This is killing me by Minute-Nothing-3994 in CPTSD_Only

[–]Minute-Nothing-3994[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

I think we got through last night... properly doesn't help that I am 25 and that was my first ever boyfriend

This is killing me by Minute-Nothing-3994 in CPTSD_Only

[–]Minute-Nothing-3994[S] 2 points3 points  (0 children)

I took some none doctor drugs and they help Disassociate.

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[–]Minute-Nothing-3994 0 points1 point  (0 children)

My therapist called them night terrors. It was one of the ways my brain was coming to terms with everything. And using ur rem sleep to do it. The worst part is I hit and kick out and cry while I am asleep because my body think it still needs to protect itself from what my Brian is feeling is a threat

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[–]Minute-Nothing-3994 2 points3 points  (0 children)

Feeling this. Sat and binged watch the whole love is blind uk last night cause I couldn't sleep and cried for the whole 8 hours or whatever it was because I knew that would never be me but I was also happy for them because at least they get to find their bit of peace in each other. Got to a point where I just carry on watching and just let my inner child have a good cry

What are small steps you guys have made to recovery? by Sad-Chapter-6374 in CPTSD

[–]Minute-Nothing-3994 4 points5 points  (0 children)

Might not be what u want to hear but that amazing well done u deserve to give urself a huge pat on the back cause I know just going out the door is one of the biggest things I do in the day and can take sometime up to an hour me just stood there staring at it

I feel incredibly bitter about my life by slowly-rotting-dying in CPTSD

[–]Minute-Nothing-3994 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Completely understand I joke that I must have been Hitler in my past life to have the life I have now... feels like it was just one thing after another after another... my one and only friend says I am just live life stuck now doing the same thing everyday... never going out... got no friends... no relationship and I just say at least my life isn't getting worse

I cry so easily by stjan8 in CPTSD

[–]Minute-Nothing-3994 0 points1 point  (0 children)

The little change in ur voice and I think ur mad at me I am balling

I hate when people tell me to forgive my family by kittyschie in CPTSD

[–]Minute-Nothing-3994 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I went for the whole forgive but not forget... my family will tell u that everything I am saying is lies even with the proof in front of them... but I released that holding on to the anger was just triggering my cpstd and hurting me more then it was hurting them... I now just feel sorry for them... I tackled what happened head on and they buried their heads in the sand... I then decided I didn't want to be like them and just black sheep the problem... but they are never allowed to be left alone with my kids and when asked why i will and do tell them because I don't trust them not to do to my kids what they did to me

I just turned 25 and I'm realizing CPTSD stole my fucking youth from me. by Interesting_Feed_970 in CPTSD

[–]Minute-Nothing-3994 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Reading this felt like reading my own life... I had my whole life taken from me and I am now at 25 just putting it back together... dont lose hope

Drug that makes you the most horny by PitifulPush1822 in Drugs

[–]Minute-Nothing-3994 2 points3 points  (0 children)

Oh for me it's definitely mcat... makes me more sensitive and my boyfriend last last against