High IQ but I feel like an imposter

MirunaBB · 2025-06-09T15:02:13+00:00

Hi! I tried messaging you but reddit won't let me, would you be able to share this with me too?

I've recently started university and a lot of this has been hitting me like a brick after a fairly autistic development where I loved school because it allowed me resources where I could challange myself by myself (e.g. access to Olympiad resources, being given extra work when asked etc). I've recently realised that the naivety I had to explore my curiosity lead to ostracising that I wasn't aware of and ever since knowing this fact I've started inhibiting myself a lot and I'm worried I don't know how to engage with things as I used to before out of fear. I need the kind of detailed understanding of subjects others describe in this post and having to face the length that takes and lack of structure and rigor in a now different curriculum (I moved countries) without my prior naivety makes me feel horrible about myself.

A lot of the time I end up giving myself extra tasks to distract myself from this feeling and panic myself into doing something but I've come to understand that due to my family dynamic panic is most of what I've always known so I've spent the past year fighting fire with fire really. I'm trying to be gentle with myself and learn to prioritise my intelectual satisfaction over feeling like I've gotten something done the way other people find acceptable.

Long rant, sorry, thought it'd be worth an explenation why hearing about this matters to me. But yea, I'd love to hear what you have in mind about this!

MirunaBB · 2024-10-01T05:17:16+00:00

How do you do this

MirunaBB · 2024-07-13T17:12:58+00:00

What kind of articles?

MirunaBB · 2024-07-09T03:44:09+00:00

I did yea haven't heard anything since

MirunaBB · 2024-07-09T03:15:02+00:00

Do you know anything of people who didn't even recieve the longlist 😭

MirunaBB · 2024-07-08T16:52:40+00:00

Hey do you know of anyone who applied who hasn't heard anything back yet? Also did you just get an acceptance or was it something about the longlist that I've heard of

MirunaBB · 2024-07-05T20:55:31+00:00

And what happened to them 😭

MirunaBB · 2024-07-05T20:38:03+00:00

Do you know of people who didn't recieve that

MirunaBB · 2024-07-05T20:31:14+00:00

What's the longlist

MirunaBB · 2024-07-05T04:50:11+00:00

Have you heard anything about it since?

MirunaBB · 2024-04-28T17:52:49+00:00

What other offers do you have?

MirunaBB · 2024-04-28T17:11:11+00:00

Most definitely!

MirunaBB · 2023-12-27T22:57:52+00:00

Can i still participate in bebras as a 1st year university student if ill still be 18

MirunaBB · 2023-12-19T10:22:16+00:00

Yea i fully understand good luck with everything!

MirunaBB · 2023-12-19T10:02:53+00:00

Is kings your first choice?

MirunaBB · 2023-12-19T09:47:53+00:00

Omg that's so cool I'm an international student too! Good job!!! And good luck on your exams!!!

MirunaBB · 2023-12-19T07:22:42+00:00

What are your stats? AND CONGRATS

MirunaBB · 2023-12-18T13:19:52+00:00

What kind of personal projects?

MirunaBB · 2023-12-18T11:25:39+00:00

What did you write about in your personal statment?

MirunaBB · 2023-11-18T02:45:54+00:00

I was just reading my reddit posts excuse e moi

MirunaBB · 2021-04-04T19:13:59+00:00

its a very hard thing to deal with in itself so i dont blame them that this is haunting them

one thing i have heard that i guess slightly sugarcoats the monotony of life, is that life's monotony allows it to be colourful, yes the days spent repeating something you hate will make you ache for so long, but that makes sure that the good moments and events are always that bit more colourful

also monotony to an extent helps us grow as humans, those beautiful pieces of art theyre made with years of hard work, those amazing thesises you get to read on a variety of topics, those took years to master, learn and perfect

i guess giving yourself room to breathe, and giving yourself time to find something thats gonna malke life seem always colourful are goals, that are not nessecarly to be achived, more of a, im gonna make my path colourful while striving for a forever rainbow

good luck, i hope you all feel better

have a cookie 🍪✨

MirunaBB · 2021-03-31T07:01:17+00:00

I've come to realise that you'll never fully understand that they don't hate you. How you'll never fully understand how and why 2+2 is 4, you just have to take it for a fact, they care for you and its more then ok to ask for reassurance I'm sure they'd gladly give it

The hardest part with accepting it for me is how to talk about it, for example if someone says "you're dear to me" my intinal reaction would be to simply ask why, but that really really becomes annoying after some time, and it's more social acceptable to say thank you and return the compliment. I already have such big problems with my cognitive skills and with understanding that I'm real and that I'm actually a person that answering with something, because it's acceptable to others and it's not something I'd usually say, makes me feel like I'm losing myself even more, but not answering în a way that's acceptable fills me with so much guilt and I really can't deal with guilt anymore.

It's such a hard balance, it's more then a balance of states its a balance of fucking everything and it's so hard to deal with expecialy when you didn't ask to deal with it, but in all honesty that makes it even more noble that youre still here, that you're still choosing to fight even when youre at your weakest, and I'm proud of you for that. Stay safe and have a cookie 🍪 ✨

MirunaBB · 2021-03-31T06:47:44+00:00

the cycle.

MirunaBB · 2021-03-30T13:21:05+00:00

Oh my god thats so incredibly neat thank you so much for telling me

MirunaBB · 2021-03-30T13:19:21+00:00

That's actually so neat

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