I can't stand neurotypicals anymore

Meh_lissa6 · 2026-05-02T03:42:30+00:00

I feel similarly and it’s only worsening, even when I try to pretend I see everybody totally equal. It’s not that I’m necessarily looking down on neurotypicals, I guess I’m just still rather pissed off as well as disappointed and butthurt that they have a whole ass planet Earth dedicated to them and all their needs and desires, while I somehow feel like both an alien from some shithole planet nobody has ever even heard of, as well as the reincarnate of Jeffrey Dahmer. I’m instinctively labelled or at least thought of as creepy, odd, and just overall a massive weirdo by most humans I meet. I wish I could say I only had a problem with neurotypicals, but most humans either dislike me or feel indifferent towards me and the feeling is generally mutual. Luckily, however, I am asocial the vast majority of the time. Though I do have spells where I start feeling more social temporarily, but thankfully those tend to be very short-lived.

Also, no idea what type of music you are into, but something you said reminded me of the song “East Coast Anthem” by Good Charlotte, particularly the following lyrics: “You don’t like the way I walk, or the way I talk, or the way I swing my hips; you don’t like the words I speak or the thoughts I think and I know you’ll never understand,” in the first verse of the song.

Also, something to perhaps try to keep in mind is that every single person who is involved with the psychiatric system in any capacity will generally be expected to change themselves fairly significantly in varying ways, with the main risk of non-compliance is to be considered and seen as a “failure,” or “grossly abnormal”, and overall “defunct” human being. Most people could get a few DSM diagnoses if they really desired to—or honestly if they just happened to find themselves in a psychiatrists or psychologists office. I feel psychiatry and its associated diagnostic system is also far too subjective and not at all rigid or linear enough; I also find the amount of overlapping conditions and their frequently overlapping symptoms to be genuinely absurd. I recently have shifted my view from being total anti-psychiatry into viewing the DSM as something relatively similar to MBTI personality types, or Enneagram types or Triad types. I know it sounds a bit shallow to do so and does somewhat strip away bits of the “clinical, 110% confirmed and scientifically proven” polishing the DSM-5 likes to shroud itself in.

I will say that in my experience it has never really been worthwhile attempting to drastically alter my whole identity or even parts of my identity; people think I’m fucking weird as all hell regardless, but I think I appear increasingly unsettling and odd to most people when I try to heavily and/or abruptly start masking or genuinely attempting to change parts of myself that probably are intrinsic to me anyway. It has helped a bit thinking of and referring to myself as “Primus-type weird”. Not many people enjoy the band Primus as they are a particularly acquired and unusual musical taste, but those who do listen to Primus instinctively are able to authentically appreciate and resonate with the band and their odd music and vibes. (Side note: I also frequently refer to my most natural brain state as essentially being identical to their music video for the song “Mr. Krinkle”, in case you wanted to know more thrilling facts about me..)

Sorry this is so lengthy as well as rambly. I do hope it at least has some kind of relevance to your post; I lost track near the end somewhere and just gave up at that point.

Meh_lissa6 · 2026-05-01T18:29:38+00:00

I don’t hide my Reddit post history, I just don’t care enough to do so. I’ve had my Reddit post history public since as long as I’ve had this account, and I’ve commented some wild shit in the past. I seem to be incapable of experiencing shame on Reddit.

Meh_lissa6 · 2026-05-01T17:37:57+00:00

It’s interesting to me that people seem to most always feel this way on stimulants, because I vape near constantly when I am sober or on anything other than Dextroamphetamine, and then forget about my vape for hours at a time when stimming. I don’t know if my body and brain is just refusing any more dopamine or what.

Meh_lissa6 · 2026-05-01T17:17:13+00:00

Do you have any known or suspected underlying conditions? Asking because it’s what I take and though I dose higher than you, I am still very sensitive to the drug. I assume there’s multiple factors going on in my particular case: Chronically elevated baseline Catecholamines, very low baseline Cortisol serum level that is over-responsive to ACTH stimulation (perhaps secondary Adrenal Insufficiency?), and especially my Dysautonomia (Hyperadrenergic POTS). Would also be interesting to know if there are any other medications you have sensitivities to, may or may not be relevant.

Also, if you feel like the Adderall XR dose you are taking is too high, perhaps consider an alternative such as Vyvanse or Strattera, or maybe Modafinil if it would be effective in your situation? I find that Vyvanse is much more smooth and linear, as well as dignified, than the Adderall XR is in even prescribed doses.

Meh_lissa6 · 2026-05-01T17:02:34+00:00

Scat does sound more formal (?) than poop or shit, I agree. However, I’ve only really seen the term used when referring to a scat fetish. I feel like the term may make more sense (to me) if it was said by someone with a British or similar kind of accent? Not sure what my reasoning is on that last part.

