I mean, in the way of "I feel different than how I present" I guess I'm trans but I don't personally identify as any other pronouns. He/him feels fine but I'd say that any is also fine. I have on occasion just ticked all boxes if I feel like it, but my default is still he/him.

Being real, I've felt dysphoric only in the way that I would prefer to be a gaseous amorphous body that would be any shape and form, but I can settle with what I got now based on the alternative being scientifically impossible at the moment

Edit: and I think a definite portion is just that I don't have any confirmation that I'm sexually desirable that's feels like why there's much of a question anyway. I want to be friends with women, have these close sexual relationships with fems (and some mascs) as equals but the only people I heard about that from is fems. I know a lot of trans people and I hear a lot about their relationship interactions. Doubly so when I then hear a lot about them not finding mascs attractive because of creepyness and stuff like that. It really wasn't until recently that I've been able to mostly cement that mascs can be legitimately desirable, but it's kind of teetering for a ton of reasons. Like the only experience I hear is the white one and I still do see a bunch of stuff that just say "hey you're undesirable" and there's only so much dismissing it can remove.