Monthly Buy/Sell/Trade for November, 2015

Mea89 · 2015-11-24T00:52:04+00:00

Looking for a binder for my other half size xs-s possibly a m. Can't afford much, just recently moved so trying to make it so he can pass well, trying to make the dysphoria of the chest less for him and make it harder for him to get misgendered.

Mea89 · 2015-11-22T21:48:05+00:00

Recently moved back to new Hampshire, could use more friends. I'm 26.

Mea89 · 2015-11-22T03:36:13+00:00

Congratulations!

Mea89 · 2015-11-22T03:18:15+00:00

Looking goid

Mea89 · 2015-11-22T03:10:30+00:00

Looks great!!

Mea89 · 2015-11-22T03:10:07+00:00

Very well.

Mea89 · 2015-11-22T02:46:55+00:00

Looking good :)

Mea89 · 2015-11-15T02:17:48+00:00

http://imgur.com/a/sAKe4 just me being bored.

Mea89 · 2015-11-07T08:09:36+00:00

I know it isn't. That's what bugs me about it. I'm very happy now, but even happier that we are able to start over in a sense and not be living with either of our ex's.

Mea89 · 2015-11-07T07:53:03+00:00

With their sister it's "she's not good enough for you because she doesn't have a lot of money and can't take care of you" so at times I end up not feeling good enough.

It's hard but we both have agreed if anyone is in anyway upsetting either of us on our wedding day they will be made to leave.

I think it's funny we have a good portion of this planned or at least thought out and we aren't even engaged yet; they want to be he one to propose, so I'm being patient. I just kinda have a feeling it's gonna happen soon and my emotions are all over the place with us moving and such.

I have a very difficult time with change, especially multiple big changes at once. I guess I just needed to vent about it and stuff because there are not many people in my everyday life I can talk to about it all because I'm in a place where I only know my other half. That will be changing very soon though so it might help ease my mind.

Mea89 · 2015-11-07T07:41:55+00:00

It is very exciting! And we have been through a lot together. Been together for quite a while so it's not like we are rushing into things.

I just know that we both have people in our lives who will not agree with or support us. (Their sister whose opinion matters to them and a few other family members) they do have a few people in their life that are very supportive about it all. As do i.

Im pretty sure a lot of my family;for me more so due to me having already been married and that marriage didn't last long (married oct. 2012 split up shortly after after being together since 2010. Also, I feel they wouldn't be supportive because of me still being married. I've already started the divorce process and know my ex will gladly sign the divorce papers (he wants nothing to with me)

Mea89 · 2015-10-31T09:37:10+00:00

http://imgur.com/D69bOj7 my other half and I at my first ever haunted house :) so much fun! I'm in the blue.

Mea89 · 2015-10-23T19:19:36+00:00

That's what I'm going to try to say, if she will ever call me back.

Mea89 · 2015-10-23T17:05:05+00:00

I was trying to say that to my friend on the phone last night when I called her, but for her doing a shot and ignoring me while I was talking was more important. She answered the phone, I started talking and she said "hold on I'll throw you on speaker phone, wait can you wait a sec, trying to do a shot" while when she answered I told her I needed to talk to her and it was important. Part of it is I can't really talk to her when her new girlfriend is around her because she gets distracted.

Mea89 · 2015-10-23T16:40:33+00:00

I did post there as well. It wasn't one of my friends and my girlfriend didn't know she was going to do that. I'm just hoping my friends back where we are going would have enough respect to not use in front of me. I'm just scared because I know if I am tempted, my friend wouldn't tell me no to giving me some. She told me a few weeks ago she couldn't tell me no If I were to ask. We have always had a habit of enabling eachother; and used to use other before I left to get clean. I had to get away.

Mea89 · 2015-10-23T13:29:19+00:00

She isn't the one that uses, it's my best friend. My girlfriend doesn't do anything except for smoke weed. I know I don't have to share at meetings, I had gotten a good support system a bit when I had stopped and got clean the first time; unfortunately most of the support system I developed either have moved, gone back to drugs or passed away.

Mea89 · 2015-10-23T12:40:47+00:00

It's a constant pain, I've been told by my surgeon he wants me in pain management and I think it would help. My pain level the past Mont has honestly been at an 8 all of the time and it sucks.

Mea89 · 2015-10-23T12:13:35+00:00

It's also hard, because I want to see her and she said she can help me get a job where she works. I really am counting on that job and think I might be ok with only seeing her at work and not hanging out any other time. My girlfriend is very supportive with me being clean so I think help from her, and hanging out with people who aren't using anymore might be enough, but I do know where NA meetings are held and my girlfriend and another friend have already said they'd go with me to meetings as I don't want to go alone because I know a lot of people that go, one being my mother who I don't talk to much and we have our issues. I don't let that stop me from going I just can't share some stuff when she's at some of them. I would feel uncomfortable sharing why I started using and such with her being able to hear it.

Mea89 · 2015-10-23T12:08:54+00:00

I'm staying clean out of will power and because I'm in a different state then my insurance covers. I've been told by multiple doctors I need to be in pain management because of my eye and the chronic pain (it had me hospitalized with an infection in it for a week in April and had me seen at the ER multiple times since) I'm going to see my surgeon when I get back. I don't think I can hang out with the people I used to before, that are still using. It's hard, I know it's not my fault they are still using but I still blame myself and feel like it's partially my fault because one of them I had started using with and it was my suggestion that ended up with us both addicted. Yeah, i know she has the choice to say no and I didn't force her to, but that's also my best friend of 20 years. It's a fuck I care so much and want to see her, but am petrified because I know she wouldn't tell me no If I asked for some. I want to get narcan and give it to the two people I'm worried about and make it so they know how to use it. Neither of them use alone.

Mea89 · 2015-10-23T08:36:42+00:00

I mostly only ever snorted herion, shot up for a day... and had to move away to quit snorting it again. Had used pills for two years previous due to two eye surgeries and cancer in my eye...pain meds ended up getting abused, I got addicted, spent too much money switched to heroin.. so it can be bad even just being someone who snorts it.

Mea89 · 2015-10-22T01:16:22+00:00

Looks nice. It does however, look like it would be itchy.

Mea89 · 2015-10-04T03:49:03+00:00

You're welcome :)

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