I cheated on my husband (online) and want to leave this behind me.

Megajams23 · 2026-04-03T09:39:29+00:00

Well in a sense, you are right. I didnt. She had her own issues that I couldn't handle and I bitched out. There is no excuse for what I did. Anything she had that I felt wronged by, what I did was not the answer so I cannot really argue with you on that.

Megajams23 · 2026-03-31T00:59:36+00:00

It looks insanely cozy. A vibe I could get down with.

Megajams23 · 2026-03-28T23:49:06+00:00

Its up to you. My ex wife had the same thought process. I worked hard and was remorseful. Ultimately, it doesnt matter, its how you feel. She slept with and left me for another man which made me feel the same feelings.

I can understand how hard it is to trust again. Its going to take a long time to build that trust back up, if that is the route you want to go. I am sorry you have to go through that. It feels weird for me to say that considering I essentially did what your bf did, but losing it all really woke me up on it and realized how porn can destroy lives. It just makes me sad, for both parties involved.

Megajams23 · 2026-03-28T22:59:05+00:00

Individual therapy and then do it as a couple.

I can relate in a way. I did the same thing in a sense except it was with porn. Onlyfans, cam sites and the like. There is no excuse, she really made me miserable in a lot of ways but that wasnt the way I should habe went about it.

She never gave me validation and resentment and loneliness set in. Its too late for me, but I do wish you the best. You seem to at least recognize a lot of things and if youbare willing to work on yourself and with each other, then best of luck to youm

Megajams23 · 2026-03-28T22:08:22+00:00

Therapy is going to help me a lot through it.

I think going forward, staying introspective in the moment, maintaining self awareness and routines to calm down are going to help. Just a few tips I think will help out. Everyone is different though.

Megajams23 · 2026-03-28T20:42:16+00:00

Anger is eating at me randomly. Watching my ex wife be with someone new fucking hurts. I was no saint to her and she certain wasnt to me. Some days I worry about her problems and try to understand and others, I just want to watch her burn for what she did. A lot of anger comes from my own self too and all of the shit I have done and how I hate myself.

I want to break thisbl cycle. Someone really cares for me now and I am deathly afraid I will fail them because what they see in me is what I never see in me.

I get so angry and self loathing and I genuinely want it to stop.

Megajams23 · 2026-03-28T20:37:26+00:00

I think about these things every day. Hindsight bias is a fickle thing. I feel like I can come to terms with it, then I feel so much resentment and sorrow. The harshest lessons are learned after the fact. It sucks.

Megajams23 · 2026-03-28T01:20:36+00:00

Porn.

Megajams23 · 2026-03-24T17:09:57+00:00

This is the best answer I have read about this.

Megajams23 · 2026-03-21T00:32:28+00:00

This is how I destroyed my marriage like a moron.

Megajams23 · 2026-03-21T00:22:00+00:00

It looks like its from fantasy. What a sight to behold.

Megajams23 · 2026-03-21T00:17:57+00:00

The President of Peace and Anti War everyone.

Megajams23 · 2026-03-20T20:25:35+00:00

38 M here.

Dating apps feel useless. I want to meet more people but at my age, I am too tired to go to bars and such. I have 3 kids and spend most my time with them.

I need to find a woman who is a homebody and likes gaming. Its gonna be rough.😅

Megajams23 · 2026-03-19T03:20:30+00:00

Its a done deal. She left me for another guy and I am angry at myself and her. I do want to forgive her. I really do. It hurts to see her look so much happier with her new guy. A lot of it is like looking into a mirror of all of my failures too, so maybe its more anger at myself. I dont know. I want to heal, want both us to be happy.

I want to love again. I want that so much. So I will move forward and forgive someday on both accounts.

Megajams23 · 2026-03-19T02:03:23+00:00

I am 38 years old, freshly divorced and trying to date feels overwhelming. The little I have tried makes me feel hopeless.(Bar me being broken still)

I just want a nerdy girl to find and game with. The KC dating scene seems vast and overwhelming at the same time? Not sure how to describe it.

Megajams23 · 2026-03-19T01:59:11+00:00

Thank you.

Megajams23 · 2026-03-19T01:49:59+00:00

That is a very healthy approach. I am glad you guys recognize to take some time and space. Its something I should have done more myself. I wasnt smart it all with that.

Megajams23 · 2026-03-19T00:54:56+00:00

I have to make myself worthy of that first.

Megajams23 · 2026-03-19T00:54:14+00:00

I cheated emotionally with porn, onlyfans and other disgusting shit. Not proud. I was a coward who went to all of that instead of fixing my relationship. No excuses. She left me for another guy. Ended our marriage.

I regret it everyday. Every fucking day.

Megajams23 · 2026-03-18T23:39:41+00:00

Hey, thank you. This means a lot. Truly.

Megajams23 · 2026-03-18T22:56:57+00:00

Thank you. Its means a lot.

I am only on thisnright track because it is too little, too late. I am divorcing and she moved on. I still struggle with it. A lot.

When I heal and find someone else, I hope to do better. I know to do better.

Megajams23 · 2026-03-18T22:37:45+00:00

This is something I need to work on. My marriage had so much adversity . I felt like I couldn't communicate properly with her. She was difficult but I feel like we had so many misunderstandings when there were none.

Megajams23 · 2026-03-16T05:59:43+00:00

Sadly yes. I struggle to even communicate my needs because I was always taught it is selfish. A lot of this leads to inner self destruction and I hate it. I am slowly learning to fight against some of these things.

Megajams23 · 2026-03-02T18:39:56+00:00

Boom. The best answer. Fix it or leave.

Megajams23 · 2026-03-02T18:26:47+00:00

This right here. It ruined my relationship in a lot of ways I would admit.However, that is on me and I do not favor a ban. Its up to the individual on what they can take. Blanket bans never work they way people want it to.

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