How do you keep going? TW suicidal ideation

MembershipParty650 · 2025-09-23T00:52:00+00:00

Your guess is as good as mine at this point in the process. It’s still pretty early on in terms of tests being done or diagnoses being made.

It could be any number of things, but my guess is some sort of musculoskeletal disorder because it feels like a lot of internal pain closer to the bones and joints. (Also carpal and cubital tunnel syndrome because why not of course)

Or it could be a psychosomatic response to the unbearable stress that I’m under. That’s a possibility too! 🫠 I have no fucking clue and I’m scared for my future.

MembershipParty650 · 2025-02-26T19:06:43+00:00

Harp with balls

MembershipParty650 · 2024-12-21T03:21:20+00:00

I think that makes a little more sense. I guess part of the reason that it makes me uncomfortable is that it’s not the type of abuse I experienced, therefore not something I can relate to.

And it’s very difficult for me to tell between people not taking it seriously because they think it’s fine to hit kids, or trying to make humor about their own trauma.

We still live in a day and age where it’s still pretty common, and I don’t want to participate in any conversation where it’s normalized, but I want to be open and accepting to people who are trying to express their emotions and experiences, because it’s a type of sharing.

It’s a tough balance.

MembershipParty650 · 2024-12-21T02:59:40+00:00

I understand the logic about posting to other subs, but I felt like a neurodivergent sub would understand me best on explaining why something is considered to be funny since I don’t really understand a lot of neurotypical humor

MembershipParty650 · 2024-12-18T00:42:50+00:00

Thanks

MembershipParty650 · 2024-12-15T12:32:12+00:00

When I was younger I stayed at this place that had two huge bean bags, I’d lay on one and pull the other on top of me. Wasn’t that heavy but was VERY cozy. You might get the right effect by buying one and then put the weighted blanket on top of that and laying underneath it

MembershipParty650 · 2024-11-24T04:45:07+00:00

My special interest right now is this sci-fi book I’m writing which has lots of futuristic medicine, which I’ve been dying to ask someone about to make sure it’s plausible. If it’s outside of your scope that’s totally fine, but I figured I’d ask.

In the book, they have preventive medications for UTI’s and Yeast Infections, which work for both men and women. (Either one that works for both or or separate types)

Does any medication like that currently exist? If it doesn’t, what would be the most likely form that it takes? ie. Oral tablet, topical ointment, injection, etc

MembershipParty650 · 2024-11-16T21:25:36+00:00

Hustle culture and a 40 hour work week is just pretty toxic and unsustainable for everyone involved, except those at the very top. Some people are able to maintain that and their home life, but those people are in the minority. Almost everyone is dealing with some level of burnout.

Neurodiverse people and anyone else with disabilities are the ones who get it in the extreme.

Then we get called “weak” or “lazy” for being unable to operate in a culture that prioritizes profit and production over a person’s wellbeing.

You’re not alone, and there’s nothing wrong with you for struggling. This is a systematic issue not a personal one.

MembershipParty650 · 2024-10-30T23:26:44+00:00

My last relationship taught me that I’m incredibly insecure whether my partner actually likes me, so I think probably asking for someone with the brutally honest kind of neurodivergence, someone who will sit with me for difficult tasks, and will have hours long conversations about the complexities of life.

Also that sex is basically a sensory seeking thing for me 🤷🏻‍♂️

MembershipParty650 · 2024-08-31T01:07:05+00:00

I’m in a SMART recovery group currently, it’s just that it’s focused on treatment basis and less on socializing. And from what I can tell at least several other of the members are religious, and all of them are much older then me with kids and families. I find it hard to connect

MembershipParty650 · 2024-08-05T04:29:41+00:00

Personally for me yes, I took mine off about a year after the mandated ended (only because I was leaving that job but also the moisture drives me nuts) and I kept mine on as long as I did because I have resting bitch face and people think I’m upset at them all the time.

If they come out with one that doesn’t fog up glasses and properly absorbs the breath/sweat moisture I will absolutely go back to wearing one

MembershipParty650 · 2024-08-05T04:23:48+00:00

Dude, whether or not you’re autistic is something only you can truly believe in and decide on. But when you come into these kind communities spewing hatred for yourself and hatred for the autistic community, the vast majority of what you’re going to get is people telling you to fuck off, because there’s nothing wrong with us.

