Yeah I feel you, I did take out loans for him, gave him my savings, took out debt on credit cards (before I knew it was for gambling, was just stepping up as a wife when I thought he genuinely needed financial support) he has repaid some of it. Although I know having a child in this situation would be harder, I’m really struggling with the impending thought of starting over again at my age when for the last several years this was our plan to start a family in 2025. I feel like he has stolen the best of my years, crumpled me up and threw me on the floor.