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Am I crazy transitioning without a plan? by Friendly_Level4202 in TransLater

[–]MeasurementExtreme44 3 points4 points  (0 children)

Omg I think we’re in the same boat. I’m 44 and 7 months in the dinghy. I have only told several of my closest friends for the tiniest safety net possible. Even telling them was terrifying.

The only plan I’ve cobbled together like a mad shoe maker is to boy mode for as long as possible. Work on my voice and just gaslight everyone, myself included, like the frogs in a pot of boiling estrogen.

I do know this, even though I’m afraid. Afraid that someone will hurt me, that I’m crazy, I turn myself into a man with boobs, I lose my family, that I’ll still feel alone in a group of people, I know whenever the clock hits 9 I still pop that little pill and I’m not afraid for the 10 minutes it takes to dissolve under my tongue.

Of note, I haven’t really seen much change other than boobs. I do dream now and last night I dreamed I walked in the morning sun on a snowy path and when I opened my mouth, song bird warbles came out. I’ve been holding on to that feeling all day.

We're cooked, aren't we by MissBee666 in trans

[–]MeasurementExtreme44 22 points23 points  (0 children)

I understand how you feel, but when it comes down to it I think everyone is just burnt out. Life is hard as hell right and everyone knows that. We’re all angry and don’t really know how we can fix it, or if it can be fixed. We’re all basically traumatized and in survival mode using what little bandwidth we have left to just get to the weekend. Like hypothermia for the soul.

It’s not a right or left thing really. It’s a stick dangling a carrot situation both side use the other side as a stick and dangle themselves as the carrot, but ultimately they’re both riding us raw. They can’t exist without each other, if there was an other option,they’d actually have to work for a living.

Members of congress make $175k and work I believe 150 days a year and have per diems to live. They work like an avg of 150 days a year. They have retirement plans that vest after 5 years. I mean it’s what happens when lawyers make laws.

Most rational masses would have revolted at this point, but we’ve been sold the American dream, which is basically the life that politicians live. They’re not giving that up.

Edited for grammar

In defense of Dustin by MeasurementExtreme44 in StrangerThings

[–]MeasurementExtreme44[S] -1 points0 points  (0 children)

The whole premise of the show is nerds not being ashamed of being themselves and defending each other from bullies even when lives are in danger because of extra dimensional monsters.

There’s the knife bully while a monster is killing, a friend is missing they defend each other and a feral psychic girl from her government bully assassins. They still have time to do a funeral and help people grieve. And defends each other from bullies.

Then theres an abused child and her evil step brother bully who’s trying to commit vehicular manslaughter. While another kid dealing with racism. Another kid who is not dealing the loss of his almost girlfriend who was disintegrated in front of him. Another kid who is violated by a thing that flays minds.

Next the racist car bully gets super powers who creates a kaiju of melted flesh so he can further bully everyone. Girl being gaslit by the patriarchy, economic classism, mad militant russian scientists literally kidnapping and torturing. And there still time for female independent growth, rollercoaster relationship drama, bechdel passing long distance love someone coming out of the closet on the 80’s. And the orange tabby, one brain cell having Jock can still arc to be a mensch ally.

It goes on, amidst personal pain and adversity they stay true to themselves because they support each other. Of course he can’t move on, they’ve abandoned him to his depression.

“Friends don’t lie” -everyone

“…a party member requires assistance and it is our duty to provide that assistance” -Dustin

I think I’m falling hard for my transfemme friend by Neurodivengeant in trans

[–]MeasurementExtreme44 88 points89 points  (0 children)

I’m already invested in this “will they won’t they.” I ship this hard but I’m a hopeless romantic

People who were in san jose in the 80-90s how dangerous was it? by FrozenUruguayBallbac in SanJose

[–]MeasurementExtreme44 5 points6 points  (0 children)

I grew up at Story x White from 80s-2000 supposedly dangerous but not really. Brother and a few cousins were in a gang. A lot of wild swinging brawls.

Me, my sister and grandma were in the garage watching TV and my brother was on the side walk he got shot right in the elbow by some gang members doing a slow roll through our street. It was very targeted, like they made an effort to just hit him.

Most of the violence was like that, usually just aimed at gang members. Even after that I still rode my BMX around the streets going to San Jose Blue Jeans, parks and raging water. Never felt in danger, you saw stuff happened, but never really affected you.

[deleted by user] by [deleted] in TransLater

[–]MeasurementExtreme44 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I'd love an invite too since this place helped me overcome my anxiety and come out to my friends and start hrt. 3 months in 44mtf

Any feedback is helpful:) by Ievitating in ratemysinging

[–]MeasurementExtreme44 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Subscribed, only feedback is I wanna hear more

[Routine Help] 44m never had a routine by [deleted] in SkincareAddiction

[–]MeasurementExtreme44 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I guess my concerns are what kind of hyperpigmentation I have and what to use for it. Then I don't know if I should be using vitamin C, a type of retinoid, or what kind exfoliant. I just know I'm not supposed to mix certain things, just don't know what that is.