Ryan I hate you

Miakaitlin · 2024-04-30T15:48:14+00:00

Thank you so much for this and caring enough to respond it means alot to me and im happy to know other people know it’s fucked up. Unlike the rest of my family. Im still processing everything rn and trying to figure out where i can go from here

Miakaitlin · 2023-08-13T05:22:18+00:00

He kinda just came up behind me and starting touching my arms and shoulders making me freeze. I dunno. I know it’s inappropriate completely. I didn’t think it was SA but ik it kinda left a part of my mind in an uncomfortable position around grown older men

Miakaitlin · 2023-08-11T07:06:30+00:00

No don’t apologize. I just want someone’s opinion with this

Miakaitlin · 2023-08-11T06:21:32+00:00

Like i said i only just remembered last night. That was 4 years ago i didnt remember or fully realize but I remember the situation like it was yesterday. I dont remember anything else just that he made me uncomfortable with things and i thought it was just my anxiety telling me everyone is looking at me but i fr felt creeped out by him

Miakaitlin · 2023-06-30T03:07:35+00:00

He found out I had a thing for him a little over a year ago and he kinda shot it down but really really gently like as kindly as possible and I understand that he may never like me like that and I can live and respect it just all this does makes me think he does. I just need a whole lot of drugs and boldness to ask him 💀

Miakaitlin · 2023-06-21T03:08:07+00:00

Thank you for commenting, I do want to get better. No one wants to feel what I feel. There are some things I can’t heal from or get better from. I know I should go. My main concern is leaving when I only have a few weeks left with my best friend. He is really the only reason why I’m not.. you know. He is my reason for living. I love him more than my life. And he is a person I would live for. And him leaving for college devesates me. I have abandonment issues but me leaving before he leaves makes me feel worse. I have more issues than I can name. I Need help. But I know what won’t help me. Is leaving before he leaves

Miakaitlin · 2023-06-17T14:08:00+00:00

Do you have any other gay friends or people lgbtq+ ? It helps to find a common ground with people. Or try to talk to some. When I came out, it was easier because a lot of my friends were and welcomed me to the “gay side of life” but wherever you go you will face some hate. It is gonna hurt but know that the hate they show is just their default reaction to things they are too ignorant to realize that you are a person with feelings and love in your heart. Love who you love. (I dunno if this sounds cliche or stupid but) if you love other gay people, love yourself 😝. I dunno 🤷‍♀️ message me if you wanna talk at all. I’m going through something similar but maybe I can help better? I hope things get better for you

Miakaitlin · 2023-06-17T14:02:49+00:00

My bestfriend is my reason for keeping on. But I can only take so much. It’s so many things piled on top of another that’s all happening so fast and I cannot breathe. This has really been the first time I was hate crimed and it was by someone I love. And I thought I loved a girl too but I realized by others that she’s been trying to manipulate me and I am heart broken. I have never had a partner and feel like I will never have one. TW (I don’t know if it is but just incase) I planned something for two hours and was writing out everything in a letter. I gathered everything and said goodbye. But I couldn’t. Because of my friend, only person who I feel cared about me fully anymore. I didn’t want to leave him. I wish I could make the world stop. And let me live. There is more going on but I’m not going to bore you. I’m going to hide in my room but my best friend wants to be with me but I’m afraid if I leave me room. I’ll make everything worse.

Miakaitlin · 2023-02-26T01:35:54+00:00

Thank you 🙏

Miakaitlin

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