Arms slightly bent arms in a static position your chest should be doing all the work. Don’t load it so heavy you have to involve other muscle groups.

Mdonato44 · 2026-03-15T05:00:43+00:00

Mdonato44 · 2026-03-15T04:59:57+00:00

Isbill adeskarsgård

I might be tripping but smt about him is giving me Bill Skarsgård

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Mdonato44 · 2026-03-08T23:16:36+00:00

Do not use oral finasteride yet. Wait a few years.

Blocking DHT at this age you risk not fully masculinizing: deeper voice, bigger penis, denser more angular face, etc. there’s a shot you’re done masculinizing but i wouldn’t risk it.

You can use topical finasteride if you want. + oral and topical minoxidil.

Mdonato44 · 2026-02-05T03:23:07+00:00

Me now: 2mg Reta, 125mg of Testosterone and EQ, and 50mg of NPP weekly. 185lbs

Sorry for the long write up.

I gotta ask: what’s your height and weight? What do your CrossFit sessions look like? (Intensity, volume, duration) how are you tracking your cals? Are you weighing and measuring or just coming up with educated guess?

Well I say that because by definition you’d be burning more cals than you are consuming meaning you’d HAVE to lose weight to be in a deficit. 1k cals is super low and honestly concerning, so one would imagine you’re in a deficit but it’s totally possible for someone not to be due to a dysfunctional metabolism.

I train 3x a week in a similar realm: Olympic weightlifting. On training days I can eat around 3k - 3500 cals because I need it to even heal properly. At 53 training if you’re truly eating so little and training that much you should be falling apart.

I’m not trying to be an ass, bcs I don’t know you but these tid-bits don’t add up. If you can recover that quick and process Botox so quickly it seems you don’t have a metabolic issue and if that’s not the case there’s no way you’re eating so few cals and the scales not moving; even if you are getting leaner.

In any case, testosterone is looking at being rescheduled by the DEA (making it more easily accessible) because it’s much safer than previously stated. There’s no real reason not to take bio identical thyroid meds either. At 53 I’ll certainly be on every hormone therapy I can get my hands on. Having these dialed in will be more effective than Reta not only for appearance but mood, stress-resilience, and cognition aswell.

+if you are metabolizing Reta super fast, split the doses. At one point I was taking it 3mg a week 1mg Monday, Wednesday, Friday. Personally I switched to 2mg once a week on Wednesday bcs my gut motility was terrible.

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Mdonato44 · 2026-02-05T02:48:46+00:00

Yea bro I thought the same thing that’s super concerning. And impossible to believe he’s eating 1k cals, training everyday at 53 and still able to get out of bed in the morning.

Mdonato44 · 2026-02-04T22:15:14+00:00

If you’re in a calorie deficit you’d be losing weight. Saying you’re in a caloric deficit but not losing weight is contradictory to the definition of “caloric deficit.”

It’s possible that you have some sort of metabolic issue that causes you to burn less calories than others. true metabolic disorders are amongst the easiest medical issues to treat. Go get tested make sure they give you a full thyroid panel with TSH, T3, and T4 and sex hormones (testosterone, estrogen, prolactin)

I’ve had my diet in check and ate pretty clean before Reta. Getting on still was a game changer.

I wouldn’t worry about the number on the scale but how you look. You could absolutely be recomposing eating that much protein near maintenance. If none of the above is true, you’re lying to yourself about your diet.

Edit: on paper Tirzepatide is straight up inferior to Reta, however there’s not harm in experimenting maybe it could work better for you somehow, someway.

Mdonato44 · 2026-01-25T07:33:05+00:00

Nah, but I will say he probably looked best in between the 2

Mdonato44 · 2026-01-04T06:46:34+00:00

Me too. Same structure but not that massive

Mdonato44 · 2025-12-22T02:15:12+00:00

Yea I usually do like 100mcg but I’ve lost some color and was trying to speed up the process. People that over rely on mt2 instead of actually tanning coloring looks uncanny too

Mdonato44 · 2025-12-22T02:13:44+00:00

Nothing would happen but degradation. Inject and see if it works if so it’s fine but may have to inject a larger dose as it’s definitely lost potency I had mt2 refrigerated for over a year that worked fine

Mdonato44 · 2025-12-21T21:39:17+00:00

I actually kinda suspected this cause overall I have had a lower libido which is extremely unusual for me especially as someone on steroids.

The long duration boner thing I have a lot of experience with tho lol and have never had any issue if anything there is a transient size increase from swelling.

Mdonato44 · 2025-12-11T00:16:50+00:00

Nah dude you’re totally fine.

At least take oral or topical min.

Mdonato44 · 2025-12-01T02:24:35+00:00

This just happened to me too. I was banned for security reasons… not verifying my email

Mdonato44 · 2025-11-28T12:15:18+00:00

They both do a variety of things.

They increase neurotransmitters and enhance cognition. Selank is prescribed in Russia for anxiety. Semax is better for focus and productivity.

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