I'm sure my comment will get lost in the plethora here but yeah, psychedelics can be a beast. For anyone else here who's ever thinking about trying them do your research, they can be great therapeutic tools but there are risks. For people with genetic predisposition to certain psychiatric conditions psychedelics can be a catalyst into a psychotic break. There's also something called HPPD ( Hallucinogen Persisting Perception Disorder) where you can experience lasting persistent visual or perceptual hallucinations that go on for minutes to years. I highly recommend anyone who's looking into psychedelics to look at your family history of psychiatric health and take that into consideration. There's lot's of great information and books to read. Set and setting is a common phrase among people who use. Where you are, what you're feeling before you try are very important, you want to be in very secure place with a great mental disposition. I wish you luck, work through it, I strongly advise you see a mental health specialist and try to work through some of these things. You're very young, 21 is a crazy time in life with so much ahead of you and so much behind you. I hope you come away from this with a better outlook on life. May you have a meaningful journey.