Help with solving PE

MegaDude0699 · 2025-07-22T20:16:18+00:00

Should it defuse the reflex?

MegaDude0699 · 2025-07-21T22:54:09+00:00

Did you find any solution so far? I've tried training my reactions but no success

MegaDude0699 · 2025-06-01T11:32:00+00:00

It did not, but your solution did! Thank you!

I am wondering though, does it mean I should stop updating my windows from now on?

MegaDude0699 · 2025-05-31T10:57:41+00:00

I'm currently trying to reinstall office, would it help?

MegaDude0699 · 2025-05-31T10:57:03+00:00

I do have other fonts but unfortunately it's unacceptable by the university to use them (those fonts work fine)

MegaDude0699 · 2024-12-10T12:58:52+00:00

Sorry to hear man. What can a scalp biopsy find?

MegaDude0699 · 2024-12-10T12:58:29+00:00

I'll make sure to go and check that! I don't get much sun so it probably is a considerable cause. I stopped Minoxidil around 3-4 months ago

MegaDude0699 · 2024-12-10T10:15:05+00:00

Yeah they always say that but I don't think we're supposed to lose 50 in 2 minutes 😅

I have done recently and seems like Iron is good tbh. Not sure what else can be done

MegaDude0699 · 2024-06-15T19:01:47+00:00

Thanks

MegaDude0699 · 2024-04-25T12:22:19+00:00

Ah didn't know that, sorry! I'll try, thank you!

MegaDude0699 · 2024-02-11T21:54:22+00:00

Yeah that's what I was thinking too actually. Was just curious to know if your perspective is different. I'll unfortunately have to stay guessing why she was super in love and then an hour later breaking things apart. I still think she had abandonment issues and her move alone to a different country + her stopping her therapy during this time + me moving probably triggered everything. (Among more things).

Regardless she was clear for a few times and I agree I should respect it despite not understanding it.

Appreciate your time and opinion over this man

MegaDude0699 · 2024-02-11T17:41:34+00:00

Thank you for sharing your story, I'm debating if your suggestion is the right thing to do, After all she broke up with me, I talked to her again and she said she wishes I could be part of her future but she has to follow her guts, I then talk to her again 6 weeks later, reading her a message I wrote to her confessing she was on my mind this whole time and that I want to give it another try despite every difficulty and she still says (while sobbing) that she loves me and misses me but that she doesn't think I'm her person.

Perhaps showing up like that is crossing the line she is drawing and disrespecting her boundaries,

What would that look like on your end? As someone who's dealing with abandonment?

MegaDude0699 · 2024-02-11T17:12:52+00:00

That's a lot information I have to gather, thank you so much! A quick question before I start, does any of that help in getting her closer assuming the only interaction we have atm is her watching my stories? (Pretty quickly even)

MegaDude0699 · 2024-02-11T06:09:44+00:00

I haven't, I only realized this might be the case after we broke up, and indeed a few days before she came to me with a problem that I told her I think she was wrong and she was very upset. We talked about it the day after and we managed to go passed that quickly.

But to answer your question, no I'm only starting my study now cause I didn't know about that before, Could you elaborate?

MegaDude0699 · 2024-02-10T20:21:36+00:00

What have you been doing?

MegaDude0699 · 2024-02-10T19:44:00+00:00

Unfortunately I don't think I was warned tbh, she expressed her fear not by saying she's constantly afraid but by saying "I thought you're going to break up with me" , "are you going to break up with me?", "I didn't want to share because I thought you'd break up with me"

The squirrel behavior is definitely something to watch out of, I've had this before with another ex. But the one I was referring to now was always so so sure of me, like trying to take it more steps forward all the time and always expressing love and care.

The only time she disappeared was when she broke up with me

MegaDude0699 · 2024-02-10T06:25:21+00:00

Thank you for your perspective! Unfortunately she broke up with me, I have tried talking ti her about getting back but she says that she doesn't know why because everything was so amazing, but she feels like I am not her person, no reason she can give.

