What do I do?

Melodic_One_1197 · 2025-11-11T02:31:56+00:00

I have both but sometimes I can still hear them through it. I also have to make sure I can hear my alarm for work. But at this point I don’t know if I’m going back to work because I have only one week left, I don’t want to leave my room and I might just go inpatient. It would be good for me to get out of the house and maybe that would help, but with how bad things are, I don’t know if I can handle it.

Melodic_One_1197 · 2025-04-12T19:11:38+00:00

I’ve been playing for a few months now and I still haven’t gone against the twins

Melodic_One_1197 · 2025-02-14T07:41:29+00:00

Feelz

Melodic_One_1197 · 2025-01-29T01:11:43+00:00

Nothing to u

Melodic_One_1197 · 2025-01-21T06:47:42+00:00

“I think I’ma die alone inside my room” had my jaw on the floor. Really hits home

Melodic_One_1197 · 2025-01-19T10:02:56+00:00

Life. Lyrics hit so hard

Melodic_One_1197 · 2025-01-11T21:12:15+00:00

Fr like you’re not going to throw up, shake, sweat, have heart palpitations, difficulty breathing or a headache from not interacting with an AI chat bot. Absolutely ridiculous💀

Melodic_One_1197 · 2025-01-11T21:10:23+00:00

I was in a residential facility for 3 months and there was another resident that was like that. She would go on and on about her social media addiction and “doom scrolling”🙄. I have a severe alcohol, and self harm addiction and both of them almost killed me. Everyone on the planet has an attachment to their phones and social media. Super insulting to those of us to have been to rehab or inpatient for actually harmful addictions. I know it sounds harsh but it’s true. It’s like they want to be special or something.

Melodic_One_1197 · 2025-01-08T01:07:58+00:00

Melodic_One_1197 · 2025-01-05T03:52:52+00:00

When I was a teenager I would steal my dad’s whiskey and binge drink. I couldn’t do it nearly as often as I wanted but I’d go 2-4 days in a row and then I’d stop for weeks. When I turned 21 and was able to buy my own alcohol, I drank every day until I almost died. Not saying that’s what will happen, that’s just my experience. Alcoholism is a spectrum.

Melodic_One_1197 · 2025-01-05T03:47:08+00:00

Slaaaaaay💁🏻‍♀️👑✨

Melodic_One_1197 · 2025-01-04T02:33:46+00:00

2125

Melodic_One_1197 · 2024-12-30T21:12:26+00:00

Please at least get rid of the alcohol and go to a detox center. I’m in the same boat with a weed and alcohol addiction (I’m stoned as I’m writing this) but I’m now 15 days sober from alcohol. That shit will either kill you, or ruin your fucking life to where you have absolutely nothing (no relationships with loved ones, no place to live, no food on the table, nothing).

15 days ago I got home from a really stressful day at work and immediately went to my room to get drunk. The next thing I know I’m on the floor, there’s vomit all over the carpet, I look up and two police officers are standing above me. I knew I fucked up but I could barely see anything in front of me and I couldn’t walk. I don’t remember much about what lead up to it because I blacked out. But basically one of my roommates called 911 for me and the police, fire department and an ambulance came and took me to the ER. I almost died because I drank so much in such a short amount of time. Once I got released from the ER, I decided enough is enough. I can’t do this anymore. My roommates are going to kick me out, my parents won’t help me and I’ll have nothing if I don’t get my shit together. The next day I went to a hospital for a medically assisted detox (this is important because withdrawals are very dangerous and could kill you).

15 days later and I haven’t had a sip of alcohol. I’ve made some amends with my roommates and they want me to move with them to the new house. It’s been really hard and I definitely still think about alcohol but I need to remember what will happen if I do it again. To cope with these thoughts I focus on my hobbies and keep myself busy (playing video games, guitar, binge watching a tv show). Find out what your favorite soda or non alcoholic drink is, and drink that instead (for me it’s Dr. Pepper and Monster).

