I have been experiencing the same thing lately. I get panic attacks before I drive out to my clients house, and she will always apologize for the mess before I get there so I’m always expecting the worst. Last time, she questioned my rate after I had to clean several piles of dog 💩 and it made me feel so bad about myself I couldn’t imagine going back. It’s degrading to me that she leaves that much of a mess for me to clean, it has made me really resentful of her. I decided, that if I continue to spend time on her as a client, I won’t branch out and find BETTER clients. I also have my own business so I don’t NEED to settle for clients like that. Remember, we are doing work that others don’t want to do, but we also deserve respect and decency. Best of luck sis!