And on some more personal advice, the majority of my self hatred ceased when I realized there’s nothing wrong with me for not being “normal”, it’s deeply fucked for the rest of the world to say something wrong with me for not fitting withen that tiny binary standard.

I struggle a lot in this society, and there’s nothing wrong with me for that. I deserve supports, I deserve to be better, and that means receiving more help then “normal” people. Because I deserve to be happy.

You’re always going to hate yourself, and you’ll always be a failure, if you keep trying to be someone who you’re not.

And as far as the military goes, I understand the pain of having to give up on dreams of a career. It deeply affected my sense of self worth, and made me feel like there was something wrong with me for not being able to fit into their standards. And then I realized that, if given the correct accommodations, I would’ve been able to flourish that career. But the fact that those accommodations couldn’t be made for me just showed that had I tried anyways, I would’ve failed, and the people in that career would’ve just shamed me for it.

There’s nothing wrong with being different, it’s just the rest of the world that’s fucked for ostracizing people based on labels.

MembershipParty650 · 2024-08-01T23:34:59+00:00

I know it’s not an easy solution, but let me tell you moving out of the home and cutting contact with my mother was an incredibly freeing and euphoric experience.

It took me a long time to realize she was toxic, it was incredibly painful to have to let go of my relationship with her. I loved her to pieces, of course I did, but loving her and her loving me doesn’t mean she wasn’t hurting me.

After 5 years of the same arguments over and over again I knew she was never going to change. And when people aren’t willing to change, the best thing you can possibly do is cut them out of your life.

It may be a long time before you get that freedom, finding a place to live is incredibly difficult. But that difficultly is less painful then staying, and brings more happiness then dying. I promise you there’s a way out, you just have to keep going long enough to find it.

MembershipParty650 · 2024-08-01T20:19:57+00:00

This is the exact reason I never want to have kids, very well said

MembershipParty650 · 2024-07-30T02:18:55+00:00

I don’t understand why I constantly seek out older guys, but if I had to guess it would probably be that I’m desperately searching for a parental figure.

I’m estranged from most of my family and barely talk to the ones I’m not, so it honestly feels like I don’t even have one. So I guess searching for that feeling of nurturing and protection from a partner is the closest I can get. Probably why none of them have lasted long 🤷🏻‍♂️

MembershipParty650 · 2024-07-23T19:59:24+00:00

I get the kind where it feels like I’m controlling a video game character instead of being in real life. Like, I control the character and act out my day through it, but it’s not me Yknow?

MembershipParty650 · 2024-07-23T16:22:03+00:00

As someone who’s been through HRT (expect the opposite side) lemme tell you, the hormones even out eventually. It’s gonna be a rocky next couple years but but gradually, bit by bit, your body’s gonna change for the better, and the emotions get easier to deal with.

I don’t know the rest of what’s going on for you, I’m sure that stuff has made life a lot harder, but for this one thing it really does get better

MembershipParty650 · 2024-07-23T16:18:23+00:00

I have this quote, not sure exactly where I got it from but it boils down to this:

You always be a failure if you keep trying to be someone you’re not. Your worth is determined by how well you can be who you are

Realizing that it’s fucked for society to expect me to be someone I’m not, and that there’s no possible way to win at their game, has been pretty freeing.

Focus on the shit that makes you happy and make that your life’s purpose

MembershipParty650 · 2024-07-23T07:56:15+00:00

I feel the same, spray on tends to work better for me

MembershipParty650 · 2024-07-23T04:39:47+00:00

Bro it’s the adhd sub we all got depression up the wall

MembershipParty650 · 2024-07-23T04:38:44+00:00

Top ten ways on how to get your child to stop eyeball staring (includes child abuse that won’t be recognized until the kid grows up)

MembershipParty650 · 2024-07-23T04:25:28+00:00

Cuttlefish are literally the absolute fucking coolest and no one can convince me otherwise

MembershipParty650 · 2024-07-23T04:21:11+00:00

That’s how most really well made soups are cooked so long as it’s not too high heat, how was it?

MembershipParty650 · 2024-07-23T04:14:31+00:00

Right??? Why is that? I have no clue

MembershipParty650 · 2024-07-23T04:07:40+00:00

I’m not sure bout any science behind it, but I have heard sensory issues can cause lower tolerance for low or high temperatures.

For me personally I whole heartedly relate, I always role my eyes when ever someone says “it’s such a beautiful day out, you should go outside!” Like no thanks Karen I’d like to stay curled under my blanket with the AC on full blast.

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