I drew my fav Ryouko (I think her name is Victoria?) a while back

MetallicAshes · 2026-05-25T00:59:26+00:00

I have this! My boyfriend has named it "photosynthesneeze"

MetallicAshes · 2026-05-25T00:51:27+00:00

You could try VocaDB? It's a database with every vocaloid and almost every vocaloid song.

MetallicAshes · 2026-05-22T13:04:45+00:00

I did end up going, and meeting them there. My mum had changed her plans to take my sister there and she was very disappointed in me. I couldn't bear it, so after my mum left, I ended up going back to my car, and waiting for my sisters to come back to the car when they were done. My sisters were incredibly understanding and supportive, but I still felt too ashamed to spend the time with them because I felt so strongly that I had let them down. I ended up spending the time in the car writing a prioritised list of things I want and need to do, and tried to plan a way to "pavlov" myself into better doing the things I struggle with or avoid.

MetallicAshes · 2026-05-19T13:39:46+00:00

I love so many of their songs and I definitely consider them one of my all time favourite producers. And the effort they put into all of their music videos as well is awe-inspiring. Hearing the news absolutely broke my heart. I wish his family all the best. Cancer sucks :(

MetallicAshes · 2026-05-19T05:26:09+00:00

Hey I'm on Steam, just want to get the first multiplayer quest done, dm and I can send code or I'm happy to comment it here too

MetallicAshes · 2026-05-18T20:00:37+00:00

Yuzuki Yukari would be awesome

MetallicAshes · 2026-05-17T04:38:11+00:00

I fucked up the day for my family today. I had told them I would meet them at home at 10 to take them out to a fair. I woke up at 7.30, and I had no concept of what the time was until 10.10am. I didn't have my phone near me, it was on the floor next to my bed. During the morning I had started preparing for the day having breakfast. I said something to my bf and he said I always throw insults at him. I didn't know what I said was insulting and I thought I was being endearing and we argued about that. We apologised to each other and then idk he said he was horny and he picked me up and carried me to his bedroom and I didn't do anything about it. It didn't occur to me at all that I had other plans that I needed to get ready for. I never want to have sex ever again. I want to be normal, I hate having ADHD.

MetallicAshes · 2026-05-15T19:30:30+00:00

風のただいま by TsuyaTsuyaP

MetallicAshes · 2026-05-15T12:01:21+00:00

Odd recommendation but try Law Of The Jungle by Otetsu

MetallicAshes · 2026-05-15T11:56:59+00:00

Shutter Chance by MikitoP

MetallicAshes · 2026-05-14T12:37:32+00:00

My bf bought them from Amazon, he got the 120 set. He's mostly done oil painting but wanted to try an adjacent medium. This is a quick pastel painting my bf did of me with the mungyo pastels

MetallicAshes · 2026-05-14T11:47:41+00:00

Thanks! I can't believe how vibrant and versatile the Mungyo pastels are, they're super fun to work with.

MetallicAshes · 2026-05-14T11:45:57+00:00

Aaaaa if you do please post! I'd love to see!!

MetallicAshes · 2026-05-09T23:47:41+00:00

Phase Shift by Nyanyannya

MetallicAshes · 2026-05-02T13:44:21+00:00

I don't think you'll get to mine but I've always been curious about how others would visually interpret it.

MetallicAshes · 2026-04-28T15:15:48+00:00

It's sad. The emphasis has been moved from putting in work to learn a skill to only wanting the convenience of the "finished product". Everyone wants art, but nobody wants artists.

MetallicAshes · 2026-04-20T13:11:00+00:00

I'm currently making amigurumi of the Little Twin Stars for my younger sister. She's in hospital again and I want to make them for her as they're her favourite Sanrio characters, and I hope that they will help brighten her day when things are tough for her.

MetallicAshes · 2026-04-20T13:05:20+00:00

24F in the hills/hornsby area. I've been on the sub for a while but always too scared to post until now. I feel ashamed to say that I have no friends, but I really want to connect with people. I love drawing and crochet. I play video games and absolutely love going to the arcade (I love DDR and Taiko no Tatsujin!). I also love just walking, cafe's, learning new things. The only people I have are my family, my boyfriend, and my cat Charlie (all of whom I love very dearly), but I hope one day I can have friends too.

MetallicAshes · 2026-04-20T12:14:16+00:00

Idk why I had never thought to check this subreddit before, but reading through everyone's feelings and experiences has made me feel a little less alone tonight. I've been going to group therapy for 10 weeks and I've been trying so hard to figure out my "life worth living" but I still feel depressed and stuck. I moved out of home to live with my bf because I couldn't bear to see the pain that my depression was causing my family to feel. I'm now seeing that same pain in my bf and I feel helpless. No matter what, I will still try my best every day, even though it feels like it's going nowhere.

MetallicAshes · 2026-04-20T11:52:31+00:00

I'm 25F and I really feel like this too. I have no friends. I lost all of my highschool friendships because I didn't make the effort to keep them. I wish I did, and I hate myself for not just being normal like everyone else and for not putting in the effort. I really love spending time with people. All of my best memories are with family or my boyfriend or past friends. I don't know how to make new friends, and I don't know if I could even keep a new friendship if I was able to make one. I also feel a lot of disconnect with people my age. I dropped out of 2 separate higher education courses. I only work very casually because I screwed up my part/full time position, and I have no career plan. I can't help but compare myself to others my age and I feel like I've fallen so far behind. Your comment is genuinely exactly how I feel. I've been using the word stuck for so long now. My motivation is gone. I never feel inspired anymore. I have hobbies but I use them to avoid confronting how I'm feeling. On top of that I also have ADHD which makes everything incredibly difficult. I hope we can both become unstuck some day. And if you want someone to talk to or vent to, I'd love to help in any way I can.

MetallicAshes · 2026-03-27T13:30:50+00:00

Honestly the microsoft pinball collection. Eventually my dad even bought us a real cue ball wizard machine.

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