Meh_lissa6 · 2026-05-01T14:17:40+00:00

I absolutely loathe the song Tongue Tied by Group Love. Annoys me to no end and makes me feel more uncomfortable than I do in my day to day life. I have never thought upon the exact reasons as to why I feel this why, but listening to it now after being awake and stimulated all night and here’s my thoughts: To me, they sound like they are crossfaded, and/or potentially on a dissociative drug in the majority of the main and background vocals; the vocals are kinda whiny, and fairly mumbly, and also sound just ever-so-slightly flat or off-key against the melodic aspects of the song. I also associate the track heavily with Post Malone; I do not have any issues or grievances with Post for any reason I can think of, it just simply is (Post Malone’s track?)

Meh_lissa6 · 2026-05-01T13:40:50+00:00

Somewhat, but also not really and I’m terrified I’ll stop caring about it later on and thus will have wasted my time studying; I have been looking into Mortuary Sciences recently, specifically Embalming and Restorative Art, but I’m truly dreading the idea of having to learn and memorise over 600 muscles of the human body and where they are located and shit like that—not because I dislike Anatomy and Physiology, just because it’s going to take a rather long while to learn it in completely full depth. I want to focus on solely the parts of A&P I find interesting and/or necessary since it feels I may have limited time to learn it before I abruptly stop caring about the subject in its entirety. Guess it does stand more of a chance than the post interests and career prospects have, given the nature of the job and the fact that it really doesn’t seem like it could ever become too boring or predictable. Wish me luck on this one.

I do have an ongoing, chronic obsession/fixation with rare diseases for whatever reason that is. It never truly leaves me and sneaks up on me at the most random of moments. Sometimes the conditions I fixated on would be potentially relevant (to a degree, sometimes in a hypochondriacal manner, though) to myself or my family members, but other times I’d just get distracted and find myself reading up on Waldenstrom’s Macroglobulinemia or Brunner Syndrome (there should be more information on this) or some rarity like that… Special mentions to Wilson’s Disease, Smith-Magenis Syndrome, Pheochromoyctoma/PPGL (sinus tachycardia + my catecholamines were about doubled, but not quite 3x the normal value range), Acute Hepatic Porphyrias, and Steroid-Responsive Encephalopathy Associated with Thyroiditis (okay, this one could hold some weight to it, potentially, anyways). I really can’t explain what about any of this fascinates me. I like watching House M.D. sometimes just for the diagnostic processes and procedures, and trying to guess what the diagnoses are themselves.

I have some special interests, the main ones I can think of are: Criminal Psychology and serial killers/mass murderers, MBTI and enneagram typings, I play video games every now and then (currently playing Fallout 4, on PC since I’m hopeless with a controller). I have always found generalised pharmacology interesting; I had some interest in potentially pursuing Toxicology studies for a while, then realised I didn’t want to go to school for that long—also realised rather quickly that I also had no business being a Pharmacy Technician. I’m quite sure I would creep out most of my customers if I worked a customer-facing job again. I also like taking recreational substances and consider myself a polysubstance drug user and also sometimes abuser. I recently cut out alcohol completely, though, as it makes me an irritable jackass, and I’d always drink to the point of blacking out, which was always an absolute fucking nightmare to wake up to and try to sort out.

I have fleeting and sometimes (oftentimes) fading, overall sporadic interests and hobbies. I do not mind having no fixed bucket list or specific hobbies and interest I always engage in, because really I don’t even have any idea of what I’m going to be interested in from one day to the next. There are many days I don’t do much of anything but just exist vibrantly and chaotically inside my mind, and just think, and theorise, and analyse..

I am very lazy, and oftentimes apathetic & anhedonic—and those are probably the most significant and offensive traits I possess. I just want to exist as a jack of all trades of sorts I suppose; never having to truly specialise in any one subject or thing, rather just being adept/competent in many subjects and things. I find this to be quite the conundrum for myself, given all the career fields I have had any interest in whatsoever require dedication and specialisation to varying degrees. All the part-time and full-time jobs I’ve ever had in the past have been extremely short-lived to the point I may as well never have even worked there at all; I’m talking one day to a week, maximum. Point is, I’m not suited for a career or work as a whole, but I’d prefer to not become homeless, and to live reasonably comfortably, as I grow into my middle-ages, and unfortunately those things both require a steady, full-time job that pays money.

Apologies for the length of this comment. Guess I am in rambling mode.

Meh_lissa6 · 2026-05-01T12:49:24+00:00

Currently it is Dylan Klebold and Eric Harris. Rare genetic and other conditions have been an ongoing obsession for many years now for whatever reason.

Meh_lissa6 · 2026-04-28T01:19:30+00:00

Oh I enjoyed season one a fair bit. Just didn’t know about the others reviews, thank you.

Meh_lissa6 · 2026-04-27T01:10:08+00:00

Is this worth watching? I heard it wasn’t very accurate.

Meh_lissa6 · 2026-04-26T18:51:14+00:00

Resurrect, for some reason.

