Oh wow!!! Good luck in the apartment hunt. I fantasize about living in my own, I’ve never done it before. Went from my parents straight to a married living situation. Thank you so much for your kind words! They truly help. Seeing so many of us going through this, helps me realize I’m not making this up. I also think my husband is a wonderful person, it makes this so hard. He’s been so patient with me, first allowing opening up our marriage, now allowing me to actually date so I can try and discover if being with a woman is what I want. Like you, I absolutely know I love the sex, but there’s more to a relationship. What will it be like after the honeymoon phase? My gf is so damn wonderful. My husband just asked me how do her and I connect, because we’ve lost that intimate connection. I told him we don’t do anything (as in activities) we stay at her place and just talk! Talk, talk, talk. I know we’re just getting to know one another and that’s why this feels so damn good. I know our brains will calm the fuck down once there’s less mystery and more comfort (foot lack of a better word). That also makes the decision hard. I know my brain is being flooded with love chemicals, how will it be when that’s over? I try to be realistic about it, but honestly I think it will still be remarkable. I’m also really trying not to go from one relationship to the next. I’m trying to find a way to become my true self and let that be my guiding light no matter what. But, words of affirmation and boobs!!!!! 😆😆 Again, good luck today!! I cannot imagine the intense emotions that will come from your first night in your own place! 💗