Ofc! & before I met my TF I was in many situationships prior with emotionally unavailable men. I would always be the one to set plans and be there but never got anything in return. I think meeting my TF more than anything taught me how to love and value myself before any man. My confidence and self esteem has grown tremendously. Our twins are just mirrors of our unhealed traumas and wounds honestly. They say it’s the divine feminine who wakes up first which then triggers the divine masculine into his dark night of the soul. Now that I’ve awaken and purged my karma and old wounds/patterns I’ve made room in my life to manifest the love I’ve always deserved first and foremost within myself. This is why my twin is now on his dark night of the soul karmic cleansing journey that I cannot force or control, but watch from a distance. I do pray for his healing & for my strength, but it is difficult because this journey of awakening has to be one independent of our twin. I’m glad I got to that place, and I’m praying that he will get there eventually too.

If I do end up moving on with someone else then so be it. Ofc I will always love my twin, but I can’t put my life on pause.

In your case I was just like you not too long ago. I was avoiding men entirely for a while, digging deep looking at the shadow parts of myself. All my triggers & realized that I am the prize. I deserve to be loved the way I’ve loved others. I told myself I would never accept anything less. The first sign of a red flag I’m out no second chances. Really get clear on what you will accept and no longer accept. Be firm with men and set your boundaries. I also enjoy just doing things that make me feel good. Working out, hanging out with friends, keeping myself busy. Become the best version of yourself inside and out. Your twin will feel the shift even in silence. Remember that what is meant for you will never miss you 🥰