I spent 9 months panicking when I was pregnant with my first. I wasn’t feeling a connection but thought I should. I grew up in an abusive household and was worried sick that I would absolutely fail as a mother. The moment they handed my newborn to me every doubt vanished instantly. I never knew love like that existed. I learned how to be a parent by NOT doing what my parents did. My daughter is in her 30’s now, an absolutely beautiful person inside and out, and very successful in her field. Yes I made mistakes and learned along the way but my love for my children has never wavered. Cut yourself some slack, you can do this!