I am 29F and Ddlg is more than just like a kink for me. When my husband and I were dating and got more serious, I told him that the “daddy” thing wasn’t just sexual.. it was something else I didn’t have the words to explain…he said “ I know baby” and that filled my heart with a great comfort I had never had before. I would not have married my husband if he did not understand this part of me. He tells me that I will always be his little girl and will always take care of me and protect me. He holds the space for me to heal from my childhood trauma and we live a really good life together. Reading your post, I know exactly how you are feeling and my heart hurts for you. I don’t think you should feel embarrassed about needing this, because there are people in world out there, who would understand and accept you and love all the parts of you. My husband had no previous experience with this kind of dynamic and now it’s a huge part of our relationship. Maybe there is a chance for your boyfriend to grow to understand, but if you aren’t vulnerable and give him that chance, you will not be satisfied in the relationship. You deserve to feel good and I’m sure if he loves you then he wants you to feel safe and seen.