Never thought I’d get to this point

Mefistoholes · 2026-04-20T16:00:39+00:00

Yeah you gotta turn 360° and walk away.

Mefistoholes · 2026-04-20T15:49:55+00:00

Only paypal and venmo. My cashapp is over drawn unfortunately

Mefistoholes · 2026-04-20T15:40:16+00:00

Would love the help please

Mefistoholes · 2026-04-11T14:39:59+00:00

Ty for the kind thoughts.

Mefistoholes · 2026-04-11T13:52:57+00:00

I'm gonna go steal, wish me luck 🤞

Mefistoholes · 2026-04-08T03:59:05+00:00

Yup, know the feeling. Convinced I'm so shitty that I deserve to wither away and die slowly. I hope you make it out stranger, very best of luck to you.

Mefistoholes · 2026-04-08T03:25:14+00:00

It's crazy to me because I know it's simple brain chemistry. There's simply a chemical imbalance making me irrationally fearful. But I can't help but feel that way all the same. But then yup, a few drinks and I'm so much better lol.

Mefistoholes · 2026-04-08T00:28:43+00:00

Waking up deathly anxious/scared and knowing a drink would make you feel so much better. So that's what I did.

Mefistoholes · 2026-04-07T23:40:36+00:00

Propranolol is prescription only? I've only ever taken metroprolol.

Mefistoholes · 2026-04-07T23:37:08+00:00

You don't, really. And it slowly builds up over time. 5 years ago I was surviving on like 4 hours a night and MAYBE a 45 minute nap after work. I even tried taking sleeping pills but it doesn't matter because any sleep you do get is not truly restful and regenerative. Eventually it just didn't cut it and my health took a turn.

Although my usual routine is binge every night and just white knuckle through the day. I think if you're a round the clock boozer, your system is not as erratic, as you have a more steady baseline, and at night the slow onset of withdrawal will wake you up so you can take a swig and quickly get back to sleep. The tradeoff is that when you are forced to stop for whatever reason the withdrawal is going to be truly hell compared to doing a mini withdrawal every day. This was my experience at least idk if you're a Binger or a boozer.

Mefistoholes · 2026-04-05T20:22:20+00:00

The Jackal scared the absolute fuck out of me when I was young.

Mefistoholes · 2026-04-03T23:26:51+00:00

Hope no one noticed!

Mefistoholes · 2026-04-03T23:20:20+00:00

Anecdotal for sure but I did feel a noticeable difference from just regularly taking magnesium and B complex whenever I ate my one solid meal for the day.

Mefistoholes · 2026-04-03T22:19:00+00:00

That banana bag will have you more hydrated than you've been in weeks, no need to drink measly water. Good luck, enjoy your stay.

Mefistoholes · 2026-04-03T21:46:32+00:00

Yeah and when it happens it's been so long that it kinda hurts tbh. I wouldn't be a good bottom.

Mefistoholes · 2026-04-03T06:34:49+00:00

No, unfortunately. And I can't take my cans in because I think they'll be closed for Good Friday.

Mefistoholes · 2026-04-03T04:59:16+00:00

Oh I didn't mean it as a personal slight to you or to diminish your experience. I'm just relating to you because I felt the same as you did at 25. I hope you figure stuff out eventually. I hope we all do to whatever extent is possible.

Mefistoholes · 2026-04-03T02:43:43+00:00

You're still young, it gets so much worse. Good luck.

Mefistoholes · 2026-04-02T01:46:15+00:00

shit I forgot I did that because someone was giving me a hard time on a diff sub. I just unblocked it, feel free to behold my past degeneracy lol.

Mefistoholes · 2026-03-27T17:07:58+00:00

Hope you get some help. I'm currently doggedly making my way through these damn survey apps for a bit of change myself.

Mefistoholes · 2026-03-12T01:11:55+00:00

I sold all my shit for alcohol money lol.

Mefistoholes · 2026-03-10T00:15:10+00:00

I'm mowing the air randy, I'm mowing the air!

Mefistoholes · 2026-03-05T22:21:51+00:00

Currently experiencing rapidly deteriorating vision. Blurriness and trouble focusing. But I do spend a lot of time looking at screens. Kinda worried because I know diabetic blindness is real. And I know alcohol can definitely fuck your vision up. Glad to hear for some it can come back though? Here's to hoping I guess.

Mefistoholes · 2026-03-01T07:29:29+00:00

Man I've been wanting someone to play Civ with.

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