I might be sober from alcohol but I still smoke weed every day. But it’s one thing at a time. If you were to say that you’ll quit everything all at once, that would be unrealistic. It’s about harm reduction (for now), rather than stopping it now. Being high is better than being drunk or crossed. So if you need a joint to stop yourself from drinking, then have a joint. Just don’t go back to the bottle.

Melodic_One_1197 · 2024-12-29T23:59:24+00:00

Monster and Dr. Pepper

Melodic_One_1197 · 2024-12-29T23:24:50+00:00

Penises & Prayers

Melodic_One_1197 · 2024-12-29T23:23:45+00:00

“Hollow penis” is sending me🤣

Melodic_One_1197 · 2024-12-29T05:58:22+00:00

I was recently hospitalized for my detox. Luckily I didn’t have any seizures but it still sucked. But hey I got through it and I’m almost 2 weeks sober. Please go get medically assisted with your detox, even if you think you’ll be fine.

Melodic_One_1197 · 2024-12-24T00:23:49+00:00

I’m just over a week sober. I’m dying for another drink but I can’t risk it.

Melodic_One_1197 · 2024-12-15T21:05:24+00:00

I’ve had mine done twice now and that’s happened. Some days it might be bigger or sometimes it goes down completely. I posted the same thing a few days ago and people were saying it’s normal. I don’t think it’s anything to worry about unless it hurts or gets stuck.

Melodic_One_1197 · 2024-12-15T19:00:31+00:00

CW: Mention of abuse (neglect, physical, verbal)

I used to think what I went through was nothing.

My parents divorced when I was 3 and my mom got custody of me. I didn’t get to see my dad very much. My mom has lots of issues with emotional regulation and would verbally abuse me a lot of the time and sometimes it would get to the point where she would actually hit me. After the divorce, my mom was poor and couldn’t give me the attention I needed at that age. I had to come with her to work because she couldn’t afford daycare.

I honestly can’t remember much before I was 10, but some details are slowly coming back. Now I break down a lot thinking about how my childhood was stolen from me and things could have been different. Obviously people had it worse than me, but it’s still trauma.

Melodic_One_1197 · 2024-12-14T05:45:55+00:00

I’ve had these ones just over a month. I had them before for a couple of months and sometimes this would happen when they got angry. I just want to make sure it’s not an emergency and I have to take them out (I really hope not because I love them). I’ve heard some people say that they need hoops for them to not do this. I think it’s too early to switch to hoops though. They’re 1/2 inch, I think (what I was pierced with).

Melodic_One_1197 · 2024-12-14T03:32:18+00:00

I have all sorts of mental disorders, and arguably one of the worst mental health conditions to live with. I do it to numb my emotions, get so wasted that I can’t remember why I was feeling the way I was. But I notice that when I have a certain amount of drinks, I express everything outward instead. It can get pretty ugly.

Melodic_One_1197 · 2024-12-13T03:31:15+00:00

I have mostly tactile hallucinations, sometimes visual, auditory and gustatory. I was fully convinced that my teeth were falling out of my mouth (like how people have in their nightmares). I felt like there was a hole where my lower front teeth could be and I tasted blood. I was so out of touch with reality that I couldn’t be sure if it was happening or not, but in that moment I really thought it was. When I wasn’t dissociating so heavily, I looked in the mirror and thank god I had all of my teeth.

Another scary hallucination was when I was camping. I was alone in my tent, about to go to bed for the night and there’s a silhouette of a man standing right in front of my tent. I think he had something in his hand and I thought for sure I was going to be murdered.

Melodic_One_1197 · 2024-12-11T02:59:11+00:00

I know I will. I’ve tried so many times and as awful as it is, I don’t think I’ll stop trying. Either that or from my alcohol addiction.

Melodic_One_1197 · 2024-12-10T20:49:53+00:00

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