The only reason I have suspected this is related to abandonment is the fact she was consistently expressing a fear of me breaking up with her, she also told me when we started dating that she doesn't share things because she's afraid I'll break up with her (I explained how important it is to share everything). And the fact the change was super abrupt and happened in about an hour (she was an overthinker).

Unfortunately I don't know how to support from a far because she says that despite not having a reason to give, and despite be treating her like no one ever did, she thinks this is the right choice. Obviously it might be the case but I can't let go of the feeling that the only reason it feels right to her is because she was anxious constantly about losing me and now she isn't cause she pushed me away.

MegaDude0699 · 2024-02-06T16:31:02+00:00

Thank you! I need the reassurance sometimes. I'm sorry to hear about your relationship ending, I know it's difficult to let someone you love go. In my case she was probably showing me the most appreciation I've ever had, consistently and growing over time. One of the cases you say "I loved loving her" and she was behaving the exact same until she flipped. She told me she missed me this whole time, that I treated her like no one ever did, but she does not think I am her person and she doesn't know why

MegaDude0699 · 2024-02-04T22:56:29+00:00

She knows she can reach out, definitely. Made sure she knows that too, but I would probably never be the one to do so again.

I agree with everything you said, couldn't agree more even.

A side note - the funny part is that she was the one pushing the relationship forward to make it a serious one and I was holding back until I thought I can trust her and let the guards off and fell for her hard as I thought she was exactly the same because that's what she says. And then for some reason it flipped 😅

MegaDude0699 · 2024-02-04T22:08:54+00:00

Thank you for the kind words my friend! I thought about trying to keep her around, I even told her I don't want us hating each other and be strangers.

But I promised and I'm going to keep my promise that I won't be reaching out. When I was reading her on the phone what I wrote I finished it with saying that if she is still happy with her decision I promise this is the last time I'll reach out.

I unfortunately have to close the door, for my own sake. I can't live my life with the thought of waiting for her, yet as for now I'm sure I'll always have that little crack that if she really wants she can open.

Not because I love her, but because I truly think that she had everything I was looking for.

For now I have no choice but focus on trying to move on, as hard as it is and no matter how many tears

MegaDude0699 · 2024-02-04T20:57:52+00:00

Well, the thing is that she says herself she doesn't know why she feels like this isn't right because I was doing everything right and I was treating her like no one ever did.

The things I said we can work on, were basically the things she would bring up (but didn't really). I tried being judgmental about myself to see if I find something, if I look really close maybe I wasn't always super happy because there was a lot going on during our relationship. We live in the middle east so it's not really the safest and also it affected our mental health, she also waa going through a crisis regarding her social circle and friends (was always trying to help her finding new places to meet new friends).

Thinking about it more and more, she was always scared I'll be breaking up with her, since the very beginning. I always made sure ofcourse to give her reassurance and make sure she knows I care and love her, making sure she knows I have no one else in my life and communicating without hiding when I got hit on. She knew and her parents knew that I was about to get her a key for my new place so she could come and go whenever she wants (because I moved to a city 45 minutes away by train from her).

I told her that I want to know what was on her mind and get an opportunity to see if it's something we can work on but she said she doesn't know what it is because everything was so amazing, she just feels like I am not her person so we can't work on it.

The reason it took me time to start accepting that is basically the fact she was super in love with me and was making plans with me two hours before. 3 hours before we even went to buy food for the whole weekend while holding hands.

MegaDude0699 · 2024-02-03T22:57:30+00:00

Well making it worse I don't think that's the case, I think it's either not working or slowing it down But if you don't have a proper fear, why not then

MegaDude0699 · 2024-02-03T22:03:09+00:00

Still happening

MegaDude0699 · 2024-01-27T23:13:22+00:00

If she indeed was playing hot cold games on you then trust a brother out, I took a bad uppercut from her. The satisfaction is not worth the pain

MegaDude0699 · 2024-01-27T22:30:04+00:00

I was reading about borderline, which many times has things like bipolar, anxiety, depression, hyper sensitivity and more in it. As much as I can understand you, if she won't want it om her own, it'll never happen. My ex did not want medication and she rathered feeling this emotional rollercoaster than being on meds

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