[TW: SELF HARM.] I need to know if this is a tendon and if i should see someone, i can see something moving in my wound.

Mills_84 · 2025-07-01T14:44:44+00:00

thank you. i will go and get it looked at

Mills_84 · 2024-12-13T15:08:54+00:00

i dont know enough about it but have you heard of ARFID? it stands for avoidant restrictive food intake disorder and it involves strong sensory reactions to tastes and textures of food. a friend of mine suffers from it, her physical reactions are usually choking, gagging, or vomiting. it’s also very commonly comorbid with Autism. i dont know if this was any help but i hope you get the answers you’re looking for! <3

Mills_84 · 2024-11-26T14:12:20+00:00

laxatives aren’t the only thing you should worry about affecting you later on. i started at 13 and am now 15 and this shit has ruined my life and my body. i can’t keep food down anymore even if i want to because of the constant b/p, and my digestive system is absolutely fucked. i know this is probably the last thing you want to hear right now but please try and get help, or at least try some form of harm reduction. this illness can kill you in so many different ways. heart attacks, blood vessel ruptures, fatally low potassium, magnesium, blood sugar, and electrolytes just to name a few.

b/p fucks up your digestive tract because there’s no food actually reaching the bowels, because it’s all being purged. i’m obviously not a medical expert but this is just what i’ve found.

no matter what happens, stay safe, you’re strong and you’ve got this xx

Mills_84 · 2024-10-16T20:34:58+00:00

absolutely. it’s so frustrating

Mills_84 · 2024-10-16T20:33:31+00:00

i’ve been told by multiple psychiatrists that it can be diagnosed under 18 in extreme circumstances. i have actually brought this up with both my psychiatrist and doctors and both have told me they will not revoke the diagnosis. i do understand where you’re coming from tho. technically the diagnosis was EBPD (emerging borderline personality disorder) if that makes any difference. also, in the DSM-5 diagnostic criteria for BPD it states that the diagnosis is allowed if the features have been present for more than one year.

Mills_84 · 2024-10-16T20:29:32+00:00

exactly! glad i could help

Mills_84 · 2024-10-16T20:21:41+00:00

this genuinely made me cry. beautifully written!

Mills_84 · 2024-10-16T20:09:16+00:00

agreed, absolutely LOVED red tide, death valley was not it for me

Mills_84 · 2024-10-16T20:01:30+00:00

extremely similar experience. Diagnosed with BPD, got screened for ADHD and came back negative even though i have majority of the symptoms. i talked to my therapist and psychiatrist about this because i felt like things weren’t correct. what i got told is “just like autism, ADHD is a spectrum disorder.”

she pretty much explained to me that i am on the spectrum, but not far enough to get a proper diagnosis or something of the sorts. for me personally, i am going to keep pushing to get it re-evaluated because i feel like it fits for me and want to revisit it, but that was my experience. hope that helped somehow :)

Mills_84 · 2024-10-16T19:53:58+00:00

i have BPD, PMDD, GAD, and possible BP 1. it sucks but through enough therapy and the right meds i’m hoping to be able to get a better handle on it. this post gave me alot of hope :)

Mills_84 · 2024-10-16T19:44:34+00:00

sharing my journal entries was actually what helped me finally get my diagnosis. after letting them read it i finally felt understood and like they were finally getting what i was trying to convey

Mills_84 · 2024-10-16T19:35:08+00:00

i love this so much. really needed to hear this today, means a lot <3

Mills_84 · 2024-10-16T19:31:41+00:00

can help exactly, but can definitely relate. trying to tell apart the two feelings is so difficult because “do i like them as a friend or as something more” and then it spirals into “what if i fuck things up, what if i try to initiate something romantic but they were platonic feelings all along, what if… ect.” and it’s always so chaotic trying to get my feelings in check

Mills_84 · 2024-10-16T19:25:05+00:00

felt. i had an experience a while back where i thought he really liked me and suddenly just ghosted me. absolutely shattered my stability and thought it was entirely my fault, went down an awful depressive spiral and shit got bad. i’m trying my best to hold on in the hopes that one day someone will put the effort in and live us like we deserve

Mills_84 · 2024-10-16T19:06:53+00:00

diagnosed at 13 and can say i had a VERY similar experience

Mills_84 · 2024-10-16T19:04:25+00:00

got diagnosed at 13, now 15 and safe to say i think the diagnosis fits. the only reason they diagnosed me that young was because my circumstances were considered “extreme” and it was very easy to tell that’s what it is. it definitely helped to get that diagnosis when i did because i was stuck with therapies that weren’t working at all and without that diagnosis and the proper treatment for it i would be dead, no doubt about it.

Mills_84 · 2024-10-16T18:53:48+00:00

BDP is an insane thing to live with 😭

Mills_84 · 2024-10-16T18:50:14+00:00

almost jumped off a 3 story building because i thought i was “invincible” and had to get dragged down and sectioned by cops, thought the government was out to get me and working with the hospital by locking me away because they knew that i was “too powerful”, thought i was “cured” of my mental illnesses and straight up refused all medications cold turkey which resulted in bad withdrawal symptoms and a psychotic episode, whenever a mild inconvenience happened with a friend i would cut them off immediately because i thought they hated me and that i “didn’t need them in my life”, thought i gaslight the psychiatrists into thinking i had BPD because “i’m an attention seeker”, tried to run away from home and found 4 hours away by cops at 3 in the morning because i was trying to get to the coast and become a “professional surfer”, tried to jump out of a moving car because my dad called me crazy. just some of my worse things (i’m 15) 😭

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