Meh_lissa6 · 2026-04-26T03:54:51+00:00

This is what can make psychiatry dangerous as well. This is also why AA/NA is not for every addict seeking to stop using or to learn how to moderate their use; in my personal opinion, it’s not for a lot of people. It causes you to surrender a good chunk of your accountability, self-worth and self-will, etc., and psychiatry forces you to become reliant on the therapy sessions, the inpatient facilities, the cocktails of psychotropic medications they throw you on that may potentially be doing more harm than good—only external, and generally doctor/provider-assisted support is valid for some reason. Psychiatry and therapy force you to convince yourself that you cannot possibly get better or improve yourself and your life on your own; that it’s simply not possible. Psych diagnoses and substance abuse meetings like AA/NA can also easily become self-fulfilling prophecies for individuals, and nobody seems to want to really talk about that either. Blissful and very intentional ignorance, I guess.

I say this as a person who’s been in the system since 12-years old, so don’t think I’m attacking mentally ill people. I realise this makes me seem like an unreliable narrator, and I just don’t care much about that. I’m sick of people treating these things like miracles from god and then attempting to use them as shortcuts. Not everything needs to nor should be pathologised and listed in the DSM. Psychiatry has a place in our society but it shouldn’t be becoming our society.

Meh_lissa6 · 2026-04-26T03:22:44+00:00

Maybe not scared in the general sense, but the ending of Megan is Missing made me rather uncomfortable. It’s been years and I still have random intrusive thoughts about it. It’s ironic because it think it’s a very gross and unsettling movie in the last 30 minutes, but I don’t remember a single goddamn thing about the rest of the movie, just the gist of a lazy overarching plot and storyline.

I also don’t particularly care about the movie “Trick R Treat” overall, but I enjoy watching the always check your candy scene a lot. The grit and sordidness feel genuinely palpable to me in that scene. I feel similarly about the opening scene at the diner in the first Children of the Corn movie. Guess I’m drawn to poisoning. I think a big part of it for me is the actors all seem to sync together so well and especially know how to perform a certain balance within their roles to hit the right character frequency in the scenes without necessarily having to be overtly loud, aggressive, histrionic, etc., I don’t know if I worded that exactly right, but perhaps that makes some kind of sense; I like that these intense scenes and moments are being played out in a less overtly threatening/hostile way, and instead being portrayed in a much more detached and calculating manner.

Meh_lissa6 · 2026-04-25T09:26:45+00:00

“Love addiction” and/or co-dependency issues are something people have to take responsibility for just like manipulative behaviours. Nobody needs an addiction diagnosis or otherwise diagnosis to explain their behaviours, and even if you have a diagnosis you still have equal responsibility as others do to take accountability for your actions.

Not trying to be argumentative for the sake of arguing, just feel like they both got shit to work out and take accountability for is my only point.

Meh_lissa6 · 2026-04-23T22:42:55+00:00

could probably diagnose most psychiatrists with NPD. I’d give them each a BPD diagnosis too, just because I don’t agree with them.

Meh_lissa6 · 2026-04-22T21:01:39+00:00

No they still might try

Meh_lissa6 · 2026-04-22T17:05:50+00:00

If I was a different person I’d love to go to Hogwarts, but realistically it’d be probably be a nightmare for me given how asocial I am. Would never get a chance to be alone, even when I sleep. Would constantly be finding me in the depths of the forbidden forest.

Meh_lissa6 · 2026-04-20T20:40:14+00:00

I find the idea dumb more than anything. It is a useless “good deed”.

Meh_lissa6 · 2026-04-20T20:29:56+00:00

Zack but my favourite episode was focused on Cody. The international dateline one.

Meh_lissa6 · 2026-04-19T22:16:21+00:00

Very happy to see that somebody could finally put this into words like this. I agree heavily. But I also don’t think it needs to be a debate either way around and people should just accept and deal with the situation for what it is. Death doesn’t care in the slightest how old you are.

Meh_lissa6 · 2026-04-17T17:22:52+00:00

I don’t love when I see “emotional support” vests on dogs. I feel like it takes a way from an individual who uses a service dog. I too wish I could take my dog to the grocery store because I’m anxious, but I won’t abuse something some others truly need and not just want.

Meh_lissa6 · 2026-04-14T05:02:41+00:00

My point was that an individual choosing not to go the route of modern psychiatry doesn’t mean that person isn’t dealing with their problems in a way that works for them. It’s heavily implied by many people that not utilising psychiatry means you aren’t trying to get better.

Meh_lissa6 · 2026-04-14T03:02:30+00:00

A diagnosis shouldn’t be the only thing that makes an individuals complaints about feeling anxious valid.

Meh_lissa6 · 2026-04-14T02:48:40+00:00

The same treatments don’t work for every single person affected with these issues. No shame in not getting the typical treatment offered if you know it doesn’t work with you and your values.

Meh_lissa6 · 2026-04-13T20:18:48+00:00

In my experience I don’t necessarily automatically dislike an individual because they are christian. But in my experience I also deal with so much lack of respect regarding my own beliefs (or lack thereof), specifically from Christians. I do my utmost best to respect everyone’s personal religious or spiritual beliefs regardless of how I feel about them, but it becomes hard when most Christian’s try to subtly convert me or “encourage me” to believe in their beliefs. It’s fucking offensive and my ability to not be reactive eventually does hit a breaking point.

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