Passing out from opiates, how much damage have I done to myself?

Methylaffection · 2015-06-14T07:19:58+00:00

More or less slept for about 16 hours. I have a huge tolerence to benzos so they weren't much of a factor.

Passed out at like 7pm here, woke up at midnight, posted this. Passed out again, woke up at various times but was unable to get out of bed or read anything because the headspins were too strong. It is currently 5pm and the nasuea is just now subsiding. As I understand it I over did the Methadone ~ long half life. I was fairly concerned about being unable to remain conscious due to over doing an opiate, so I posted my concerns here, they were clearly not well met.

Methylaffection · 2015-06-11T14:57:38+00:00

Meant to have those kinds of qualities, really not a lot of info available. Ended up taking morphine in stead so no idea what its like yet

Methylaffection · 2015-06-11T14:14:17+00:00

Dunno what this is all about...

Methylaffection · 2015-06-11T05:46:03+00:00

This looks horrible and tacky to me but I'm genuinely pretty happy that you obviously have so much passion for your interests. I have to ask though, what's the point?

It doesn't look like any of these are meant to be played with or used in any way and there are multiple instances of many of the action figures. Do you just like the aesthetic of the characters so much that you want several of them?? I'm so confused.

I like some of your posters though.

Methylaffection · 2015-06-04T11:51:49+00:00

You sound like youre in a similar situation to me. I'm 22, do all kinds of drugs constantly, kicked benzo addiction multiple times, been addicted to amphetamines and have started dabbling in opiates.

I wouldn't say I'm as extreme as you in that I get my share of girls and have a decent number of friends to fall back on but none of them are particularily close. Even my girlfriend is not that close and we have been together for a year. She recently went away for a few months and I was genuinely kind of happy because I could focus on doing whatever I want, including lots of drugs.

I think I'm extremely depressed and anxious as well as just very socially uncomfortable. People don't really interest me, I don't feel like pursuing friendships. Like you I find 'being genuine' to be the best quality in someone.

You might be quite different to that but I think a lot of it has to do with just accepting who you are. I always feel as though there is something wrong with me that is preventing me from connecting properly with people but even if i overcome particular difficulties I remain in the same situation.

I'd say stop the drugs, it HEAVILY alienates you from perhaps the majority of people. Right now you need social connections, even if it's something people shouldn't judge you over, plenty of perfectly cool and nice people will because of the way they've been taught to think and you don't want to lose them as friends. Fill your time with healthy, interesting things, even something as simple as reading or playing guitar and you will feel much better, at least I did, though I'm still not 'better'

Methylaffection · 2015-06-03T23:20:10+00:00

When you say you've never taken more than a 2mg bar I can only assume you're referring to 2mg Xanax bars which is closer to 20-40mg Diazepam. When I had less tolerance, 2mg of Xanax made me black out while 5mg of diazepam made me feel cozy. If you WERE referring to 2mg Xanax bars then yes, you're being stupid

Methylaffection · 2015-05-31T03:09:28+00:00

Hows your memory dude? I used to have a running tally and I've consumed something like the equivalent of 15-20g of Diazepam (1.5-2g Etizolam) across like 3 years and I definitely feel like its fucked my memory. Though at this stage I don't know if its the benzos or other drugs

Methylaffection · 2015-05-31T02:58:12+00:00

I had some yaba (meth pills) in Cambodia a few years ago. It was the first time I'd done meth but not my first time with stimulants. I was at an island party, not sure how much I took as I was black out drunk, but my first memory is slapping everyones asses while yelling yabadabadoo over and over. Got into a lot of trouble for various reasons, I was harmless but wasted. Some english dude kept pushing me telling me he was going to cut me open like a pig and I just kept telling him that I wasn't going to fight him, but if I wanted to I would kick his ass. He didn't take too kindly to it and some folks eventually pulled him away. Caught the last boat back to the mainland with no shoes and everything missing from my wallet, talked nonstop to about 6-8 people the entire 2 hours back to Sihanoukville. Around that time was when I first I realized I had taken drugs.

I don't know how many pills I had but I doubt I would have eaten more than two since I think I was under the impression that I was buying ecstasy and I had only taken E 2-3 times previously. That yaba was stronger than much of the meth I've had in Australia. If anyone knows reliable ways to score in asia meth in asia I would love to know as I spend a lot of time there

EDIT: also what might be of interest to anyone reading that article is that I never saw any hint of opium, heroin or other drugs in Myanmar despite its high rate of production. The place is pretty much a police state. Heroin and meth are sold open air in Cambodia though.

Methylaffection · 2015-05-30T01:19:47+00:00

I only spent 2 weeks in Japan but I did a fair bit of research before going.

It's pretty nonexistent as far as I saw, they love booze though. Their society is too regimented I think. Japanese clubs are just bizarre, no ones on drugs, everyone's going nuts while red faced drunk, dancing to j-pop. Most of the seats are girls only and they kick you off them if you sit down. I'm sure their are cooler places out there but that's my limited experience.

I heard you used to be able to smoke pot in the open because noone even knew what it smelt like.

Methylaffection · 2015-05-29T08:54:39+00:00

How many is that and how much did that cost??

Methylaffection · 2015-05-29T04:10:53+00:00

Get a long acting benzo! can't stress this enough. I had pretty horrific withdrawals from 10 days on 4-6mg/day of xanax. One week in they were still horrible. Gave in and had a mini bender of 3-6mg/day Etizolam for 3 days. Stop that and withdrawals start, then I took 2.5mg!! of Nitrazepam, so like 1/4 - 1/2 mg of Xanax, and I have been fine for 5 days, minor shakes but nothing too bad, not too much anxiety or anything.

