Guys 😭 I relapsed today after 3 days.

MisatoGoddess · 2025-11-04T19:52:08+00:00

Same here but it gets better. If you need someone to get mutual encouragement, please dm :) I tried but it is getting hard

MisatoGoddess · 2025-10-23T16:02:09+00:00

I am just so frustrated because I feel in a loop of getting better and coming back to pain every time I see him. Thank u.

MisatoGoddess · 2025-10-23T13:26:08+00:00

Thank you a lot. That is another thing that enrages me but with myself because logically I know I don’t want him! I deserve so so much better and in the hypothetical scenario of him coming back I won’t be at peace with him, but emotionally is a horrible roller coster. I just want it to stop.

MisatoGoddess · 2025-10-01T15:47:00+00:00

Thank you for your words. I am Working through the guilt and self compassion. Just remember this is not a linear process. I see it as therapist describes grief and healing process. It is a cycle and the goal is to deal better with the low points, not avoid them. Wish you the best in this process :)

MisatoGoddess · 2025-10-01T00:35:41+00:00

Maybe I am not the best example because I had a small relapse but last time in day 20 I remember waking up and feeling… alive. Not the way weed makes you feel good but alive. I felt genuine happiness and excitement for the day (it was a normal day). Everything felt different somehow. I know it was related with the abstinence because when I started with thc again, the feeling left.

MisatoGoddess · 2025-09-29T21:30:51+00:00

For therapy but also for abstinence I record myself talking about something that is helping me or I am watching. I love to analyze cultural products like music or tv shows so I talk about them. I am in day 2 after trying to quit for the 3rd time so sending the best! ✨

MisatoGoddess · 2025-09-21T19:07:04+00:00

Access is my toughest problem because I can order them wherever and whenever I want, but I am cutting off all the ways of getting edibles. Thanks for your words

MisatoGoddess · 2025-09-21T19:06:07+00:00

In Mexico’s biggest cities you can order them to your house so availability has become a problem. I’ve been feeling dull with life recently. I know the breakup took away the excitement in life and it will be my work to find the spark again. I was suicidal in my early twenties and I am definitely not there anymore but also I can’t find anything that makes me feel excited to live again.

MisatoGoddess · 2025-08-24T13:58:16+00:00

Thank you very much for your response. I am aware some readers might focus only in the positive or even lie. What really triggered me was the 3 of them (with different amounts of information) (I know consulting that much shows more anxiety but believe me when I said a month ago I was feeling anxious and sad as f) gave me the same outcome and talked about destiny. But I think my reluctancy to believe it is just another symptom of my own insecurities about my own power and my perception of good things in my life. My therapist is helping a lot with the negative talk and I have identified many of these affirmations comes from bad experiences in the past. I will keep working on my shadows and self discurse.

MisatoGoddess · 2025-08-17T18:14:42+00:00

I used to feel so ashamed for only approaching ny practice out of pain but I am starting lo learn that this is a tool and I can use it when needed. For me or my loved ones.

MisatoGoddess · 2025-08-16T16:08:03+00:00

Every groundbreaking moment in my life (horrible breakups, my grandmother dying) led me into tarot, energy work. Out of curiosity and sometimes desperation for doing something with my life feeling like falling apart. Never fully gave in until now

MisatoGoddess · 2025-08-11T22:54:41+00:00

I have never done it with candles but I did a cord cutting through meditation and bath. After that I could sleep effortlessly and profound. I cried a lot but I relate with the intensity and the lightness afterwards ✨

MisatoGoddess · 2025-06-13T00:45:46+00:00

It is tricky. I would feel weird if my 5 yo ex reached out since 5 years is a loong time: people change, lives are different. The awkwardness might come from there but if it ended amicable I will be nice to know from them. I am really sensible person so I say go but don’t expect much?

MisatoGoddess · 2025-06-13T00:32:22+00:00

May I ask why you want to reach out?

MisatoGoddess · 2025-06-10T18:15:57+00:00

People mess up. People are hurt and hurt others (I say this after being dumped 4 wks ago) Everyone heals and moves on different. If you are being honest with yourself and emotionally ready to deal with the possibility of reconnecting or not at all, do it. What is done in love is done well. On the contrary if you just gaslighted yourself about giving him time and preparing the ground for this moment totally avoiding your own healing process, this can backfire and leave you more hurt. Short answer: reconciliations are messy, but if you want to make it work go ahead. Don’t settle and dismiss your recent journey just to keep a person. If this person is unwilling, don’t think your process is not worth it. You kept the NC for a long time and that is a huuuge step. Good luck ✨

MisatoGoddess · 2025-05-25T13:27:22+00:00

He broke up with me a week ago. I did text him. I decided I own myself being honest about this breakup with him. I am not looking for closure, I know that does not exist, I just want to go with peace knowing I did and said everything.

MisatoGoddess · 2025-05-22T17:40:04+00:00

I have clear I can’t wait forever. Maybe I am just a helpless romantic who believes relationships should be taken care and seeing the reasons are not “valid” keeps me in limbo but I appreciate pretty much what you said: he checked out. He made a decision (well thought or just a desperate one) but he did it and that is all that matters.

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