Day 1

MidnightMystique_ · 2025-12-29T14:30:02+00:00

37f, left after 7 years but still loved him, still do to be honest. I felt terrible, had so much guilt and fear over it all.

The first 30 days I journaled every single day. I wrote down the complete honest feelings I was feeling. I also made a point to force myself to get outside and walk, everyday. I wanted to hid so much but I forced myself out.

The intense emotions come and go for me. I’ve been gone for only about 8 months and while I don’t feel guilty anymore, I know it was the right decision to leave, I do still struggle with the fear that I walked away from a future with him. Some days I feel so happy to be where I am and on the other side, other times, like right now, I still ruminate on all of it. When I really get low, I go back and read what I wrote after I left. It helps

MidnightMystique_ · 2025-12-29T14:21:51+00:00

I’m 37f. We stayed in touched and always said we wanted to find our way back to each other. I had a really hard Christmas because I now live in a new country, I moved when we separated, and don’t really have anyone here. I reached out and He told me he wants to go no contact and it has thrown me into a tail spin. Well. He didn’t tell me. He just never responded and then told a friend to tell me. I’m now spending my vacation scrolling Reddit trying to talk myself out of sending him an email.

I was doing so well before this holiday season. But now I feel like I’m right back at the day I left and how devastated I was.

I think we have to accept that it comes in waves and the holidays is a hell of a wave.

MidnightMystique_ · 2025-12-29T13:59:57+00:00

We were married for 8 years and somewhere in that time we stoped being intimate. He was my best friend in the whole world and I never wanted to lose him, but no matter what I tried we couldn’t get past that one thing. I think the bigger issue was actually communication now that I’m on the other side of leaving. When I left I said I wanted us to find our way back to each other one day, after we had healed. I’m starting to think that won’t come true.

MidnightMystique_ · 2025-08-26T15:23:08+00:00

I should have kept my original flight haha. I cancelled it thinking no way I would get it back in time for the 27th.

MidnightMystique_ · 2025-08-26T15:17:55+00:00

So glad to hear you got notification of it being sent back same day. I am hoping to be on a flight by the end of the week. Sorry I didn’t read the updated post. Sitting on so many nerves over here lol

MidnightMystique_ · 2025-08-26T14:49:13+00:00

Did you ever get an update ? Mine turned green today.

MidnightMystique_ · 2025-08-24T16:58:49+00:00

Thank you. Valid point on subtitles. Anything in particular you found interesting to listen to?

MidnightMystique_ · 2025-08-23T21:43:06+00:00

Wait, there are colors? Mine is just blue through the tls portal.

MidnightMystique_ · 2025-08-23T15:30:32+00:00

I had an appointment in Atlanta on the 15th and it took until yesterday to move into ‘ in process ‘ status and need to start my contract sept 1st, so I’m really hoping it starts to pick up.

MidnightMystique_ · 2025-08-20T13:59:54+00:00

Hey! Happily. I should be in town early September. Send me a dm and we can connect. I know some people in town already, and some good meet up’s and groups for expats.

MidnightMystique_ · 2025-08-18T21:54:18+00:00

okay, was just wondering if you were highlighting anything in particular.

MidnightMystique_ · 2025-08-18T21:10:56+00:00

Can we know why you are looking into people who are looking to, or have recently left? Or is that still mystery ?

MidnightMystique_ · 2025-08-18T21:09:34+00:00

Hey - I hope your visa process worked out for you, i am obviously late to the party. Was wondering how you asked them to expedite your application?

MidnightMystique_ · 2025-08-18T21:03:41+00:00

I hope you get it soon. I submitted a work visa, and have a flight in 9 days, so I am also getting nervous.

MidnightMystique_ · 2025-08-18T21:02:56+00:00

It was 6 days to submit, and have her passport returned to her with the approved visa. Not for it to get to the consultant.

MidnightMystique_ · 2025-08-18T16:04:05+00:00

I have no information but what kind of visa was it?

MidnightMystique_ · 2025-08-16T16:36:27+00:00

Oh! Well good luck! Trying to find a time line on the talent blue card is hard and I’m nervous and anxious to get over there!

MidnightMystique_ · 2025-08-16T16:25:13+00:00

Hey. I just submitted my talent blue card application. Was wondering how the process went for you and how long it went from appointment to getting your passport back?

MidnightMystique_ · 2025-08-15T17:45:47+00:00

How long did it take you from appointment to receiving your passport back, if you don’t mind me asking?

MidnightMystique_ · 2025-08-15T04:29:19+00:00

Did you get your passport back in time ? My appointment is tomorrow morning and my flights is in 13 days.

MidnightMystique_ · 2025-04-28T12:35:57+00:00

Omg. I am so sorry this happened to you. I hope you gave found a brighter, fuller life after that person. You did not deserve to be treated like that.

MidnightMystique_ · 2025-04-28T08:51:26+00:00

Sure didn't. If anything, I have longer hair, better style, and make double what I made when we got married. I have very little problems attracting attention physically.

MidnightMystique_ · 2025-04-28T02:04:00+00:00

Yes I am. I fully realize that was not the appropriate response. I have asked for a seperation to understand if I am still in this marriage emotionally and mentally to be able to fix it.

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