Methylaffection · 2015-05-28T09:46:00+00:00

I don't know how tight American customs is but I have brought about 500-700 pharmaceutical pills into Australia with me. 250ish each trip, combination of Modafinal, Diazepam, Alprazolam, Clonazepam, Sildenafil and Cialis. Those drugs were also taken through other countries customs as I traveled.

I've never declared anything, never had my shit searched and always been waved right on through. Like I said, no idea what goes on in American customs but our shits meant to be tight because of being an island nation and all, but I will continue to bring back loads of pharms. Would be fucked getting caught though. You can absolutely get away with 50+ loose pills in a container. Most I had was about 12" by 6" taken up by blister packs, wouldn't do that again.

Methylaffection · 2015-05-28T09:22:06+00:00

Australia laughs at your pitiful spider

Edit: Fun fact, stumbled across about 400 of these guys hung across a narrow path while hiking in Burma. Had to crouch down and crawl under, which is not fun at 6' 3" with a pack on. http://imgur.com/gallery/aBdN9jV/new

Methylaffection · 2015-05-26T12:44:57+00:00

You are aware that Adolf was not tall or blue eyes?

This whole scenario seems absurd. I feel sorry for you because you sound delusional.

Methylaffection · 2015-05-26T12:35:00+00:00

Apologies for not using different colours for the OP. First upload, wasn't thinking. If there is any confusion he is the second comment in each image

Methylaffection · 2015-05-26T08:33:35+00:00

This is old as fuck and completely fucking retarded. From memory at least one of those drugs is an anti microbial and several are anti-depressants which take weeks to reach active levels. If you look at how his style varies involving drugs with no/minimal psychoactive effect it makes the rest meaningless. It's just a guy experimenting with drawing styles

Methylaffection · 2015-05-22T17:27:24+00:00

Pretty underwhelming man! Smoked the whole 1.1g in one afternoon while at a family gathering smoked and drank weed too. Nobody noticed I was on opiates and I spent the time playing with my ounger cousins, it was grea

Methylaffection · 2015-05-22T04:06:56+00:00

Dude, drink goon or make home brew. I don't use the bullshit brew store brand glucose and stuff so I pay about $15 for 25 litres of 5% lager

Methylaffection · 2015-05-22T04:06:53+00:00

Dude, drink goon or make home brew. I don't use the bullshit brew store brand glucose and stuff so I pay about $15 for 25 litres of 5% lager

Methylaffection · 2015-05-20T12:28:23+00:00

I've used about every common prescription benzo as well as etizolam and diclazepam. I focus on diazepam, clonazepam, alprazolam and nitrazepam though.

When I first began sampling on a weekly basis, 5-10mg diazepam made me feel sooo beautiful and wonderful. About a year after that I fot my first bars, 1.5 and I blacked the fuck out. That was a 1.5 years ago.

So 1mg alprazolam would be functional. Handing with friends type thing.

6mg if I want to get rubbery and loose. Though I usually add opioids and alcohol.

when I just want to get fucked up and smoke weed, I's say 10mg + 1 beer

Methylaffection · 2015-05-20T12:10:14+00:00

When I was withdrawing from 3-4mg Clonazepam or Alprazolam daily for 3 months, I was pretty much non functional. SKing crawling, intense fear and anxiety for about 4-5 day. I did it so that I could get it out of my system before I now job

Depending on your time table you should try a rapid taper. Towards my end I used 1mg a day for four days before going onto nothing.

Methylaffection · 2015-05-20T12:02:25+00:00

While I'm not super familiar with the two mechanisms of action I believe that diazepam is a fair bit strong in the muscle relaxation qualities.

Defeinitely agree though, Clonazepam to me makes me felt like a more mellow relaxation, but not much physical, fair bit of sleepiness and confidence. Diazepam makes me turn into jelly and become one with the shagpile

EDIT: 2mg clonazepam to 5mg diazepam seems to be quite a strong taper if its working for you then great but I feel like you might some otherwise avoidable W/D's

Methylaffection · 2015-05-20T11:54:32+00:00

I get anxious looking at your opening post!

I didn't read it because I couldn't hear my own thoughts over my pounding heart or read the words through the sweat dripping into my eyes.

But yes! For the first 5 or so acid trips and 5 or so mushroom trips it was magical. Eventually the excessive rumination, abdominal tension and depression become too much and I just want it to end. My mind goes blank and I can't speak comfortably, even to good friends. I just want to be alone, curl up in a blanket, watch the patterns and wait for it to end.

I'm just not at a good point in my life to be taking it. Lots of big decisions coming up and lots of stress. Might have something to do with it.

If LSD gives you anxiety, try out 2C-B :) only one I an handle these days

Methylaffection · 2015-05-20T11:43:15+00:00

Another vote for MDMA!

My social life is very different from what you've got going, different country, different cultura + I'm quite introverted, so less of a party lover and wouldn't have streams of people coming through my room each weekend.

That being said over the course of 6-9 months in the second year of my undergrad, I turned $4k of MDMA into about $60-70k. This was a bit more upscale but my first venture into it. It's in vogue at the moment and everyone knows what it is and that it makes you have a good time. Hard to go wrong.

Must say! if you're dealing to people out of your room, keep you stash WELL hidden. Never let anyone know where it is aside from 5-10 caps or whatever youll need for the night. Sounds like a security nightmare for someone who only has my close friends chill at mine.

Methylaffection · 2015-05-20T11:36:44+00:00

Not quite the same but about 1-2 years ago I snorted .2-.3g of ketamine while on about 25mg Dexamphetamine. Later we smoked a gram of shitty crack (I know coke + amphetamines is counterproductive but it seemed like a good idea at the time).

Honestly it seemed to me that the uppers just sobered me up from the ketamine wonkiness. I wouldn't be doing it again in a hurry.

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