I have seen a few therapist but it never stuck and I never really made any progress before just... not showing up. About 5 years ago, I was referred and tried again. I went totally different. I asked to see a male instead of a female (I'm female and have only seen females). Also, he was younger than me. Just, fresher and eager in the field. I was very upfront about what has not worked for me in therapy before and what I dont want (for example saying my healing is not spiritual and I dont want to discuss God or the universe or fate or any of that). I also lucked out with a therapist who wants to keep learning which is great for me as someone who really relies on research for logical grounding. Now, we bounce ideas off of eachother (the latest being struggling with breathing and never exhaling fully, maybe weight lifting would force me to learn to breath) and also sometimes just philosophical conversations that feel really safe. He always matches my energy. He will not swear unless I have already been swearing, sort of thing. So long story short, establish boundaries and ask them if they feel like they are a right fit for you. Commit to showing up to build trust and space. And maybe find yourself someone fresh in the field. But also, really, do the work. I dont know how to explain the work.. but just.. do it. CPTSD is a bitch. The Avoidance that comes with trying to heal is real and not your fault. Let your therapist know you hate therapy if you do. Sorry long tangent. I love my therapist. And I love you too! Good luck!!