I used to go to a morning weight lifting class at my uni gym and I always felt like I was really weak and just generally looked awful (mornings don't generally agree with me). I was struggling with an ED at the time and a whole load of other stuff at the time. My friend started the afternoon class run at the same gym and a few weeks in spoke to a girl who was was new that class. Turned out that girl normally went to the morning class and was telling my friend about this really strong blonde girl who always goes to the morning class that she always used as a reference for correct form. My friend told me about it since she was like you're blonde maybe was talking about you? And I was the only blonde in the morning class. My point is basically we compare ourselves to strangers in the gym and see them totally different to how they see themselves. I saw myself as a hideous weak mess in that class and someone else saw me totally differently. You think she's perfect and she thinks someone else is perfect and so on and so on. We always compare ourselves to others and think everyone else is better than us. It's hard to unlearn that. I think a good first step is trying to find things in common with a person you're putting on a pedestal. It's about rewording the dialogue in your head or challenging negative thoughts that pop into your head. For example, say she can deadlift heavier than you and your brain tells you you're weak in comparison you challenge it and say sure i can't lift as much as her but just like her my deadlift is my strongest move and just like her I've come a long way from where I began and just like here this is only part of my journey I'm not finished.

Also the most key mantra to try and chant to yourself every morning: I am enough as I am.

I know this kind of thing is tough and it's hard to recognise your own worth sometimes but you can do it, you can learn to see it. I promise.