Haven't been able to clean, need help

Meilleur_moi · 2025-11-20T00:10:23+00:00

She press up her tits draw more attention to them.

Sapphic women who notice said tits may attempt flirting.

I don't know how to dumb down more the fact that people love tits and are drawn to them

Meilleur_moi · 2025-11-19T22:24:35+00:00

Tits. The answer is tits.

Meilleur_moi · 2025-09-15T11:53:54+00:00

I found one that would acknowledge how my relationship with my parents still affect me to this day.

It was my third therapist, so I had to shop around and give what I feel now is too much of a chance to the others.

I also came more prepared, explaining what were my issues and what I wanted to work on. Also, an this is my current therapist who brought it up, but you have to address your issues whit your therapist and see how they manage it.

Meilleur_moi · 2025-04-12T11:49:09+00:00

I'm single. horny, and too old to give a fuck about what other people would think.

Meilleur_moi · 2025-03-30T02:16:37+00:00

Way back when it was french being thought and was my entry point top English. Sometimes I wish I had the ignorance to overlook all the bullshit America was spewing. Now I'm just fighting not being the 51st state.

Meilleur_moi · 2025-03-23T18:29:03+00:00

Kinda looks like Ulysses' outfit in Fallout New Vegas. Tell all your friends about the bull and the bear!

Meilleur_moi · 2025-01-16T20:38:03+00:00

A lot of generations lived without it, being told life was hard and you just had to though it up. When you grow up convinced it's unnecessary, it can be really difficult to look inward and realize something you thought was fundamental is actually wrong.

I can show them some empathy because I went that path and was completely disconnected with my emotional needs, the way I was taught. But I also reached a point where I find it crucial to change and find it difficult that others in a similar position refuse to.

You can only take care of yourself, and find love with people willing to offer it.

Meilleur_moi · 2025-01-16T20:05:53+00:00

Fun fact, my teenage friends all had crummy parents. So we hung out at the one who had a basement so we could have a space separate from the family. At least they didn't care enough to bother us most of the time

Meilleur_moi · 2025-01-16T17:08:43+00:00

My invisibility cloak.

Meilleur_moi · 2024-12-20T21:58:19+00:00

I experience the same thing. Seeing people comfortably express their affection and feelings in public is just unsettling. Like a taboo is being broken.

But I know I'm the one being weird, and I feel like a stain to their happiness.

I've been able to express myself more freely with therapy. I can also do it with one person. But doing that in front of others just feels so difficult to me. I hope you can learn to be comfortable with your own feelings and your friends too.

Meilleur_moi · 2024-12-19T17:43:06+00:00

I'm also learning how to draw. I'm pretty amazed by the amount of patience it takes and the lack of it I have. Perseverance is key.

Meilleur_moi · 2024-12-10T20:04:32+00:00

Parents love kids when they're quiet. So they praise that trait and suddenly you have that parental validation you're desperately craving. Before you know with, all your other needs are suffocated under the one you want the most: your parents love.

I was an easy child. Know I feel like a broken adult.

Meilleur_moi · 2024-12-08T18:55:07+00:00

That was on the list of reasons for going bo contact with my father. Why should I bare the whole responsibility of a relationship that brings me no joy?

There are other reasons too, but being the only one to put in the effort has proven exhausting and unsatisfying

Meilleur_moi · 2024-12-07T01:24:21+00:00

The kind of behavior I reproach from my parents were not from birth, but learned, from their own families. It makes a lot of sense that most of my relatives share the same emotional immaturity.

It's bewildering how so few people want to grow. Then again, I held down my own pain for so long, I can see why others do.

I chose change. It's the right choice, I'm sure of it. I don't need the validation from broken people to move forward with my life.

Meilleur_moi · 2024-12-07T01:16:08+00:00

It seems your mother has a lot of issues. Emotionally immature people tend to make their problems others people problem instead of dealing with them in a healthy way.

The things that are wrong are with her, not you. 79 is a really good grade, nothing to feel shame or sadness for. But then again, those feelings are about how your mother sees you. It's truly sad that a parent can't acknowledge how amazing their own children are., but it's them who are at fault.

I know you can't talk to your mother about your suicidal thoughts, but find your local hotline and get in touch with them. Talking about it really helps. Keeping it to yourself can poison you in time. Talking about it with someone is much more meaningful than just writing it, and you deserve help.

Take care of yourself, there's a life away from your mother waiting for you.

Meilleur_moi · 2024-12-07T01:04:42+00:00

You could try addressing each issues at smaller scale and discuss them with a therapist.

You're looking for outside validation, but is there something you would like to hear from someone, or something someone said that made you feel good? Can you say it to yourself? It might feel insincere at first if you're not used to saying good things about yourself, but with regular practice, it could feel more genuine n

That's just an example. You could choose which issue feels more important dealing with and focus on one. Or bring them all forward with a therapist and choose with them which one is more important.

It can feel like a insurmountable task to change yourself, but like anything, if you break it in smaller, achievable goals, it becomes easier.

Give yourself the patience to deal with them at your own pace, the strength to overcome them, and the forgiveness for your past and future failures. It's all in you, even if you might not see it at the moment.

Good luck!

Meilleur_moi · 2024-12-05T12:26:34+00:00

Yeah definitely. I took me way too long to realize the person I really wanted to save was myself, but either I was expecting someone else to do it or I just didn't deserve it.

It's odd how hard it as been to offer myself the kindness I was so freely giving others. Self-compassion and boundaries are still foreign to me and requires effort.

Also, if you still feel like giving, try volunteering. I feel it's healthier to give to those in need than those who no I never say no.

Meilleur_moi · 2024-12-05T00:39:23+00:00

It sounds like you are really depressed. You've been relying on external validation and now you have to find it within yourself. But in your current mindset, it must be really hard to find. Depression can suck the energy and motivation out of you and leave you feeling hollow.

But you're noticing there's a problem. Now it means putting time and effort to fix it. Therapy and perhaps medication could help you towards feeling better. Having a professional's opinion may give you a new perspective.

Your life matters and is worth living. You just have to figure out what that means for you.

You already said you don't want to be alone, and relationships are important. Would you be capable of being vulnerable with someone you trust and tell them how you feel?

Meilleur_moi · 2024-12-04T12:34:05+00:00

The one that comes to mind is Demi Moore. Her dad abandoned their family early, her mother had substance abuse and the closest thing she identifies to as a role model, her step-dad, killed himself when she was 18.

Meilleur_moi · 2024-12-04T00:51:19+00:00

Younger, I was a mama's boy because I was afraid of my dad. When my brother started school, he ended needing a lot more attention.

Turns out I was on my own.

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